I could go into this long, mundane story about my awakening, but to tell you the truth, I did not have an awakeing. My entire life up until the point of acceptance was my awakening. Now, Acceptance is the key here: you cannot be what you are in denial of, not saying physically, but, basically, you will be a vampyre, but not of the vampyre race, consciously....get what I am saying? I hope so, it is hard for me to write because I am all emotion, and emotions are impossible to put into words.... Ok, get ready for this. It has nothing to do with your subconscious; it has everything to do with your soul. See, we see things, hear things, smell things, feel things, all because our mind registers it as that; our thought process, which is completely human. Your soul....and I am not sure if I can explain this as powerful as it is....does not have to question, does not have to think-it already knows everything. Your soul has been around long before your rotting carcass was conceived only to die. But our brain, our learned thoughts from growing up in a society dominated by bullshit guidelines, "no one will like you if you do this...", and taboos created by fears by those who are too afraid of something and would rather condemn it. When your soul starts realizing, starts "awakening" from this effigy of what life is supposed to be, that is when you come to an age of, or cycle I should say, of acknowledgement. And when you reach this point, you can never turn back. Vampirism is a "soul species". It has no true effect on our physical appearance, yet makes us stronger and more efficient than the majority of the populous. Vampirism does not make you, it returns you to your loves and feelings, your essence of what you were before you came here, to being born into this world. Just that little piece is enough to conquer all. That knowing that things are really not what they seem and more frightening, what they seem sometimes. We are in a prison with bars made of the media, human morals, success we wish to gain-so we sacrifice, our parents, learned habits, and even "See Spot Run", our first child-like attempt at reading that in reality, shows the maximum capacity for advancement and technology in society today. Trust me, we do not get any more advanced than that book, everything else is just an illusion. Although I cannot explain why we crave blood, why we love the taste of it, how I know what you are thinking, and I know how to seduce you-even if you are straight, I know what makes you tick and I know what destroyed you as a child......I do know that this is no virus, and there is no spontaneous..."hey guys, I’m a vampyre..". We are built on pride and the purest of love our soul has carried here. Maybe, just like the bible, we are meant to know vague information for savior of the soul. I do not believe that we are supposed to know everything. I cannot tell what will make you as a vampyre, I am not your soul, I am not within you. But that doesn't mean that I can't be:) If you have anything to tell, any story about your awakening, e-mail me and I will post it here in. Back to the Last Breath