June 21, 2003 @ 11:14PM; I got the Thursday tickets today. Finally. They weren't sold out. Um. I emailed the venue a few days ago to ask if they think that the show will sell out and they said that they've been selling a lot of tickets so if he werre me he would get a ticket in advance. So that's what I did. I added photos from yesterday to the archive. AHHHHH.... I'm gonna have to get some summer reading done tonight for fucking school.

June 21, 2003 @ 1:24PM; I don't know what to think anymore. Me and Danielle aren't best friends. I need to stop dreaming and stop kissing ass. I hate asskissers. Why should I be one myself? That's hypocrytical. I'm sick of her stupid "GOD GOD GOD" bullshit. Sure, she loves God, that's great. But I'm so tired of it. "Did you go to church on Sunday?" NO FUCK YOU. I went with her to youth group and all of stuff that's most important to her. And when I ask her to do me a FAVOR and go to the Thursday concert, she has to fucking think about it. If you don't wanna go because the band is not LABELED Christian, fucking say it, and don't make me wait and think about what the fuck I should do. When I asked her to go with me to see Beloved the next day, and she hesitated again, I told her that they are "Charisian" and automatically it's "YEAH!" FUCK YOU. I'll go by myself and have the fucking time of my life seeing Thursday at their show. I'm in tears right now and no one understands. I want to talk to Talon. But he just threw it all away with us, and I haven't been able to reach him. I told everyone that I wouldn't miss that show is someones LIFE depended on it. I guess that's selfish. But Thursday's music is my life. Why can't anyone understand that? I have bad friends. Maybe I should just go......

June 19, 2003 @ 4:05AM; Up late once again. Suprisingly, no music is playing. I have to put something on right now. Wow. My hands just started sweating. Um. That makes me nervous? The Used is playing now. I haven't listened to them in a really long time partially due to their sudden explosion and stuff. I put the cd in the other night though because I was looking at all of my old cds...that I don't look at very often, and The Used...ta-da. Earlier tonight I was looking through this diary that I wrote it for like 3 months, every other week, and every entry was about guys in my life. Fucking assholes. I was fucking pathetic. "Oh I wish Talon and me would work out but he's going out with Ashley Huff, that whore." hahaha. That was in like January though. I got back from my mom's friend's house at midnight. I stayed there for five hours. The only reason I went was because I wanted to drop off some stuff in the mail so it would get picked up in the morning. And I didn't have the address or anything on the envelope so I had to go, I couldn't give it to my mom. Fucking boring. We didn't even drop the thing in. I'm gonna go do something useful now.

June 18, 2003 @ 2:36PM; I'm getting hosted!!!! I wish I could do a double backflip in joy right now!!! haha. Go to youthless.net. No more popups. Finally. Steff I love you already!! You're hot. hah. In other...news...I couldn't sleep last night again. I stayed up until 4:45 listening to music. What a loser. I think I'm just stressed about schoool. Though I shoudn't be, because it's the middle of summer break. But I've got those FOUR books to read. FUCK SCHOOL. ;( My dad made be feel better when he told me that if we still lived in Poland, I'd probably want to kill myself with all the stuff that they do there, that this is nothing. haha. He didn't say that, it's what he was trying to say. hm. Also, last night, I couldn't sleep on my left side because I've discovered a bruise onmy shoulder from the show the other night. wah. But of course it was worth it. I ordered some stuff last night: Minor Threat - First Demo Tape CD, Rancid/NOFX poster, Recover poster, Toxic Narcotic poster. I'm just trying to get my walls unbare again.

June 17, 2003 @ 3:25PM; Last night me and Christina and Brent and Travis and this other guy from the band, Jeremy, all went to Cumberlands for this local show. The first band was shit. The second band was awesome. I don't know what they're called. I have to ask. They were really good. There were two singers, the little punky one, and this hardcore guy. Whoa. I got my head and boobs squished in the pit. eh. Christina is mad at me for some stupid reason. She wasn't supposed to get in the pit because Brent "wouldn't allow her to", but she went anyway and I took the blame for it because I wanted her to be in there with me, plus she wanted to anyway. And then in the car she was like..."c'mon..say something, just tell him." And I didn't say anything to Brent until Christina started to. Pointless. Doesn't matter. I had fun. Before the show, we were driving somewhere, probably to Christina's house, and Jeremy spit on this black guy's car and he started following us so we were going so fast...hahaha...like I was expecting to get into an accident...and then we pull into this apartament complex, and he still finds us. And he's like..."I look like a motha fucka to you?!...why you spit on my shit! Don't fuck with me! Why you spit on my shit?!" And he was just saying the same thing over and over again and then Jeremy goes..."I'm sorry, I can clean it up for you" and the man goes "Oh, you betta clean up my whole shit!" meaning his whole car. Then the man just pushes him and it's over. hahaha. hahahahah!! wonderful. job well done. I made a new layout for the site this morning. I like it more than the last one.

June 9, 2003 @ 6:26PM; I figured since I never write in this section, I should post something up today. Here is an email I wrote that tells about some crap.

hi. im really bored and stuff. i don't have anyone to talk to. and i dont want to call anyone either. so i will just email you. cool that you can come over to danielle's tomorrow. i was like..man, i dont think I should come because her mom will try to bite me or something. or she will just ignore me, and give me the evil eye. but then danielle said that her mom won't be home so that's a huge relief. hm. i think i am going to go to warped tour this year. i want to. plus for that website and stuff, that girl mandy is doing this whole wt section and it will have a section for experiences and i wanna be able to have something up there by me. i don't really do anything anymore except manage the board and do news crap. i can't even finish up a concert review. ah i have to use the bathroom. why did you choose noon? haha im gonna have to get up early tomorrow. oh and you know what? my great ol mom signed me up for this catholic church thing though they won't involve religion into it; it's like this arts and crafts thing. im supposed to go tomorrow. it's for the whole week for like 5/6 or even more hours a day. i have to tell her today that im NOT going and that's final. she's trying to run my life. i told her for college im gonna go somewhere in the northeast, like new jersey or something, and her and gerda, chanell's mom, were both like, WHAT! child, you won't survive up there!! i wanted to slap their heads off for doubting me. they were like.....you're too calm and laid back and all this stupid crap, like they know me so well or something. if some perv jumped up at me while i was walking down a street, you know very well i would beat the shit out of him. kelsey you're like my little personal diary. thanks.

May 27, 2003 @ 7:05PM; Emo is starting to make me sick. I don't know why. I was listening to something and then Death Cab comes on and I turn it off. Maybe I just have to be in the mood. Or maybe my emo loving days are over.

May 24, 2003 @ 9:22PM; I have just discovered that Thursday is coming to South Carolina!!!! I'm so fucking happy; my words can't describe it!! I've been feeling so poetic today. GOD this is so great! They are coming to Columbia on June 23rd. I will not miss that show if someone's fucking life depends on it. I will not. Oh man. This is so great. I can't wait. I've wanted to see them for so long. I went to see AFI in Myrtle Beach on May 19th. On the way there, I watched some of Thursday's live performances and I was talking to Talon who was with me and all I was saying was "Oh man..Thursday..They are so great..I wish I could see them live. I want to see them so much.." haha That's pretty funny; going to an AFI show and pondering over how much I would like to see another band. But oh man, that AFI show..I didn't want to leave. It was the greatest show I've been to yet. Moshing. Yeah..