Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today?
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoias all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed / but
I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me / right underneath my skin
It's like / I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a / whirlwind inside of my head
It's like / can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin
I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the matter of fact is
I can't add up to what you can
But everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when they close their eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)
So I know when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me / right underneath my skin
The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me
ONE STEP CLOSER
I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway
Just like before...
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Shut up when I'm talking to you
WITH YOU
I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static / and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remember I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy
And I'm left in wake of the mistake / slow to react
Even though you're so close to me
You're still so distant / and I can't bring you back
It's true / the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you
You / now I see / keeping everything inside
You / now I see / even when I close my eyes
I hit you and you hit me back
We fall to the door/ and the rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
When things go wrong I pretend the past isn't real
Now I'm trapped in this memory
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake/ slow to react
Even though you're close to me
You're still so distant/ and I can't bring you back
No
No matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see you tomorrow
With you
POINTS OF AUTHORITY
Forfeit the game / before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame / puts your name to shame
Cover up your face / you can't ruin the race
The pace is too fast / you just won't last
You love the way I look at you
While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through
You take away if I give in
My life
My pride is broken
You love the things I say I'll do -
The way I'll hurt myself hurt myself again just to get back at you
You take away if I give in
My life
My pride is broken
You like to think you're never wrong
You want to act like you're someone else
You want someone to hurt like you
You want to share what you've been through
(You live what you learn)
CRAWLING
Crawling is my skin
Consuming all I feel
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming / confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling / I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
That there's just too much pressure to take]
I've felt this way before
So insecure
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting / reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...
RUNAWAY
Graffiti decorations
Underneath a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learned were never true
Now I find myself in a question
[They point the finger at me again]
Guilt by association
[You point the finger at me again]
Paper bags and angry voices
Under a sky of dust
Another wave of tension
Has more than filled me up
All my talk of taking action
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind
I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind
Gonna run away
BY MYSELF
What do I do to ignore then behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do / I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I / try to catch them red - handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on / when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself
I can't hold on
[To what I want when I'm stretched so thin]
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
[To anything watching everything spin]
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I / turn my back I'm defenceless
And to go blindly seems so senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they'll
Take from me 'til everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of an answer
[By myself]
How do you think / I've lost so much
I'm so afraid / I'm out of touch
How do you expect / I will know what to do
When all I know / is what you tell me to
Don't you know
I can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I cat seem to convince myself why
I'm stuck on the outside
IN THE END
It starts with
One thing / I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swigs
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn't even know
Wasted it all just go
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
And lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don't know why
Doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me / I'm surprised
I got so [far]
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognise me anymore
Not that you knew me back the
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I
I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know...
A PLACE FOR MY HEAD
I watch how the
Moon sits in the sky / in the dark night
Shining with the light from the sun
The sun doesn't give light to the moon assuming
The moon's gonna owe it one
It makes me think of how you act to me / you do
Favours and then rapidly / you just
Turn around and start asking me / about
Things that you want back from me
I'm sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed -
While I find a place to rest
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don't understand
[You'll see it's not meant to be]
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
Maybe someday I'll be just like you / and
Step on people like you do and
Run away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
You used to be calm / used to be strong
Used to be generous / but you should've known
That you'd
Wear out your welcome / now you see
How quiet it is / all alone / I'm so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed -
While / I find a place to rest
You try to take the best of me
Go away
FORGOTTEN
From the top to the bottom
Bottom to top I stop
At the core I've forgotten
In the middle of my thoughts
Taken far from my safety
The picture is there
The memory won't escape me
But why should I care
There's a place so dark you can't see the end
[Skies cock back] and shock that which can't defend
The rain then sends dripping / an acidic question
Forcefully, the power of suggestion
Then with eyes tightly shut / looking through the rust and rot
And dust / a spot of light floods the floor
And pours over the rusted world of pretend
The eyes ease open and it's dark again
In the memory you'll find me
Eyes burning up
The darkness holding me tightly
Until the sun rises up
Moving all around / screaming of the ups and downs
Pollution manifested in perpetual sound
The wheels go 'round and the sunset creeps past the
Street lamps, chain - link and concrete
A little piece of paper with a picture drawn floats
On down the street 'til the wind is gone
The memory now is like the picture is then
When the paper's crumpled up it can't be perfect again
Now you caught me in the act
You bring the thought back
I'm telling you that
I see it right through you
CURE FOR THE ITCH
PUSHING ME AWAY
I've lied / to you
The same way that I always do
This is / the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you
[Everything falls apart / even the people who never frown /
Eventually break down]
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
[Everything has to end / you'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind]
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
I've tried / like you
To do everything you wanted me to
This is / the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you