He smiled and kissed her forehead. "Yes we do. I love you, you know that right?"
She smiled, and snuggled up to him. "I know baby. I'm just happy that all of my friends are happy right now."
"I know..God has blessed us," he said, closing his eyes, and tightening his hold on her. Once they had gotten back to his place, they had worked out their problems. He had confessed to her just how strong his love was, and told her the moment she was ready to go public, he would announce it. He had just been concerned for her, and her heart was now stronger, knowing that he cared.
She was laying there, curled up against the wall, asleep. She had most definately cried herself to sleep, and by the looks of it, she was cold. No matter how mad, confused or hurt he was...he loved her, and there was no way that he could leave her like this. He picked her up in his arms gently, and put her to bed.
Once she hit the cover, she sighed, and snuggled up in them for warmth. He touched her face gently before pulling back, and heading downstairs. It was time to face everything that he had put off last night. He fixed him a cup of coffee, and sat down at the table, not knowing where to start and analyze the situation.
He knew that he wasn't ready to just give up on the relationship...they had come to far for him to through it all away over one minor situation....but he couldn't just ignore it. He knew that she loved him, and he knew that he loved her. His heart was screaming to forget about it, because it was seeing there was no problem. But he knew better than that.
The way she had spoken about Justin, made him suspect some type of feelings beyond friendship. He knew that she would never cheat on him,...but he couldn't ignore the fact that she might secretly like Justin..while being in love with him. Things were too difficult, and he wished that an answer would come to him..just one simple sign that would show him what to do.
That's when God answered his prayer. The alarm from upstairs in her room went off, but he could hear the music that was playing. When he heard the song that he dedicated to her at one of their concerts, he knew to follow his heart.
When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
When all that surrounds you
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when its gone
>
The one you should call
Was standing here all alone
It shut off, and Jc sat down his cup. He walked slowly up the steps, and opened to door to reveal her laying there. She looked so small curled up. He walked to her and touched her face gently, and she moved towards his touch.
Knowing that she was tired, he didn't want to wake her. All he wanted at that moment was to hold her, and give her a silent sense of knowing that he was there for her, forever and always. He crawled in bed, and wrapped his arms around her...holding her close to him. He laid his head down, and closed his eyes. The sound of her breathing put him in a restful sleep.
Her tears were rolling down her cheeks. "Tell me something Justin....do I even come close to Whitney in your eyes? Do I add up to the fantasies that you have had about her? Tell me ..be honest!"
He sighed. "Denise..I don't fantasize about her. That was years ago..I don't love her..I ..I think I love you Denise.."
"You think? Until you're sure..I..I ..just don't know what to do. Right now I'm just confused."
"Don't go..please baby..don't go."
She looked at him, and grabbed her coat. "I have to," she said slamming the door.
Justin sat straight up, and looked to see where he was. He had fallen asleep on the couch, and he was now in a cold sweat. That dream had been so real. He couldn't lose Denise..and he couldn't lose Whitney as a friend. He finally thought with his heart, and decided to talk to Denise first.
He knew that she wasn't up, so he decided to take a shower, in an attempt to wake up, and decide what he was going to say. He knew one thing for sure..he wasn't going to lose her. He couldn't and he wouldn't allow himself to lose the one girl that was slowly working her way into his heart.
His eyes were closed, and his features were relaxed. She reached out to touch his face to make sure that he was really there. He sighed, and moved towards her touch. Her face lite up with hope, and she couldn't resit laying her head on his shoulder.
At the touch of her head hitting his shoulder, he woke up. He didn't move, knowing that she was right there, and they were fixing to be in for a long talk. Her eyes turned to look at him, and they locked on his. In hers, they showed a mixture of confusion and hope. He didn't know what to say, so he just laid there, holding her tightly in his arms.
"Jc....what..what is happening?"
He sighed. "I honestly don't know, but we have a lot of things to discuss."
She swallowed, and nodded her head. She was still laying on his chest, and her hair tickled him. He couldn't help but squirm. "Well...first off...why didn't you ever tell me about those feelings for Justin?"
She sat up, and pulled the comforter around her. "Jc...I didn't know how to explain it. They were feelings that I had before I first met you...and I mean..I didn't think it would really matter....besides..you know that I love you..you can't sit here and lie to me, trying to make me believe that you honestly think that I love Justin. I'll admit..the boy will always have a place in my heart, but its not the type of space that you have Jc."
"You're space is because of the love you give me...Justin's is for friendly love. You're my heart, soul, inspiration," she said, touching his cheek, causing him to look into her eyes. "You're the only guy that I'll ever want from now on."
The words that she had just spoken had came from her heart. "I know...but Whitney..you can't expect me to take that news lightly. That was a blow to the heart..I..I don't know what to think."
She had confidence, and she wasn't afraid to show it. "Jc...look me straight in the eyes, and tell me that you're ready to give up on us. LOOK me in the eyes, and tell me that the time that we have spent together means not a damn thing. Surely you can get past one thing that I made a mistake on..and you know that I wouldn't lie to you. I just didn't feel that it was important to tell you about that."
Jc turned away from her stare and sighed. His voice was low. "I can't look you in the eyes and say that because I could never lie to you."
