Title-Selfish
Author-Destructo-girl
Disclaimer-These characters belong to Joss Whendon and the WB
Spoiler-This story takes place in season two.
E-mail-destructo-girl@angelfire.com
Rating-PG-13
Selfish

Buffy walked through the deserted halls of Sunnydale high school. She was searching for Willow. She had a horrible feeling in the pit of her stomach. "Willow?" She called. She had reached the library, the doors swung open before she could touch them. Willow was sitting at the computer being research girl. "Willow?" Buffy said. Willow didnıt say anything at all she just continued typing. "Willow what's wrong?" Buffy asked. She didn't know why Willow was so mad at her. "I hope you know that it will be your fault when I die."Willow said without taking her eyes off the computer screen. "What?" "You heard me, when I die it will be your fault. Your selfish and greedy just like everybody else." Willow was crying now. "Who's everybody else?" Willow opened her mouth to say.

When Buffy woke up she was all sweaty. "I hate dreams like that."She said aloud. She decided she was too worried about Willow to sleep. It was around midnight and she thought she could get in a little more patrolling. She quickly got dressed and climbed out her window. Soon she spotted a vampire who was trotting towards the graveyard humming. How should I get his attention Buffy wondered. She ran and jumped on top of the man. "Hi, I'm the slayer." She said. A second later he was a pile of dust. All that was left was a box that the vampire had been carrying. Buffy quickly opened it. Inside the box was a book written in a different language. A language Buffy had never seen before. Buffy snapped it shut and headed home to get some sleep.

The next morning when Buffy awoke, she still had the unusual dream on her mind. Buffy didn't know what to do about her dream, why couldnıt someone else have been the Slayer?"Buffy muttered out loud. She rushed to the library. "Your late as usual Buffy."Giles said, "I found something last night when I was protrolling."She said handing him the book. "Very interesting."Giles said. As he looked through the book. "Where's Willow?"Buffy asked. "She hasnıt been in today. Why is there a problem?""I had a bad dream last night. It involved Willow. But I really don't want her to know."Buffy said. She told Giles her whole dream. "Do you think it has anything to do with Angelus?"Giles asked. "No. Nothing happened involving him."Buffy said. Just the mention of Angel made her sad. As she was feeling sorry for herself. She heard the soft swish of the library doors. It was Willow she has a huge grin on her face. "Guess what?"Buffy knew it must involve Oz. "What?""Oz said I looked beautiful today."She said her grin grew wider. "Will you always look great."Least someone's happy. Buffy thought. "Can Oz come and hang out with us tonight well we do research?""Yeah sure."

That night. Willow and Oz sat at the computer waiting for Buffy and Xander to show up. "What are we looking for?"Oz asked. "A language. Written like this."Willow said showing him the book. ""Where did you get that from?" "Buffy found it after she killed a vampire. Giles thinks it's a diary. I really donıt know."Buffy and Xander entered the library. "Find anything yet?" Xander asked sitting next to Oz. "No nothing at all. Nobody's seen a language like this before. I think it might be written in code."Willow said. She continued to search. "Where's Giles?"Buffy asked. "He went to get snacks." "But that's my job." Buffy said pretending she cared. "Willow must be right we've been searching for hours."Oz said. Giles entered the library. He said a quick hi to everyone then headed for his office. What's with him? Buffy wondered. Usually he would have loved to research with them for hours. Buffy could tell all the books were sitting on the table including the diary. She picked it up. It was written in small cramped handwriting. The pages were yellow and fragile. She started at the page she had a weird feeling as she looked at the words. It gave her the creeps she snapped the diary shut.

Buffy rolled over in bed she had just gotten home from the library when she heard the phone ring downstairs. "Hello?"She heard her mother say. "Buffy!" Her mom called from downstairs. Oh my god! Something happened to Willow. She thought. She jumped out of bed and rang downstairs. "Who is it?""Willow, your friends shouldn't be calling this late at night." Her mother said sternly. "It's probably and emergency." Buffy said she grabbed the phone out of her mothers hand. "Hello?""Hi Buffy. Sorry to call so late. But we made a break through on the diary.""What?""I was right it was written in code. We decided to look at the box the bottom of the material lifted up and there was the key. Giles studying it right now."Willow finished breathless. "That's great fill me in on more tomorrow. I really need to get some sleep."Buffy looked at her mother who was still standing there. "What was the emergency?" Joyce asked. "Boy trouble. Poor Willow she's so popular with the boy's." Buffy said. "Really?" Her mother sounded surprised. Buffy nodded she gave her mother a quick kiss and ran upstairs to bed.

