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Even though Jon and I had a falling out, he is still a good guy. I can't let the present jade the good memories I have from the past. Jon is a very deep person and very hard to figure out. When you're friends with Jon, it's great but when you're not it's like shit. I don't think we'll ever be friends again, and even if we are, a lot of bad words were exchanged between us. I'm a better person than to hold a grudge but as I said, there's not much that could fix the broken. A part of me will always love Jon for the friendhsip that we once shared but even the greatest things in life are not worth someone walking on you or treating you shitty. Nevertheless. Jon deserves a good and happy life I hope he finds it someday.. (5/5/03)


What can I say about Jon? He's one of the coolest guys I know. He's a total sweet heart and one of my bestest friends. One of the reasons I get on this thing is to talk to him. He can always make me smile, no matter how angry or upset I am and he always listens to me when I need to rant and rave. Not only is he an amazing friend, he's absolutely gorgeous. Jon is the full package, a good heart and a pretty face. Any girl that gets to tackle this one is lucky indeed. I have really intense feelings for Jon because well, he's just an amazing guy. He's talented, dedicated and caring. He's one of the truest men I've ever met. And he's truly a rare find. He's beautiful inside and out, and I wish he could himself through my eyes, because it is a beautiful site. Jon is an amazing man and an amazing friend. I truly love him. I hope someday him and I can be together, because then I would be an amazingly lucky girl. Quite possibly, the luckiest person alive. Jon underestimates himself, but I see him for what he really is. A truly wonderful, charming man that is going to go very far in life. Jon is a great person anyway you look at it.

Now that I've been all emo-sha-mel... this song reminds me of Jon. Someday when I'm drunk, I'm going to sing it to him..


"I won't spend another night alone"
The Ataris

A star up in the sky goes slowly passing by,
The lights below...they spell out your name.
You're comfort on my mind and you're with me all the time.
And lot's of feeling that I can't explain.

I won't spend another night alone.

Out of every girl boy I meet, no other can compete
I'd ditch em all for a night with you.
I know you don't believe you mean this much to me
But I promise you that you do.

If I had one wish this is what it would be...
I'd ask you to spend all your time with me,
That we'd be together forever.
We'd buy a small house in south central L.A.
Raise lots of kids then we'd both join a gang
Just as long as we're together.

The things you make me wanna do
I'd rob a quik-e-mart for you
I'd go to the pound and let all the cats go free
Just as long as you'd be with me...

like a rockstar, i'm hopeless
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