L'amour aussi

*******

Your ghost lingers on
though you're supposedly gone
but the porch light still shines on
      weeping what went wrong
      sure there were sweet certain songs
      the two of you would sweat 'til dawn
and the light lingers on
though you're supposedly gone
      these things i cannot believe
      too much talk in the room
      about illustrious moons
      whom Jesus Christ wove in the womb
      heard the water and wine
      his magestical shine
      when everything will align
somebody finally stops
out come nervous coughs
and you can see it not turned off
that light lingers on
you're probably dreaming of dawn
      mouthing softly such certain songs

*******

pressed inside a space too small
eyes search in concern
her crying call
is not difficultly discerned
                I
                feel
                she
                expected
                unideality
but I wonder
if she feels strange
about me
now
      a scene beaming familiarity and particularity
                          well
           I
                     feel
      decently
      nervous
                at this point in time
we sleep
but I can't sleep
      I need something to eat

*******

She left me in June
after singing tunes 'bout the moon
and how she never turns her back on you
      fireflies and starlight
      your skin shined of white
      and I constantly pondered might
but what do ya know
people go where they go
rivers with southward flow
And I'll be damned
if I am the man
to build some dreamy dam
      'cause the energy
      just isn't in me
      to fail so splendidly
we'll be who we are
never ever push hard
maybe we'll bring birthday cards
      The Earth can't help but spin
      as she whips up the wind
      in the face of her closest kin

*******

This type of intensity
           isn't for me
      it's not for me
      so make it leave
                or leave
living isn't a simple thing
      when some single entity
can be
      misery and be beautifully
           awake
slip into the sexual
      it always slides
           out of control
                oh no
      it's out of control
I am a drinker
I had a few
I only had a few
I swear
and stumble and mumble
something hardly humble
I must be delirious
you can't be serious
                you got it better than
                four billion
                maybe five
                five-and-a-half
lay down a fifty
on shitty self-pity
to collapse by the third turn
three to five odds
      are not
gonna make anyone a millionaire

*******

when not drugged into insanity
after the heavy breathing
sliding saliva skin on skin sin
      building up fast
           to a climax
                after that
                it's
disappointment
                disappointment
           disappointment
                     disappointment
      disappointment
because we've all got out spiral notebooks
      with outrageous spelled out inside
and you give in
or you don't
and it's as simple as that
      it's as simple as that

Summer 2005