Angelus grinned. "They have the diary.""What's so special about a diary. The Slayer probably already has one with pretty flowers and unicorns."Spike said. "Spike my good man. This the diary is special I knew the girl.""She was a very good girl until Angelus made her very very bad." Drusilla said she giggled and began to jump around. Spike rolled his eyes. "Why don't you just kill the Slayer and get it over with. I think your just not enough of a man to do it" "Spike,Spike,Spike you know she's too strong. Her and her friends. My plan is to separate them. I'll kill them off one by one. Then I'll drink her blood. It will be fun." Angelus said. "How are you going to do that?" Spike asked he was becoming intrigued. "I don't tell secrets Spike." Drusilla giggled again from the corner of the room.

Giles sat in the library reading the diary. So far he hadn't found anything unusual about the girl. All she wrote about was her family and friends. Buffy walked into the library. The only one there was Giles. "Where's everyone?" She asked startling Giles he fell out of his chairs. "Buffy next time you come. Make more noise please." "I thought being quite was a good thing for the Slayer......" Buffy said she used her most innocent tone. "I sent everyone on a brake they should be back any minuet now." Giles said answering her question. All the sudden Xander and Willow burst through the door laughing. "Hey Buff." Willow said. "So why did you call me down here Giles?"Buffy asked. There seemed to be nothing going on but the usual. She was wasting a perfect night when she could be at home watching T.V in her sweat pants and eating chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. "I thought you should be here training." "But I just trained last night." "You are the Slayer and you should be acting like it. Get the dummy out of my office and from now on I want you here every night." Every night? Buffy thought. Giles gave her nights off when there wasn't need for her. But training every night was a lot of work. "Giles Buffyıs only a normal girl. She needs a night off once in a while." Willow said. The girl was concerned about her friend. She looked towards the office where Buffy had went. "Poor Buffy." Willow whispered. "Yeah G-man even you get stuffy from being in here all day." Later that evening. Buffy was now reading the diary. It was so long and so far they hadn't learned anything. "This diary is so old and boring." Buffy said. "I know I haven't even touched it. I'm too scared of ripping it." Willow said. Buffy nodded in agreement.

Buffy decided not to show up for research that night. She really didn't care what that stupid diary said. Or even that she was the Slayer. She deserved time off. Time to mourn over Angel and time to eat lots of junk-food while mourning over Angel. Why do I have to be a Slayer? Why do I have to fall in love with a vampire? Buffy thought. The phone started to ring she knew it was probably Giles wondering where she was. Like he cared. He didn't have to deal with all the crap she had to. Also lately he had becoming overbearing. All he was about was training training and more training. Lately everyone was like that.Oz kept trying to convince Willow to not to even show up at the library so she could go out with him. Xander wasn't even talking to any of them. Buffy felt Willow was the only person she could talk to she understood everyone's feelings.

