Trudging through the sweltering heat
air barely moves as the humidity soars
tempers flare and words fall
Like fireworks thundering and whistling
lighting up a dark summer sky.
No relief from the burden I carry
can be seen far or near
the seasons will pass
as heat turns cold and frostbite sets in
I fear my fears
will come to pass
The strength I once carried
seems to have slipped aside
no matter how I turn
someone will get hurt
someone will cry.
The long days seem to laugh at me
as the torment grows
and my heart turns cold.
I can't seem to feel
anything more than the sweltering heat.
It's as if my emotions have frozen in time.
My heart screams out, Stand far away!
The heat has settled
and tempers still flare
angry words exchanged in despair.
I feel anger
and see the dark red flames
and in all my talking
it seems such a shame
no matter what I say
No matter what I do
these words fall upon deaf ears
The anger erupts
over the simplest things
and , I have no tolerance for the emotions displayed.
I can not pretend
nor convince my heart to change
memories are embedded upon my soul
and there is no way to erase the feelings they bring.
So, in the heat of the moment, when feeling despair,
I made a choice I regret
and feel powerless to correct.
My mind dances over the answers
as I try to stay cool
and the guilt lingers
knowing what I do.
With heavy heart
I just trudge through each day
trying to enjoy my children
and hoping for someday.
7/6/02
