Burned Toast

Upon Julia's Clothes

Whenas in silks my Julia goes,
Then, then, methinks, how sweetly flows
The liquefaction of her clothes!

Next, when I cast mine eyes and see
That the brave vibration each way free,
--O how glittering taketh me!

-Robert Herrick (1591-1674)

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How do I deal?

How do I deal? My life is like a wreckless
rollercoaster waiting to crash and fall of it's tracks.
My thoughts have scattered elsewhere, I can hardly function in this world of hate.
Everyone is annoying me, my imagination has run wild, I can't keep to myself anymore.
Time is flying by without any regrets,
the days stream by without even looking back,
the nights are when I am at peace.
As I lay there in my bed thinkin of past memories that
I will remember always,
everything comes to a sudden halt,
my mind runs blank,
it get colder with a vengence,
time has run short of patience, I can't cope anymore.
How do I deal? I don't.

-Amand

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Untitled

I see you look at me from over there,
then you walk right past me like you don't even care.
You turn back and smile, then I smile back at you.
I wish you liked me the way I like you, but you don't have a clue.
I just don't understand, I just don't think it's fair.
I could just walk right up to you and kiss you but I wouldn't dare.

-Amanda

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My Way

Lost in deep thoughts, be back in five minutes, please go away so I can finish.
Clear my space and stay out of my face.
All this stuff is going in cirlces around my head,
the drugs I have experimented,
things I will do to get rid of this hell,
All these questions like, should I do this, or should I do that,
or should I go there,
it's screwing with my head,
I've heard it all before,
and I won't turn back,
it's time this girl made up her mind and own decisions,
I will do what I can while I can,
it had me so confused,
I'm tired of asking,
What's this girl to do.?
I think of times that I could handle it,
my mom has no clue what I am up to,
I hope she knows I love her,
I feel caught in the middle of good and bad,
should I do as told or have a little fun?
It's time to face up to these things up close,
But I know I'll find my way.

-Amanda

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Suffer

Why do i always suffer?
I have spent a long time trying to figure this out,
I think about what I have thrown away,
I wish i could stop and press
rewind to go back and cover up all my limitless mistakes.
the things I said to you,
I have cried almost every night,
the answer has been blocked,
there's no light in sight,
It lyes behind the brick wall in my mind,
and I can't break it down.
I lay in my room rotting away
and thinking about the times when we were happy with eachother.
Why do I always suffer?

-Amanda




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