not knowing what to say
not knowing what to do
so i just sit here and pray
I can not find the words
to progress how i feel
and to call out for help
waiting for my pain to heal
i pick up a knife
and carve a star for the night
and carve a heart
thinking of your sight
pain comes in many forms
but it always hurts the same
it never fully goes away
and fills me with so much doubt and shame
i can't find the words to express myself
to progress how i feel
letting my emotions flow out of me
and then go to bed
to dream of when the time comes
you'll hold me in your arms
when youll kiss me when i say i love you
and protect me from harm
to dream of a world, where i am safe
at least in the comfort of the night
dreading the time the sun comes up
the bad feeling i get from it's light
saying i have to face another day
trying to get by
until i face the night again
to go where i can safely lie
where no one can reach me
and no one can hurt me
where i can get away
and allowed finally to be free.
By Johanna
