Over the last few days, I've also come to a realisation
(prompted mostly last night by the message from shyla
that for now she wants no communication from me).

Now that is never fun to hear from someone you love,
especially when they are having your baby in a short
While.

But after enduring as much shit as I have been, and
after listening to the advice of SEVERAL of my friends
I am finally starting to realise something.

No matter what I have done up until now, no matter
what I say, nor what I do seems to ever pacify her
needs.

I have bent over backwards to satisfy this woman, made
many sacrifices endured alot for her. And in the end I
am left feeling used, much like a play toy pulled out
of the closet and used on her convenience.

Well, to this I say no more.

No longer will I be a slave to love, and her evil
games. I shall stand up for myself, and say no more..

Anyone that has felt loves true pull will realise, and
sympathise that this is no easy task, but there comes
a time when we must all realise
that sometimes love just isn't enough.

It will be hard, but I Will move on, I will endeavor
to find love and happiness...

And who knows, someday she might see the error in her
way and realise what shes missing out on

And who knows, maybe if she's lucky I might still be
interested... Or maybe not, but I certainly will not
be waiting around anymore

-=- J -=-