"Where is everyone?" Willow asked herself. The library was empty she hung up the phone Buffy wasn't going to answer. She felt so alone. All everyone thought about was themselves. Xander complained to her that being a Slayerette was useless. He didn't get anything in return so why should he do it. Willow couldn't believe that he even felt that way. They were saving peopleıs lives that was good enough for her it should be good enough for everyone else. But it wasn't. She sighed."I guess all have to handel all the work by myself." She said. She started to read the diary when she found something interesting. The girl had met a man she swore she was in love with him. He was handsome with his irish accent and dark hair. He was charming but she only saw him during the night. This sounds a little to much like Angel. Willow thought. "So when do we get to kill them all?" Spike asked Angelus. "Soon." "Tell me about your plan again." Spike said. "The diary was written by a girl I used to know. One I sired. She couldn't handle craving blood wanting to kill everyone. So she put a curse on the village where she lived. Of course that village was Sunnydale. One page in that diary when read will curse the person that read it." "What if the Slayer and her friends don't all read the diary?" Spike asked."They will. Once one of them reads the diary and stops caring the other will read it and so on. They wonıt care about anything but themselves and we kill them one by one. It's not very complicated Spike I thought you would catch on right away." Spike ignored the comment.. "I see something." Drusilla said she looked up at the ceiling. "What luv?" Spike asked. "The Slayerıs friend the redhead. Sheıs all alone not a friend in the world. It's so sad." She stopped looking at the ceiling. "Angel you are such a naughty boy. I can't wait until I get to play with her. She looks like one of my dolls pale and pretty." Dru said she grabbed one of her dolls and started dancing around the room with one of them. I whish the Slayer would kill this idiot. Spike thought. He hated Angelus and he knew the Slayer would beat him like she always did. He couldn't wait.

Willow finished the diary she had skipped one page though she couldn't read any of it the words weren't part of the code. They looked latin. She knew that Angelus had sired the girl who's name was Melinda he drove her mad just like he did to Drusilla. She couldn't stand to do such horrible things to people. The diary didn't tell Willow anything that had happened the girl. Willow heard a noise come from the library doors. I really hope that's not Angelus. She thought running to the crosses. She turned off all the lights and quickly ran into Giles office. "Willow?Willow?" She heard someone call. It didnıt sound like Angelus. "Oz." She said quietly. She saw Oz open the door and turn on the light. "Thank-god it's you." She said jumping up and giving him a huge hug. " Hey, Willow." He said. She let go of him slightly embarassed. "So what did you come here for?" She asked. "Hoping I could drag you away from you all this boring research." This made her mad what was everyone's problem this boring research was important to her. "I'm not done yet. It's important I finish." She said cooley. She walked past him and headed back into the library. "Did I say something wrong?" "No of course not. You go about being selfish for what you want like everyone else. I really don't care what you guys do anymore." She turned to switch on her computer. He looked hurt but she wasn't going to feel sorry for him. All the slayerettes were feeling sorry for themselves enough without her help. "Well I'll see you later than." "You know Oz you could help me it would only take a little while." "No I better go. Leave you to research. Are you sure you want to stay?" Willow thought about it her and Oz was tempting but it didn't matter right now she had to be strong for everyone. "No Oz. Do you know why I'm mad?" She asked. He shook his head no. Willow didn't understand why he didn;t understand. "Bye." He said. He pushed open the library doors and he was gone. Willow watched him leave and she cried. After a few minutes of crying she went back to work.

"Tomorrow night were going to start on our first snack Willow." Angelus said. "I don't want to wait any longer." Druscilla said she pouted. "You'll have to wait a long time, Dru. This plan is never going to work the Slayer will kill you before you can touch a hair on her best budıs head." Spike said. "Angelus will bring her back to me. Wonıt you?" "Of course,Dru baby. Look who's talking he can't even touch the Slayer."Angelus said he gave Drusicilla a kiss on the cheek. Spike was disgusted. How does she stand him. He thought.

Buffy woke up she had the worst feeling in her stomach. Her Slayer sense was tingling something was wrong with Willow. She can handle it herself. Buffy thought. "What am I thinking." She said aloud. Buffy quickly got dressed and headed toward the library. She needed to be there for her friend and so did everybody else but they weren't.

