blah.. blah.. blah.. iite.. dis thang is bout ta cum straight outta mai "written" journal.. haha im too layzee ta think bout what ta write in hea.. so yeah.. imma just get a jump start wid what i already got.. haha.. so now hea it goes.. "ryte now im talkin ta eric nguyen. (mai so called "boyfren") well yeah.. hez mai.. er was mai.. best guy fren.. iono.. things are cunfusin.. it use ta be dat i could tell him nethang.. and dat i would tell him everythang.. yet now.. derz just sum things i dunt know how ta tell him.. see.. i fer sum odd reason.. is freightened by dat four letter word.. yanoe.. 'love'.. weLlz yeah.. im scarred of fallin inta it.. iono.. i guess ive gotta admitt dat in wayz it ties in wid mai ex-boyfren.. Jayson Vale Cruz.. itz just.. iono.. wen thangz ended btwn me and him.. it hurted so much.. dat it took me a year ta get 'ova' him.. and ta think we werent 'in love'.. makes me wonder.. how much greater would dat pain be if our feelinz fer wun anoda were even stronger.. does dat make sense!? weLlz yeah.. i just dunt wanna get hurt.. and basically.. i want mai ferst love.. ta be mai last and onlee love.. i want it ta last 'fereva'.. i guess datz why ive got mai heart locked in a safe.. [so ta speak].. i just wanna make certain dat dah guy i give mai heart ta.. will keep it safe.. and hopefully 'treashure' it.. rather den throwin it on dah floor and allowin it ta shatter inta pieces.. becuz i just cant be shure if i'll be able ta mend it.. blah.. im ovathinkin dis ordeal arent i?! *sigh*.. well yeah.. i.. in waiz.. kinda wanna call things off wid eric.. not becuz ive lost interest er nething of dat sort.. but becuz hez ryte.. if youre not goin ta allow yourself ta fall in love.. whatz dah point in bein in a relationship?! and truth be told.. most likely. if we continue dis 'relationship'.. chancez are.. even if i detest it.. i'll probably end up fallin fer him.. which leds on ta even moe unanswered unasked questions.. [..'does he feel dah same?!'..'how long til im left wid a broken heart?!'.. blah blah blah] but dah irony in dis entire thang is dat i dunt wanna end things.. everythangz goin gewd.. and i reallie care bout him.. iono.. sumtymes he just has dis way of makin me ferget mai problems.. even if itz onlee fer a minute er two..itz a lot moe den newun else has come close ta doin.. and well yeah.. i love dah fact dat i dunt need ta keep nethang frum him.. [wish it was dah same fer him.. but..] well yeah.. iono what ta do.. gahHh.. whateveries.. i guess.. *sigh*.. i need a break frum all dis thinkin.." haha.. weLlz yeah.. wid dat i'd like ta welcum you ppl ta mai world.. mai way of thinkin.. so yeah.. sorrie i bored you.. but ey.. you aint gotta be in hea readin dis if you dunt want ta.. iite den.. wid dat imma cut dis hea.. latez..!! - CoLa
ps: "if you love sumwun.. tell dem.. in dah game of lyfe.. if you dunt go up ta bat.. trust me.. sumwun will.." dat quote takin frum as told mai ginger.. gahh.. makes you think huh?! :\