Chapter 33
Matt was all ready and the second his music hit, and he heard the fans scream, even though he had so much on his mind, he was psyched! He got to the ring and waited for his opponent, Justin Credible.
Matt was sore when he rose from the mat and heard his music hit. He felt the referee grab his hand and hold it up in the air. he had won! Matt felt sore and tired, his body ached. He walked slowly back off stage and gulped down a half a bottle of water and went back to his locker room. He found it empty so he went over and threw himself on the couch. He laid down and closed his eyes.
Was Jessica really here? He pictured her. Her smile, her long blonde hair, they way her hair fell into her eyes... he remembered everything he seen her do, and say. He remembered her laugh and the cute, shy smile she showed to him lying on the living room floor. He remembered how she felt and how she affected him. He remembered that night, he wished he had a time machine so he could go back and fix things. There wasn’t anything that he didn’t love about her. It was
true, he longed to see her. Jeff was right. Had she seen him wrestling? What did she think? If she was here, then why? He sighed as he let his thoughts drift to far away directions, he took deep breath as he let himself calm down. He finally pulled himself up from the couch and went into the bathroom to take a shower.
Matt was standing under the hot water with his eyes closed trying to clear his head. He sighed as he felt the water dripping all over him. It was warm, like Jessica. Except Jessica he loved, longed for, he only wanted her to love him. He had water dripping all over him, but he knew he was crying. His whole body was sore and he just wanted to rest, wanted to not have to think about anything, just to think, to be. He wanted Jessica to love him and he didn’t understand how to make her. Couldhe? His head pounded, he leaned against the wall and sank down slowly and rested his head against his knees - the hot water falling down on him. He wanted to see her, wanted to say so many things to her. But most of all he just wanted to be with her, to have her by his side. He just wanted to be able to love her, and to get love back.
Matt was sitting quietly in the shower with the now cool water falling on him when he heard someone yelling his name. He picked his head up and looked past the shower curtain toward the partially open bathroom door. Matt stood slowly and stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around himself.
He was leaning back into the shower turning the water off when he heard his name again.
He glanced back at the doorway and saw Jeff leaning against the frame of the doorway.
Jeff stared at him. “What’s up?” Matt asked looking at him.
Jeff sighed, “I just wanted to know where you were...” Jeff said softly.
Matt shook his head. “I’m right here.” He mumbled as reached for a t-shirt.
“Actually Lita has a match and she wanted me to come ask if you would go with her...” Jeff said softly.
Matt sighed. Then he shrugged. What if Jessica saw him with Lita? Matt realized that she was here, and he wanted to see her as much as he tried to fight himself- he had to see her. He loved her.
Matt looked up at Jeff, “You tell Lita that I can’t....I have to go find Jessica…” Matt said softly as he pulled the shirt over his head and grabbed a pair of boxers.. Jeff turned a little so he wasn’t looking at Matt, and Matt put the boxers on.
Jeff waited a moment and then glanced back at Matt. Matt hung the towel up and started to walk for the door.
“You’re going to see Jessica?” Jeff asked staring at Matt as he followed him into the other room. Matt walked to his bag and pulled out a pair of black jeans. He turned in Jeff’s direction and started to put the pants on.
“Yes I am, I have to see her, there are things that need to be said, plus if I don’t see her, I’m gonna go crazy!” Matt said looking at Jeff, who was smiling.
“I’m glad... I think you should see her.” Jeff said smiling at him.
Matt stared at him for a moment and then went back to the bathroom to do his hair and to make sure he looked perfect.
A few minutes later Matt was combing his hair when he saw Jeff in the mirror’s reflection. Jeff came over and sat down on the counter beside Matt.
Matt glanced at him and sighed, “So did you see her yet?” Matt asked softly.
Jeff glanced at the floor and then over to Matt.
Jeff wet his lips and sighed, “Yeah...” He paused.
Matt stared at his own reflection and swallowed, “Well what did you talk about?” Matt asked so softly Jeff wasn’t sure whether he had said anything. Matt cleared his throat and closed his eyes as he thought.
0Jeff sighed loudly, “Matt I just wanna say one thing to you, I want you to listen very closely to what I’m gonna say okay?” Jeff asked as Matt stared at him giving him his full attention. He shook his head and waited for Jeff to speak. Jeff cleared his throat, “Matt I know she said things to you that night outside the hotel, things that she was feeling at the time, things that hurt you, but Matt..... it makes me wonder how you can not know that she’s in love with you, its written all over her face, its so obvious! Matt she loves you... I know it! Matt you should have seen the look on her face when she saw you tonight in the ring!” Jeff said grinning, “I still to this day think she’s beautiful, but Matt she’s never looked more happy or beautiful to me then she did tonight watching you. Her eyes light up and you can see her heart pounding, and she’s so happy seeing you. She was cheering and every time you would take a hit you should’ve seen the affect of it in her eyes... it was like she feels what you feel! Matt, you and her are so meant to be together! You two are so perfect for each other! Matt all I know from talking to her is that it’s so obvious that she loves you!!! I’m really glad your just gonna go talk to her and let whatever happens happen, you can’t stop trying!” Jeff said as he smiled at Matt.
Matt sighed as he stared at him. Matt cleared hit throat, and reached over and hugged Jeff quickly. “Thanks man!” Matt whispered as Jeff smiled at him.
Matt leaned against the counter and smiled thinking about her. “Jeff I can’t wait to see her, her smile, God I love her so much!” Matt said softly his eyes closed.
Jeff stared at Matt a moment, “I know you do. Good luck buddy,” Jeff said patting his arm. “I better go tell Lita that your not going with her, I’ll check back with you a little later.” Jeff said starting to leave.
Matt glanced back to Jeff. “Hey Jeff?” Matt asked.
Jeff looked at him, “Yeah?” He asked watching Matt’s face.
“Where is she?” Matt asked softly.
Jeff grinned, he sighed and spoke, “She’s sitting on the couch...” Jeff said smiling as Matt’s mouth dropped open and his eyes went wide.
Matt stood frozen as he watched Jeff walk out of the bathroom. He heard some talking and then he heard the locker room door open and close.
Matt turned around and stared at himself. He loved her, she probably heard their whole conversation. Matt felt funny, she was here, he only longed to see her, how could he just go into the other room and talk to her? He stood there deep in thought for a long time. He had to see her, to talk to her, he loved her and not being near her was killing him. He had to force himself to face her, to try and win back her heart, his still belonged to her. Matt stared at himself knowing what he had to do; he realized then that he was scared. He had lost her and now he had win her back...somehow! He had made Jeff a promise and he had to keep it. He wasn’t going to stop trying!
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