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This is Christina. This is the lady I've been talking about. She was born on Feb. 15th, 1980 In Florida. If you are a female reading this this lady should become your role model. She has been thru sooooooo much in her life that its amazing that she is still her today. When I first met this girl. She was amazing to be with. We both liked to go fishing and dancing and just hanging out. I remember her coming over everyday at 5:00 to watch the 3 stooges with me. Not that she like them just b/c she was with me. She didn't care what we did as long as we did it together. One time we went fishing and a carp took her pole into the water. How do I know it was a carp? Well.....she ended up catch the same carp on a different line and got her pole back. Pretty amazing huh! I remember her staying in the hospital with me day and night. Not wanting to leave. She slept on a chair until the last night then she slept on the bed with me. I remember everynight we would go to bed and she would lay her head on my chest and go to sleep. I was everything that this girl wanted. She was happy with me and loved me with all her heart. She told me that she would do anything for me. Even if it meant dying for me. She told me that she would always love me. That she would never leave me. Some of you are probably thinking she lied; things changed; she never did mean any of that. Well let me tell you all something. She didn't lie. She did do something for me. She made me open my eyes and see the light! That day back in Sept. she died right there in front of me as she told me that we were done. That killed her to have to tell the one she loved that. Yes even though she don't ever tell me I know that she still loves me. She is scared to show it but I see it. That's all that matters. She hasn't left me she just had to move on to bigger and better things. She is looking for that someone who will give her courage; strength to carry a heavy load; respect; happiness; security; trust; forgiveness when she makes a mistake; and most important...LOVE. Yes I can offer her all that. The thing is... Would any of you stay with a man like me? Even after all the things that I did to her. Hey she tried for years to get me to open my eyes and see her. I refused to do that. I didn't think I needed help. I was wrong! This girl helped me out when everyone else would have ran. She stuck with me hoping that one day I would become the one that she feel in love with. Like she told me she went to the well one to many times and now its dry. She didn't do this to me; she did it for me! I have the highest respect for her in the world. She stood up and took control of her life and made me take control of mine. I will never be able to repay her for what she has done. She has showed me the real world. Everything she has ever told me has came true. I have noticed things in my family that I never seen before. Things about me that I've never seen before. I never listened to her. Christina I'm sorry that I never listened to you. That I never heard you screaming out in pain. Screaming for me to come to you. I wasted alot of time worrying about me when there was you, Ryan , Spencer, Sheldon. You guys needed me and I let you down. I want to go back in time and pick you guys up and dust you off but this is life. I can't do that. I will just have to make sure I don't do that in the future. Please forgive me for being a "man". I never meant to hurt you. I was wrong in the way I treated you. You are my queen and I didn't show you and respect. Noone will ever know the pain I go thru know that I did you wrong. God sent you down here for me and I chewed you up and spitted you out for the wild animals to eat. Thanks for keeping your promises to me. I wish I would have kept mine. I DO LOVE YOU with all my heart and I hope someday you will find what you are looking for. Keep your head high and eyes forward. You will go as far as you let your angels carry you. I wish I could be there with you but I know the price I have to pay for letting you guys down over and over again. I Love You and good luck! "sweet dreams sweetpea" _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ I LOVE YOU CHRISTINA! Dont ever forget!!! I'm deicating a song to "Remember Me This WAY"-------->Lyrics: Every now and then We find a special friend Who never lets us down Who understands it all Reaches out each time you fall You're the best friend that I've found I know you can't stay A part of you will never ever go away Your heart will stay I'll make a wish for you And hope it will come true That life would just be kind To such a gentle mind If you lose your way Think back on yesterday Remember me this way Remember me this way I don't need eyes to see The love you bring to me No matter where I go And I know that you'll be there Forever more a part of me, you're everywhere I'll always care I'll make a wish for you And hope it will come true That life would just be kind To such a gentle mind If you lose your way Think back on yesterday Remember me this way Remember me this way And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you I'll be standing by your side and all you do And I won't ever leave As long as you believe You just believe I'll make a wish for you And hope it will come true That life would just be kind To such a gentle mind If you lose your way Think back on yesterday Remember me this way Remember me this way ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ There is just one more song I want you to have. The verses are beautiful. And they mean alot to me because when I hear them they hit home. Here you go Chris------>Lyrics: I'm not a girl, Not yet a woman I used to think I had the answers to everything But now I know Life doesn't always Go my way, yeah... Feels like I'm caught in the middle That's when I realize... (Chorus) I'm not a girl Not yet a woman All I need is time A moment that is mine While I'm in between (Verse 2) I'm not a girl There is no need to protect me Its time that I Learn to face up to this on my own I've seen so much more than u know now So tell me to shut my eyes I'm not a girl Not yet a woman All I need is time A moment that is mine While I'm in between I'm not a girl But if u look at me closely You will see it my eyes This girl will always find Her way I'm not a girl (I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe) Not Yet a woman (I'm just tryin to find the woman in me, yeah) All I need is time (All I need) A moment that is mine (That is mine) While I'm in between I'm not a girl Not yet a woman All I need is time (is All I need) A moment that is mine While I'm in between I'm not a girl Not yet a woman
