Chapter 30
Matt stared at Jeff. Jeff shrugged, “Matt man I’m sorry, she just came, and we stared talking and it came out, I’m so sorry…”Jeff started to say.
Matt put his hand up to stop him, “I know, Jeff its okay, I’m gonna go see if I can catch her, I need tell her some things, I’ll be back in awhile!” Matt said as he turned and ran out into the hall and to the elevator.
When Matt got down to the lobby he looked around quickly and saw her outside trying to get a cab.
“Jessica!” Matt said softly as he ran to the door. He ran outside and walked toward her. “Jessica...” Matt said as she turned to look at him.
“Matt don’t bother there’s nothing to say.” Jessica said as her hair blew in the wind and a few tears still ran down her cheeks.
“Please, Jessica just let me try and explain!” Matt said staring at her.
“Matt there’s nothing to explain you lied to me! That’s it, you have nothing to explain, nothing.” Jessica said softly.
“Just hear me out please!” Matt begged staring at her.
Matt watched as Jessica bit her bottom lip and stared at him. When she didn’t answer him Matt spoke, “Jessica I’m so sorry!” Matt sighed, “Um, okay, well I’ve known Jeff for like forever, we met in college. Were both really good at wrestling and we got a contract with the WWF a few years ago. Wrestling’s what we do, we love it, were a team, were really good at it. I had a really good friend who
I loved and she broke my heart, so I totally know how you’ve got to feel right now. Jessica hurting you and lying to you was never my intention! I’m sorry. See this girl she broke my heart, and well Jeff and my other really close friends we went clubbing one night while we were here, and I met you. When Jeff told me he knew who you were, I didn’t know what to do. I try hard not to tell people who I really am, unless well unless I have to. In the past when people find out who I am, I usually end up losing them some how. I was afraid I’d lose you. I tried to tell you so many times, I just couldn’t, I didn’t want to risk losing you. I know lying to you about who I really was doesn’t make up for that, and as mush as I tried not to, Jessica I fell in love with you. I love you. I was gonna tell you some how before I left, tell you the truth. I was gonna tell you when I saw you. I don’t know how to ask you or to beg you beside just asking you to forgive me, but Jessica I’m not gonna stop or pretend that I don’t love you, because then I’d be lying to myself. I can’t pretend not to be who I am, and I can’t pretend that I don’t love you, because God knows I do. Looking at you, I can’t help but fall apart, your beautiful, your everything important to me, I just wish I could go back and change what happened, I love you that much.... I’m so sorry. All I know to be the truth is that I love you, I can’t help that, I just love you.
I’m in love with you, that’s all I know, I’m sorry. Please, just say something anything!” Matt said taking a deep breath as a single tear ran down his cheek. He had watched her as he spoke, the way the tears ran down her cheeks. He swallowed and sighed.
Jessica didn’t know what to say to him, she did love him, but she couldn’t get over knowing that he had lied about everything.
Softly she cleared her throat and wrapped her coat tighter around herself. “Matt my mother used to tell me that love it isn’t something that happens out of luck, she used to say love isn’t built around a lie, love doesn’t lie, and Matt you did. I.... I don’t know what else to say, I have to get going. You be careful and good luck with the wrestling thing...” Jessica said softly as she leaned over and kissed his cheek. She shrugged and turned to flag a cab. When one pulled up she turned and looked at him, “Matt be careful.” She said as she began to turn away.
“Jessica?” Matt said clearing his throat. He shivered. When she glanced back at him and met his eyes he took a breath and spoke, “I don’t wanna forget you, I can’t. I swear I can’t stop loving you, and I won’t pretend like you don’t mean everything to me, because you’ve become my whole life, and the only reason that I get myself up in the morning. I love you, and from deep down in my heart, my heart,” Matt said putting both of his hands on his heart. “This heart that belongs to you, I’m sorry. I just love you.” Matt stared at her.
A few more tears fell down her cheeks and she shook her head. “Good bye Matt.”Jessica said as she met his eyes, tears falling from her face, and turned around and got into the cab.
Matt watched as the cab started to pull away from the curb and move away down the busy street. Tears fell from his own eyes and he wanted to have her run back and hold him. He truly had lost her!
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