Willow opened the book she had translated a few sentences. She read it aloud. "Dear diary. I've changed and I now crave blood. I don't want to hurt anyone. So these will be my last words in this diary. To whoever reads this will be cursed... Cursed?" Willow said. She put the diary down she knew she wouldn't read the rest. "That's it they must be cursed." She said. She put the book back in the box and picked up the phone."Hi mom. I know I shouldnıt be phoning so late. It's just that I decided not to spend the night at Buffy's me and her had a fight. So I'll be home right away. Okay. I love you too."Bye Willow hung up the phone and started to search for a stake and bottle of holy water. When Buffy came in. "Buffy what are you doing here?" Willow asked. She hadn't seen her friend in a few day. "Will are you all right?" Buffy asked. "Yes-yes.Iım fine. Why is something wrong?" "Willow I'm so sorry I don't know what's come over me but lately I can only think about what I want. Not what I need. I'm so sorry I never meant to hurt you and the others." Buffy said hugging Willow. "It's okay Buffy and I'm sure the otherıs haven't even noticed. They've been gone as much as you and I figured out why. There's a curse on you from that diary. We just have to figure out how to break it. " "I just realised that I was crazy when I woke up and I thought. Somethings wrong with Willow. Then I rolled over and closed my eyes and thought she can take care of herself. But that's my job. I'm like the police always to serve and protect." "Enough with the guilt." Willow said to Buffy. "I'll walk you home and we'll figure everything out in the morning." Buffy said.

"So this vampire girl is she dead?" Spike asked. "I don't know and I donıt really care." Angelus said. "Well don't you think that but of information is important. You said she was the only one who could remove the curse." "So one minor detail."Angelus shrugged. "Big deal. Very big deal. That girl will help the Slayer. You are so very predictable. Just another handsome idiot who doesn't no when to give up." Spike smiled. I'm so funny. He thought. Druscialla walked into the room. "Spike is right the girl is in Sunnydale and sheıs very very good." Druscilla screamed.

Buffy and Willow went on patrol that night to look for Angelus and a cure for the curse. When Buffy was tackled by a vampire. Willow tried to pull the vampire off but she was too weak. "I don't want to hurt you." The vamp said. "That's funny didnıt you just tackle me?" Buffy said. Managing to throw the girl off her. "You don't understand I'm Melinda." "I'm Buffy your point being?" "Don't kill her Buffy she's the one who wrote in the diary." Willow said. "I know how to stop the curse. It's very simple. You have to take me to the book." She said. "Alright." Buffy said. She grabbed Melinda by the arm and dragged her towards Sunnydale Highschool. I hate being the Slayer. Buffy thought. She shook the thought away. This curse was really getting to her. Buffy threw Melinda into the book cage. As she went to get the book. "Why did you curse your village?"Willow asked. "Because I hated everyone. I wanted them to feel as bad as I did. How did you get the diary?" "Angelus your sire .He's still alive and evil again." Willow sighed. Buffy came back she shoved the book through the hole in the cage. Melinda opened the diary and looked through it. "All you have to do is burn it." She said as she pushed the diary back through the hole.

A few days later. The curse was lifted and Buffy had let Melinda go. Everyone had said sorry to Willow and gave her a big hug. They all sat in the library. Xander next to Giles. Willow on Oz's lap. "Uh, you guys I have something to do." Buffy said. "What is it?"Willow asked. "I'm going to pay a visit to an ex-boyfriend. Who's a demon.""Oh." Willow said she bit her lip. "You'll come back alive, right?" Willow asked. "Of course she will." Oz said. Buffy turned around heading towards the door. "Buffy?"Giles called out. Oh great here it comes how dangerous it is blah,blah and blah. Buffy thought. "Yes?"She said turning around. "Be carful." He said quietly. "I will." Buffy said. She walked right to the warehouse where Spike,Druscilla lived. It was a beautiful day out and of course if nessacary she might have to throw Angelus into the beautiful daylight. Buffy walked in her shoes clicked on the floor. Angelus popped in front of her. "Well,Buffy I wasn't excepting you to visit me." "I wasn't excepting you to put a curse on me but you did." Buffy said. She reached in to her pocked. Checking if she still had her small bottle of holy water. "So, may I ask what your doing here." "Getting myself some of that bittersweet revenge." She threw the bottle in his face. Well he was panicking from the pain she kicked him hard in the stomach sending him to the floor. She sat on top of his stomach. "Don't mess with my friend's again" Buffy said coldly. "What are you going to do kill me?" "No Angel not ready yet. But I will be soon so you better get ready for me." She got up and walked away. Knowing her wasnıt going to come after her. The slayrettes stood out side the warehouse."You guys didn't have to come."She said to them. "We have to be careful." Willow said.

The End

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