vociferate.and.retaliate

vociferate and retaliate
tear

disfiguring all my believing that today is not yesterday
holding oblivion in my palm, still waiting and speculating psalm -
six - is two, one, and three, but whatever excuse, i cannot conceive
that this is happening to me; self-destruction governs inside me

i fight to be free
i fight to be free
i struggle to perceive
the beauty in clarity
and factuality
deep in disunity
upon guilt and reason
i fight to be free

all my imperfections, faults, and misconceptions
hide under this gray film over this overwhelming deception
pacify me
pacify me
pacify me in this disunity
pacify me
pacify me
pacify me in this disunity
but i live for this enmity
to repress my memory
and i thrive in this enmity
as i bleed in this hostility
so euphoric in this enmity
so satisfied in this antipathy
so euphoric in this enmity
so satisfied in this antipathy
imperceptible feelings impede her vexatious analysis
self-conception and self-control yields my self-analysis
enduring self-betrayal due to self-assertion
i must convince myself that this bond was an illusion

negligence speaks
and negligence breathes
negligence sees
an ascending deceit
negligence feeds
on the feeble and weak
and will always be
the splinter bone-deep
but restoration inundates
a mind that appreciates
a will to communicate
a desire to mediate
yet i never spoke too late
and all i see is all i taint
to the fool and deceiver, i intoxicate,
vociferate, and retaliate
repair
pacify me
pacify me
pacify me in this disunity
pacify me
pacify me
pacify me in this disunity
but i live for this enmity
to repress my memory
and i thrive in this enmity
as i bleed in this hostility
so euphoric in this enmity
so satisfied in this antipathy
so euphoric in this enmity
so satisfied in this antipathy
rest at ease through dusk's recession
and into the night; inevitable regression
remain awake and alive through warm dejection
revolve and revolve in perpetual repression

vociferation
vociferation
vociferation -
pacify me
pacify me
pacify me in this disunity
pacify me
pacify me
pacify me in this disunity
but i live for this enmity
to repress my memory
and i thrive in this enmity
as i bleed in this hostility
so euphoric in this enmity
so satisfied in this antipathy
so euphoric in this enmity
so satisfied in this antipathy

so satisfied
so satisfied
so satisfied and awaking
meaning
the third phase in the destruction.


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