I thought I'd mastered myself through pain.

But the thickest walls in the world

couldn't shelter so much pressure, fear, and anger.

I've tried so hard to focus myself on the positive things in my life

Thank God.

My mind...I'm loosing it.

Slowly

At times its hard to grasp reality or reason.

I feel my problems will never end.

Like drinking the ocean with a spoon.

Endless

Pain knows no time and time knows no pain.

No pain, none preconceived.

Untimely

It's all too overwhelming

I'm trying so hard to hold on to what I have left.

Pain is the only thing I can't recreate in my head

but I feel it in my stomach.

So gut wrencing like a machine.

Torturus and unknowing

I search through painted walls wood,

I see no way out.

The light that once kept me in suspence of fear

is now so very bright and almost constant.

TURN IT OFF!!

I keep hoping

but I'm loosing it fast!

Hope.

I can't get out!

STOP!

The holy ghost inside my head

has wasted every single breath.

Deliver me from insanity!

PLEASE!