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01. the package
02. weak and powerless
03. the noose
04. blue
05. vanishing
06. a stranger
07. the outsider
08. crimes
09. the nurse who loved me
10. pet
11. lullaby
12. gravity



01.
The Package

clever got me this far,then tricky got me in
i am what im after, don't need another friend.
smile and drop the cliche, do you think im listening?
take just what i came for, then im out the door again.

peripheral on the package
dont care to settle in
time to feed the monster, dont need another friend
comfort is a mystery crawling out of my own skin
just give me what i came for and im out the door again

lie to get what i came for
lie to get just what i need
lie to get what i crave
lie and smile to get whats mine

i am what im after
dont need another friend
nod an watch your lips move if you need me to pretend,
because clever got me this far and tricky got me in.
ill take what i came for, then im out the door again.
lie to get what i came for
lie to get what i need now
lie to get what im craving
lie and smile and get whats mine

give this to me
mine mine mine
take whats mine
mine mine mine
take whats mine

lie to get what i came for
lie to get what i need now
lie to get what i crave
lie just smile and get whats mine

give this to me
take whats mine
mine mine mine
take whats mine

give this to me
take whats mine
mine...
take whats mine...
this is mine...

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02.
Weak and Powerless

tilling my own grave to keep me level
jam another dragon down the hole
digging to the rhythm and
the echo of a solitary siren
one that pushes me along and leaves me
so desperate and ravenous
so weak and powerless over you

someone feed the monkey
while i dig in search of china
white as dracula as i approach the bottom
desperate and ravenous
so weak and powerless over you

pale angel go away
come again some other day
devil has my ear today
i don't hear a word you're saying

promised i would find little solace
and some peace of mind
whatever just as long as i don't feel
so desperate and ravenous
so weak and powerless
desperate and ravenous
so weak and powerless over you
over you

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03.
The Noose

So glad to see you well
Overcome and completely silent now
With heavens help you cast your demons out

And not to pull your halo down
Around your neck and tug you off your cloud
But I'm more then just a little curious
How you're planning to go about making your amends
To the dead
To the dead

Recall the deeds as if they're all
Someone else’s atrocious stories
Now you stand reborn before us all
So glad to see you well

And not to pull your halo down
Around your neck and tug you to the ground
But I'm more then just a little curious
How you're planning to go about making your amends
To the dead
To the dead

With your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping
Your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping down

But I'm more then just a little curious
How you're planning to go about making your
More then just a little curious
How you're planning to go about making your
More then just a little curious
How you're planning to go about making your amends
Your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping down
To choke you now

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04.
Blue

I didn't want to know
I just didn't want to know
Best to keep things in the shallow end
Cause I never quite learned how to swim

I just didn't want to know
Didn't want
Didn't want
Didn't want
Didn't want

Close my eyes just to look at you
Taken by the seamless vision
I close my eyes
Ignore the smoke
Ignore the smoke
Ignore the smoke

Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
While I just sit and stare at you

Because I don't want to know

I didn't want to know
I just didn't want to know
I just didn't want

Mistook their nods for an approval
Just ignore the smoke and smile

Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a perfect color for your eyes
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
While I just sit and stare at you

I don't want to know

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05.
Vanishing

disappear
disappear
higher
higher
into the air
slowly disappear
no, no longer here

disappear
disappear
thinner, thinner
into the air

never really here
wasn't ever

like a thought brushing up against a sigh

floating away
floating away

vanishing like a sigh on sunday
disappear
disappear
vanish, vanish into the air
slowly disappear
never really here

floating away
floating away

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06.
A Stranger

cast the calming apple
up and over satelites
to draw out the timid wild one
to convince you it's alright
and I listen for the whisper
of your sweet insanity while I formulate
denials of your affect on me

you're a stranger
so what do i care
you vanish today
not the first time I hear
all the lies

what am I to do with all this silence
shy away, shy away phantom
run away terrified child
won't you move away you you fuckin tornado
I'm better off without
tearing my will down

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07.
The Outsider

Help me if you can
It's just that this is not the way I'm wired
So could you please, help me understand why
You've given in to all these reckless dark desires

You're lying to yourself again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the faultline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this, why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess, why would i wanna watch you

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die

Medicated, drama queen, picture perfect, numb belligerance
Narcisistic, drama queen, craving fame and all this decadence

Lying through your teeth again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the fautline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this, why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess, why would i wanna watch you

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die

They were right about you
They were right about you

Lying to my face again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the fautline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this , why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess, over this, over this

Disconnect and self destruct, one bullet at a time
What's your hurry, everyone will have his day to die

If you choose to pull the trigger,
should your drama prove sincere
Do it somewhere far away from here

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08.
Crimes

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09.
The Nurse Who Loved Me

Say hello to the rugs topography
It holds quite a lot of interest with your face down on it
Say hello to the shrinking in your head
You can't see it but you'll know it's there so don't neglect it

I'm taking her home with me
All dressed in white
She's got everything I need
Pharmacy keys
She's fallen hard for me
I can see it in her eyes
She acts just like a nurse
With all the other guys

Say hello to all the apples on the ground
They were once in your eyes but you sneezed them out while sleeping
Say hello to everything you've left behind
It's even more a part of your life now that you can't touch it

I'm taking her home with me
All dressed in white
She's got everything I need
Some pills in a little cup
She's fallen hard for me
I can see it in her eyes
She acts just like a nurse
With all the other guys

She's got everything I need
Pharmacy keys
She acts just like a nurse
With all the other guys

Say hello to the rugs topography

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10.
Pet

Don't fret precious I'm here
Step away from the window
Go back to sleep

Lay your head down child
I won't let the boogeyman come
Counting bodies like sheep
To the rhythm of the war drums
Pay no mind to the rabble
Pay no mind to the rabble
Head down, go to sleep
To the rhythm of the war drums

Pay no mind what other voices say
They don't care about you
Like I do
Like I do
Safe from pain and truth and choice and other poison devils
See they don't give a fuck about you
Like I do

Just stay with me
Safe and ignorant
Go back to sleep
Go back to sleep
Lay your head down child
I won't let the boogeyman come
Count the bodies like sheep
To the rhythm of the war drums
Pay no mind to the rabble
Pay no mind to the rabble
Head down, go to sleep
To the rhythm of the war drums

I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and all your demons
I'll be the one to protect you from
A will to survive and a voice of reason
I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and your choices son
One and the same I must isolate you
Isolate and save you from yourself

Swayin to the rhythm of the new world order and
Count the bodies like sheep
To the rhythm of the war drum
The boogeymen are coming
The boogeymen are coming
Keep your head down, go to sleep
To the rhythm of a war drum

Stay with me
Safe and ignorant
Just stay with me
Hold you and protect you from the other ones
The evil ones
Don't love you son
Go back to sleep

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11.
Lullaby

Go back to sleep ...

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12.
Gravity

lost again
broken and weary
unable to find my way
tail in hand
dizzy and clearly unable to
just let this go

I am surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live

I fell again
like a baby unable to stand on my own
tail in hand
dizzy and clearly unable to just let this go
high and surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live, I choose to live, I choose to live

catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun
help me survive the bottom

calm these hands before they
snare another pill and
drive another nail down another
bleeding(needy?) hole
please release me

I am surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
catch me
heal me
lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live, I choose to live

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