I thought it would be easier to just walk away.
But I'm finding out how hard it is to make it through the day.
I was so sure I wouldn't miss you when you were gone.
I cry when I realize - "God. I was wrong."
Warmer then sunshine, and sweeter then ice cream.
Being in love with you was almost like a dream.
I never thought it would be over so fast.
I always thought this thing would last.
But we're done and I'm all by myself yet again.
With you only just pretending to be my new best friend.
I can't stand how this hurts so much.
and how I wish right now just for your touch.
But I can't let you take the best of me anymore.
I can't let your see my heart upon the floor.
For I know that your no longer care,
and I know it's just not fair.
I can't get overwhelmed by my pride.
I have to take these feelings and shove them aside.
I wish I were as strong as you are now.
But you have the strength my heart won't allow.
I'm so good at pretending that I'm ok.
But I think everyone knows I feel betrayed.
But I just can't lose you completely yet.
So I'm trying really hard to just forget.
The tears, the anger and all the pain.
And all the times I felt insane.
I'm trying to be strong so you won't see,
Everytime you're around I'm weak in the knees.
I say I'm over it and doing just fine.
But deep inside I know I'm just lying.
I can lie to you but I can't lie to me.
I just hope someday I'll be free.
I'll stop loving you, and stop dying inside.
Someday I know my tears will subside.
But that day isn't today and won't be coming soon.
So I'll keep praying on the stars and the moon.
Someday I hope you'll come back for good.
And I'd make you come back today if I could.
But I can't, this I know,
So I'll keep trying my best not to show.
I feel so lonely here all alone.