She grabbed his face, and turned it around to where she was looking into his eyes. "Jc..then don't make something more of this than there is. It's just something that happened a long time ago. We both know that our love is strong, and you know that if I didn't love you, I wouldn't be sitting here, arguing my case. I wouldn't have stood by you when you were down, hurt, sick, or just whatever. You know as well as I do that this is nothing compared to some of the things that we went through..but we have held our relationship together, and I'll be damned if I let you try and throw it away over something that shouldn't even be bothering us."
He couldn't help but smile at the way she was being. He loved it when she took charge, and even though right now he was still kinda confused, he knew what he wanted to do. She was about to continue when he placed his lips on hers, silencing them. When he pulled back, she was in shock. "Jc.."
"Whitney...I love you...I'm sorry for over-reacting but it just happened. Forgive me,Shorty."
She smiled and touched his lips with hers lightly. "I love you too, and I promise to tell you everything from now on." The two of them laid there in each other's arms, enjoying the sound of the other's breathing.
Her voice was cold. "Justin..right now..I don't want to be around you, let along listen to you explain something that you made clear last night."
She tried to go around him, but he blocked her path. "I won't let you do this...don't do it. Just give me five mintutes..please baby."
She sighed. "What part of what I just told you dont you understand?"
"Fine, you wanna be difficult, we can be that way," he said, grabbing her suitcase and setting it aside. She reached out for it, but before she could take hold of it, he scooped her up in his arms, and took of towards his bedroom.
"JUSTIN..I SWEAR PUT ME DOWN."
He didn't say anything, but threw her on the bed. She tried to bounce up, but he pined her down, and tore one of his pillowcases. He tied her to the bed, and once he was done, he looked at her, with a smile on his face." You couldn't do this the easy way, could you?"
She refused to speak to him. "Well, this should be really easy, considering you won't talk to me..that should mean I can get everything that I need to say out, and you're going to listen."
She narrowed her eyes. "What makes you think that I want to listen?"
His smile was confident. "You may tell yourself that you don't want to, but you know that you will."
"Just whatever, Justin. Hurry, I have things to do."
"Denise, last night was a night that I never thought would ever happen. Yes, everything that I said last night was true, and if given the chance, I'd probably say it again. Whitney has always been on of the friend's that I could count on whenver I needed her. I couldn't help the fact that along the way, I became dependant on her. She just was always there, and I just envisioned that she'd be the final one with me," he said, pausing to take a breath, and to sneak a look at Denise. She was trying her hardest to ignore him, but he knew that he had her attention.
"Then, when Jc and Whitney started going out, I knew that they'd probably be together forever. I kept my feelings that I had for her hidden, until last night. I promise you that she had no clue about what I would say...I honestly didn't think that I would say that. But, you asked that question, and you wanted an honest answer. I gave you that. There is no reason for you to get mad about that."
"How the hell am I suppose to not get mad, Jusitn? The guy that I love tells me that he has feelings for his BEST friend?"
"I said that I had always envisioned myself with her. And, yes I did have feelings for her, and I have feelings that only go to friendship for her. Those were in the past. I don't get how you can't see that you're the only girl that is in my heart right now? The feelings that I had for Whitney are gone...Denise you're important to me, and I'll be damned if I will watch you walk away and not fight for you."
"You've help me settle down...before I met you my longest relationship may last a month..you're so unlike those other girls...you understand me..you understand my need for space, but you also know that there are times when I don't want someone to back off just because I say. You have that ability to read me...it is powerful."
"Justin, I think that its time that I'm honest with you. It bothers me at how close you and Whitney are. You're always talking about her, and thinking about her. Hell, there are times that I'm even convinced that you love her."
"But, Denise..I don't..I love her in a friendly way. You just don't understand at how much she's been there for me. There have been so many times that she's been the one to help me get over what I was feeling, helped me control my temper, and been there to pick me up. I won't stop spending time with her. She's a part of my life that hopefully will never go away."
"I don't want you to stop spending time with her. Hell, right now I don't know what I want. But, you aren't fulling anyone if you stand there and try and tell me that you don't feel even a fraction bit more towards her than friendship. You look at Jc with envy, and the way that you just talked about her right now...you know and I know that you would go after her if she was single."
"That's where you're wrong. Our friendship is too special to me, and right now....something happened to make me realize that I'm falling for you more than I originally thought."
"You can untie me now, Justin."
After she was untied, she sat on the bed and stared out the window. "I'll make you a deal Justin...I'm going to talk to Jc..and I think that you two need to spend some time together and figure out if something is there. I care for you, and I want you to be happy."
"Denise..its not necesary.."
She held up her hand. "Justin, I can't be with you knowing that your heart is with someone else. It's either that, or I'm gone forever. I won't put myself in that type of situation."
He nodded his head."Fine, if that's what it takes to prove to you that you're the one I want, I'll do it...but you're going to be the one to talk to Jc and Whitney about it."
"That's fair, I'll call them and see if they can come over now."
Justin nodded his head, and watched her dial the number. He barely listened to the conversation, because he was lost in his own world of thought. If he knew Jc, he wouldn't agree to it. Especially after what Whitney had said last night. But, if he didn't, he'd most definately lose Denise. It was a lose-lose situation.