Jason Edward McCoy
December 21, 1973 - January 31, 2002
He passed from a very sudden, rare heart aliment. He was put on the heart transplant list
but never made it that far.
put a little Santa outfit on him, and sat him under the Christmas Tree! His Dad and I had Jeff, Jason's brother,
but so badly wanted another child. We tried for five years to have him, we lost one before and one after him
to miscarriages. Everything seemed right now. We had two boys
and Dad was beside himself with joy!
He became my very best friend and understood me in a way no one ever has, as I did him. To hear his friends
tell me how they envied the bond and relationship his Dad and I had
with him touches my heart.
from my dear friend, Carol, mom to Angel Michael.
IN A LAND WHERE SPRINGTIME IS ETERNAL
Jason, oh Jason, my dearest friend,
Why did your precious life have to end?
To be your best friend was all I ever wanted
But since you've gone my dreams have been haunted
With fear of not being the very best Dad,
And recalling the times that I made you sad.
Crying and Pleading as I drive down this road
For the Lord to please lift this unbearable load.
On the dash of my car, I taped with resentment
The notes you wrote down about your self improvement.
You, of all people just searching to grow
While being the best of the best I know.
No one is perfect save the Man on the Cross,
But, you my dear son, are my greatest loss.
I hope and I pray with each waking minute,
To see your little red truck and you still be in it.
Or catch a glimpse of Porter running so fast,
And you there playing with him in the grass,
Or thumping guitar with your special feel,
Our favorite song, Margaritaville.
Or huggin' your Mama with all of your might
Saying "Don't worry Mama, everything is alright."
I cherish you Jason, with all of my soul
And know that without you I'll never be whole.
So please stay here with me, at least in my heart.
I love you dear Jason and we'll never part.
He was ready to be married, have his own children and talked to me about wanting to meet the right person. I wanted this so badly
for him. He started playing guitar around 14, thanks to his Dad, and had an ear for music. Most of his spare time was spent with his guitar
and he became more and more accomplished. I can only imagine how terrific he would be by now.
we had not. He was put on a heart transplant list. We knew he would make it. His life would change after the transplant,
but we would all be here to help him. On January 31, he had a brain hemorrhage. There was no more to do for him.
I stood in his room, staring at him in total and complete disbelief. This was not true of course. He was not gone from our lives.
Little did I know the shock I was in until much later, when it wore off and reality was setting in.
The devastation of our life was staring me in the face.
listening to him play and sing. Only those who have lost their child can understand this pain and agony that is always there. The very last thing
I saw him do was give us a "thumbs up". I knew in my heart he was telling us to keep going, stay a family.
So, we continue on, for him. He must live through us, we must keep his memory alive. We are such different people now.
Some understand that, some don't. The ones who do, we will be forever grateful for their love and support. The ones who don't,
we seem to have no energy left in us to try and get them to understand. We love you, Jason,
and miss you so much.
I wish I could remember,
Waking in my bed,
What it would be like,
Without these painful thoughts,
Twirling in my head.
It seems there was a time,
Somewhere in my past,
When memories of Jason,
Didn't set my heart aghast.
It seems I can remember,
Waking up with joy,
But that was many hours ago,
Before we lost our boy.
I wish I could remember,
What it would be like,
To face the day ahead,
Without the darkness in my sight.
Someday there may come a time,
When I can think of him,
The happiness he brought us,
And the light won't be so dim
I wish I could remember................
By Glenda
Forever Jason's Mom
"How does one become a butterfly?" she asked pensively
"You must want to fly so much
that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar"
"You mean to die?" asked Yellow...
"Yes and no," he answered
"What looks like you will die,
but what's really you will live"
~by Trina Paulus, From Hope for the Flowers
and Never Let You Go
Distance may separate us,
But my heart will never let you go,
For I carry a part of you with me always
It keeps me going through the day
It brings a smile to my face
And tears to my eyes
It is a part of my dreams
That I live for and cherish
That part is my wish, my only one,
To see you again soon
I know that wish will someday come true,
But for now I will hold in my heart
The memory of you and never let you go
~ Author Unknown
but it says a lot about the kind of person he was, how he always wanted to improve himself.
They are words we could all live by.
the person you wish to become.
Treasure your divinity.
Don't dismiss your own thoughts.
You can't give what you don't have.
No justified resentments.
Respond to all things with love.
Don't die with the music still in you.
Embrace the silence.
Fuse the dichotomy.
Give up personal history.
You can't solve a problem
with a mind that created it.
Change your mind, admit you're wrong.
If I should ever leave you whom I love
To go along the Silent Way, grieve not,
Nor speak of me with tears, but laugh and talk
Of me as if I were beside you there.
(I'd come - I'd come, could I but find a way!
But would not tears and grief be barriers?)
And when you hear a song or see a bird I loved,
please do not let the thought of me be sad . . .
For I am loving you just as I always have . . .
You were so good to me!
There are so many things I wanted still
To do - so many things to say to you . . .
Remember that I did not fear . . .
It was just leaving you that was so hard to face . . .
We cannot see Beyond . . .
But this I know:
I loved you so -
'twas heaven here with you!
by Isla Paschal Richardson
By Kelley Hunt
I'll be calling you
When the Meadowlark sings
I'll be touching you
With the warm Spring rains
I'll watch over you
Like a moon in the sky
For I know Love Never Dies
Though the winds may blow and scatter
all our faith and our hope
Only one thing really matters
and that's Love...that's Love...
I'll be ever true
Like the Northern star
So you can find my heart
Wherever you are
And when evening falls
You can close your eyes
And rest easy
Love Never Dies
Though the winds may blow and scatter
All my faith and all my hope
There's only one thing that ever really matters
That's Love.......Sweet Love.....
I'll be calling you
each time the Meadowlark sings
And I'll be touching you
with every beat of its wings
And when evening falls......
You just close your eyes
And rest easy.......
Love Never Dies....
My Thoughts and Prayers go out to you all
MAY GOD WATCH OVER YOU ALL
GOD BLESS
Sue-Anne/LEE
Jason, such a handsome young man.
I am so very sorry for your loss..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN JASON
MY LOVE
Sue-Anne/LEE
I wrote your name on the sky, but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in my heart, and forever it'll stay.
You Will Be Remembered and Held Close to Our Hearts
With Love
Ann, Laurasmom
Note: The poem above was written by an unknown author
I was so touched by your son Jason. He was so handsome and looked so nice.
I am so sorry for your loss and I hope you like what I made in memory of Jason.
God bless you.
Love
Ann, Laurasmom
GEOFFREY P. EDWARDS
A friend can hear a tear drop. 
An Angel That has Joined The Choir of Angels in Heaven
and Now Plays Music For God
You Will Be Forever Loved and Remembered
In My Heart and My Soul You Will Never Be Gone
Although I Suffer This Heartbreaking Pain
I Know in The End It Won't Be In Vain
As the Days Pass By I come Closer To You
I'll See You Again When My Journey Is Through
With Deep Sorrow
Love
Ann, Laurasmom
In Loving Memory of Laura Ann Kimble
and this award (gift) is what I have chosen."
Jesus Wept
