Bare Essecnce-Prologue
Nedra,
Don't bother looking for me tonight or ever, for it is too late for us. As friends, we do not have the chance to bond; as lovers, we wouldn't have the luxury to rendezvous underneath the stars. Romance would be moot and forbidden, and it would tear us apart. Somehow, I don't think it would be fair to either of us if we remained close. Being apart is what we need. It seems like the only real thing we can accomplish at this point. I do not say this to intentionally hurt your feelings; I am being as sincere as possible. I don't want to hurt you, Nedra, but this is the way it has to be from now on. And I won't blame you for hating me---I hate myself, too. My belief was that if I didn't say it now, it would never be said. I'd end up feeling all this pain and it would never go away. It would kill me inside. I'm not letting that happen to either of us because it doesn't need to take place. I'd rather sacrifice my true feelings for you than lie about my happiness. I'm not happy, and that's why I'm giving you up.
I know what you're going to say, and I know why you're going to say it: Giving it up is giving up. I don't blame you, yet I have to disagree at this moment. You were all I had as a friend, but I found out that relying on you and everyone else would destroy my independence, my true reason for living. It sounds like bullshit, but I'm telling the truth.
If you were to ever cast your eyes upon me while walking down the street, please turn away. Our friendship is just not worth the trouble..... Not anymore.
Sincerely yours,
Idalis Sebastian
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