__a soldier's story__ ...a story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home after having fought in Vietnam... ...he called his parents from San Francisco... "Mom and Dad, I'm coming home... but I've got a favor to ask... i have a friend I'd like to bring with me"... ..."Sure," they replied... "we'd love to meet him..." "...there's something you should know"... the son continued... "he was hurt pretty badly in the fighting... ...he stepped on a land mined and lost an arm and a leg... he has nowhere else to go and i want him to come live with us..." "i'm sorry to hear that, son... maybe we can help him find somewhere to live..." "No, Mom and Dad, i want him to live with us..." ..."Son," said the father... "you don't know what you're asking... someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us... ...we have our own lives to live... and we can't let something like this interfere with our lives... ...i think you should just come home and forget about this guy... ...he'll find a way to live on his own..." ...at that point... the son hung up the phone... ...the parents heard nothing more from him... ...a few days later, however... they received a call from the San Francisco police... ...their son had died after falling from a building... they were told... ...the police believed it was suicide... ...the grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son... ...they recognized him... but to their horror... they also discovered something they didn't know... ...their son had only one arm and one leg...

__is heaven in the yellow pages?__ ...mommy went to heaven... but i need her here today... ...my tummy hurts and i fell down... i need her right away...   ...operator can you tell me how to find her in this book?... ...is heaven in the yellow part... i don't know where to look...   ...i think my daddy needs her too... at night I hear him cry... ...i hear him call her name sometimes... but I really don't know why...      ...maybe if I call her she will hurry home to me...   ...is heaven very far away... is it across the sea?...      ...she's been gone a long... long time she needs to come home   now!...      ...i really need to reach her... but i simply don't know how...      ...help me find the number please... is it listed under "heaven"?...   ...i can't read these big big words... i am only seven...      ...i'm sorry operator... i didn't mean to make you cry...   ...is your tummy hurting too... or is there something in your eye?...      ...if i call my church maybe they will know... ...mommy said when we need help that's where we should go...      ...i found the number to my church tacked up on the wall...   ...thank you operator... i'll give them a call...

I drift slowly into the shadows... Everything around me goes... I hide in a room with no light... Im on the brink of going crazy, i swear, i might... The love i once had is gone... Time stopped when you said you didn't love me... The air suddenly vanished, I couldn't breathe... Tears filled my eyes and I could no longer see... Life must have left me, my heart no longer beat... My mind froze, because I couldn't comprehend... Hope disintegrated and crashed all about me... This is not my life, i dont belong... All the songs i hear... remind me of the person i see in my picture... The depths of my eyes are so deep, i can see my own soul... Without you, my heart is just an empty hole... I take a deep breathe in and then sigh... Close my eyes and think back then cry... The happiness i once had has shatter... And all is now left tattered... Im no longer the person i used to be... My heart is locked, no longer free...

__the greatest pain in life__ ...the greatest pain in life is not to die... but to be ignored... ...to lose the person you love so much... to another who doesn't care at all... ...to have someone you care about so much throw a party... and not tell you about it... ...when your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to his graduation... ...to have people think that you don't care... ...the greatest pain in life... is not to die... but to be forgotten... ...to be left in the dust after another's great achievement... ...to never get a call from a friend... just saying "hi".... ...when you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face... ...for friends to always be too busy to console you... ...when you need someone to lift your spirits... ...when it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you... ...life is full of pain... but does it ever get better?... ...will people ever care about each other... and make time for those who are in need?... ...each of us has a part to play in this great show we call life... ...each of us has a duty to mankind.. to tell our friends we love them... ...if you do not care about your friends.. you will not be punished... ...you will simply be ignored... forgotten... as you have done to others... ______ ...this poem was written by a young girl who committed suicide 3 years ago... (currently 1998) ...perhaps if the people surrounding her had shown a little more love, and had paid more attention to her, her death could have been prevented... ...remember that when going through life, you can't judge a sad, lonely, or suicidal person by their facial expression... ...you need to get to know each person you come in contact with... ...cherish your friendship with them, and above all, show them that you care...

song ~> unbreak my heart

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