The End 10.22.04
I saw you today for the first time since forever
Could my eyes be lying to me?
Could this actually be the man I once called my own?
The man who was supposed to forever possess the heart I laid in his hands?
This is him
The man who assured me that he would stay with me always
I begin to wonder how you could have deceived me like that
Why did I allow myself to become so ensnared in your lies?
I wonder if you ever cared about me
And if you did, do you still?
I continue to stare at you
My eyes are fixed on you
It is impossible for them to stray away from yours as I ask about the new girl you have found
This girl who has taken my place
I suppose you are really happy now
I can see that you are over me
Your eyes move away
You cant even look at me
I can tell you don't care anymore
You don't even miss me at all
You never meant those things you used to tell me
You don't love me
You love your new girlfriend
You think of me as nothing more than a friend
And a friendly hug is a I receive at the end of this meeting
I look at you one last time
You already have your back to me
I turn around and find my way home
Tears fall down on my pillow
I realize that it's all over
This is The End for us
But I still love you
I saw you today
It's been so long
I can't believe I'm standing in front of the girl who was once so precious to me
You are even more beautiful than I can remember
I wonder what happened between us
What caused this everlasting love to deteriorate into nothing?
How did it all fall apart?
I wish I could tell you that I still care
But it's too hard because I know you don't feel that way about me anymore
Why do you ask about my new girlfriend?
Don't you know she is nothing compared to you?
I would choose you over any woman in the whole world
If only I had the strength to tell you this
If only I had the power to make you love me like you once did
There is no way for me to be happy if I'm not with you
I turn my eyes away so you don't see me cry
Just looking at you brings tears to my eyes
How could I have been such a fool to let you go?
How could I have been so blind?
I miss you so much
You have no idea how much I love you
But I'll only be just a friend to you
As I hold you for the last time, a tear falls down my face
And then another
You pull away and I quickly turn around
I don't want you to see me like this
I wipe my eyes then turn back around
Just for one final look
But you've already started on your way
I start to cry again as I slowly walk home
Where I cry myself to sleep
It's all over
I never thought The End would come
I lost you
Foolish Mind 3.9.05
Staring at him from behind the window
He reaches out and presses his palms against the barrier
His mind tells him to just walk away
That she is far too elite to ever belong to him
His heart must be begging him to pursue his desire
Because there is still that small chance
His hands slide down the glass
He forces himself away
With head hung low and feet dragging one after the other
I lose sight of him
He has listened to his foolish mind
Why does he believe the lie that I could never be his?
He leaves me paralyzed on the dusty shelf
Where I will continue waiting patiently
Leaning on the hope that he'll come back one day
Oh faithful heart where have you gone?
I pray he will turn his attention to the right voice
Because little does he know he already has my heart
