Kuv & Koj

                Well, as for me, I'm here...now and forever with her, until this site can no longer stay up. But honestly, I didn't know we'd be here at this time and place in our lives. We have gone through a lot. A lot of heart break, arguments (that sometimes showed to be more interesting then just being together), and break ups... just to make up. And we've gone through a few awkward times, and a few times where we lost patience with each other. "...you let go, and I let go too..." --Lauryn Hill (ex-factor). And we did give up on each other, a lot of times. 

                  Maybe she felt differently, but that's how I felt. I let go of it all a few times. We went through a Christmas and a New Year together. When she wasn't there that year (1999), it just didn't feel right. ( Like when you look for socks, and all you ever find is that right sock....ok....so that wasn't a great analogy, but you know what I mean.) It didn't feel right, not having her by my side through those moments. But here we are. In a strange time, almost different place, but we're still together...so what does that mean? It just means that I still need her in my life. And that I still love her.

            There's a lot of things I stopped doing, like all those little things just to say how much I care about you, and how much I miss, and think of you in one minute. Well, I'm sorry I stopped. I don't know what happened, but I lost a little of myself.  I'm still trying to do those little things, to let you know I'll be here when it seems like there's no one else. You once said that I don't have to do anything to prove my love, and I know I don't have to, it's just that I want to; cause I don't know how else to.  I want to be here even when there are other people to lean on, just to see that you're okay, and that we'll be okay. I'll never stop saying those words to you, and it'll never get old, cause love doesn't age, it's infinite in its magic. Its ability to make a smile out of a frown, and its ability to change your heart. I'll never stop doing those little things that add up to the whole, and that's "us." It all ends up with "us." At the end, I want to be standing by you. I know these words can never describe all the love I have, and if there were thousands of ways to say "I love you," none would be as well said as just looking into your eyes.

So, that's from me to you. To let you know how I feel, and how much you mean to me.