i can't remember the last tear i shed for you
yet the pain you bathed my world in is ever present
i wish there was a drug to ease the pain of heartbreak
maybe i should invent one and become a millionaire
god knows i could use a sedative this time around
if my heart showed threw my skin im sure you'd see
a size 11 footprint embedded in the red flesh
small cracks along the side and a weak beat
if only pain was external you'd see what you do to me
how 99 percent of the words you say rip me to shreds
and the 1% thats left are the things you dont say
how when you look at me with those soft brown eyes
i fall in love with you 10,000 times all over again
and my biggest fears are probably true of you
and i was probably right when i called us a game
because is sure as hell feels like i got played
but maybe im over reacting, maybe shes just a friend
but friends dont fuck and friends dont blow up your pager
and if i ever caught her with you im frightened to think
what i might do, probably nothing to you but she'd regret her birth
lets just say it wouldnt be pretty.
not that she was in the first place.
but i cant chose who you love, i can only hope you still love me

its so easy to hate the one you love and even easier to love the one you hate
i try to stay grounded.. level headed and logical
but when you act like im replacable it makes me kinda think
maybe i should be replacing you right about now
because im sure you know i could have any one of your friends
and anyone of mine. but the problem is you
you're inside me, you've burned yourself a little spot in me
god i hate you so much but love you just the same
multiple personalities i guess.
and then a specimin of human perfection comes my way
plain and simple everything clicks and it's all right
but in the back of my head i cant stop the reminders of you
even when faced with perfection and knowing it
id still chose the one who brings me down to an all time low
i guess my main malfunction in life is loving the wrong guys
habit i guess. you were supposed to be different though
but god damnit you're the same and it makes me so mad
that i didnt see through this a long time ago.
that i let you have that certain piece of me
that few people get the opportunity to experience
it makes me feel dirty and angry
god i just hate this more then anything


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