4/22/01

I told myself a thousand times
I'd never let you see me cry.
But now it seems as if
I couldn't hide the tears if I tried.
This shit is too much.
I can't deal.
You can't possibly care
How fucked I feel.
I let you in.
I trusted you with my heart.
But you weren't gentle.
You ripped it apart.
I would have done anything
To make you mine.
But I'm now seeing everything with you
Was a big waste of my time.
How could you play me like that?
I really thought you cared.
What was it? Too much? Too intense?
Did you get scared?
Well I'm not like her.
Or any of the rest.
I'm that one girl
Who wanted to treat you best.
I never let you cry.
Never let anyone hurt you.
I'd be your best friend.
Always true.
But you've fucked up the program.
Broken me down.
If you saw me crying
Would you let me drown?
I can't believe what I saw,
I wish I could forget.
I used to think you were
The sweetest person I'd ever met.
Now I see your true colors.
You're no better then me.
You're selfish and heartless
But you can't even see.
You're so oblivious
Or maybe you don't care.
Maybe it's some big game to you.
Sort of like "Truth or Dare".
I could have loved you so fucking much.
If you'd just give me a break.
Stop fucking around.
I don't know how much more I can take.
I don't want to hurt.
I don't want to cry.
You love me then you hate me.
And I don't know why.
I can't understand you.
But I don't think I want to.

- copyright =meL= - 2002 -

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