I went to rehearsal tonight and I kept thinking "this is fun?" It was mostly frustrating.

It has a lot to do with being a right-brained person and having a left-brained director. She is so into technique that she’ll start a song expecting full "performance mode" and emotion, then stop in the middle of a phrase. It’s like having the brakes slammed on in the car and whapping your head on the dashboard.

Then she’ll pick it up again and do the same thing over and over. We never get to sing the song through without stopping and I feel as if I’m going to get a hernia from trying to work on the breath control and then have the energy just sucked out of me.

I need to build momentum as I go along, not keep getting jolted to a stop.

if we had sung the song through to solidify it I might have felt better, but the way it was left I kept thinking about how frustrated I felt and how I wasn’t sure I really wanted to spend two hours standing on risers stopping and starting.

it didn’t feel like fun.

We did a couple of silly games for Valentine’s day, so that broke things up a bit. The chorus was divided into two teams and we had to come up with a list of songs that had men’s names in them. That was fun. And silly.

But that was about it for the night. I dashed out of there just after ten and I didn’t even bother to stay for the business meeting. I just needed to go home.

School went by pretty quickly today and I did get a good laugh because of one of the kids in my reading group.

Thanasi was in an awful mood yesterday and I told him that I was sure that the real Thanasi must have stayed home and the person who was in our group must be his evil twin. This got a bit of a smile out of him, but it was by no means a cure.

Today he walked in, all smiles, and said. "The evil guy stayed home today and I’m back. But you know that test you did yesterday? Well he took it and I don’t remember a thing that was on it!"

I howled.

This "evil twin" thing really impressed him, as he told me that he’d even told his sister about it. Thanasi doesn’t talk about much that’s school related when he goes home, so this really made an impact.

This illustrates how young some of the kids I work with are when it come to emotions and dealing with social situations.

Only three days until vacation.

But who’s counting?