Edge
Adam Copeland
Part One Me,a Monster?
1999
Hello,everybody,I guess you all have read Christian's story,I know I have.For the first time in my over two hundred year old life,I cried.
I know you must think I'm a monster,but I could never do anything like that to my own brother,not that I'm calling Christian a liar,but I think you should hear my side of this story.
After our parents died,I had to take care of a ten year old boy,whom everybody,including myself,thought had mental problems.I was only twelve ,myself when I had to start taking care of him,so I'm sorry if you don't find it good enough.I never had a chance when the town bullies came,I tried to stop them,but they held me,and I never knew what they did to him before I read his story,it broke my heart,especially the part where he thought I just let them do that to him.
Well,that was the one good thing about Gangrel,he kept the bullies away,I don't know why Gangrel got so attached to Christian.I certianly don't know why he kept trying to get to know me,for me it was hate at first sight,ok,maybe not hate,I think I should rather use the word jealusy(?),the way Gangrel seemed to be able to talk with Christian,and make him smile,that was something I wanted to do.
Things changed when I found out what Gangrel was,one night i saw him drinking the blood of one of the poor people in town,when he came home later,I confronted him with what I had seen,I must say that's one of the few times I've really been scared in my life,Gangrel seemed to turn into an animal,back then I had no idea what a vampire was,my family was poor,me and Christian didn't get any school education,not many of the kids in our town did,only those who were rich,and you could say my parrents didn't believe in anything that was supernaturel.I guess I would have reacted worse if I knew what a vampire was.
But my concerne at the time was Christian,I was afraid Gangrel could hurt him,so I told him to leave,well,actually,I threatend him,told him I would tell the people in town that he was the reason so many of it's members had been missing.I only did what I thought was right,but as usual I was wrong,I was the on who hurt Christian.By taking Gangrel away from him.The smile,I had for so long longed for,disapperd again,but the worst part was that the bullies came back,it almost killed me that I couldn't stop it.
As the years went by,I started searching for Gangrel,I guess I finally figured out how much he meant to Christian,and all I've ever wanted is to see my brother happy.Off course I couldn't leave Christian alone,so a friend of mine went instead,seven years after I sent him away,Gangrel came back,but I never saw my friend again
Christian started smiling again,and I guess I was happy,but the relationship between me and Gangrel,got worse,we fought constantly.
Part twoVampires I
I remember the night he turned me pretty well,he did it against my will,I think he maybe thought he could control me or something when I became his fledgling,but Gangrel wasn't supossed to be a sire he doesn't have it in him,the only thing he did was making me hate him even more.
Three years went by,Christian was happy,but the fights between me and Gangrel just got worse and I had started staying out more,so I didn't have to face Gangrel,I had turned from a fledgling into a vampire ,then Gangrel told me he had to leave for a month,I'm not really shure how I took the news,part of me was happy,part of me wasn't shure of what it would do to Christian,and part of me wondered if I could handle things if the bullies were to come by.Off course,now that I was a vampire,I shouldn't have any problems,but I couldn't help doubting myself.As for Christian,he didn't know I was a vampire,I hadn't allowed Gangrel to tell him,not like he would have any way,I mean,Christian didn't even know that Gangrel was a vampire.I'm pretty shure that when Gangrel told him he was leaving for a month,he felt like his world was starting to fall apart.That's probably why he ran away.I got terrified when I came home and didn't find either Christian or Gangrel there,I started searching all over the house and what little of land we owned,Christian hardly ever left the house,the only time I know of that he did was when I was alone with him,and didn't wanna leave him alone in the house,but that was atleast three years ago.
Part ThreeVampires II
At some point when I'm searching trough the house,Gangrel shows up. He asks me what's wrong,and I tell him Christian's missing,We decid to put our diffrences aside and co-opperate for once. The only reason I would ever work with Gangrel is because of Christian,and we don't find him anywhere,which means he actually must have left the house and our land.At this point I'm about ready to panic,but Gangrel won't let me,He says I can panic later,after we found Christian,off course he's right,but I always hated that people told me what to do,and for Gangrel to think he can start ordering me around,it just pisses me off even more. So when Gangrel tells me to start looking at the left side of the house,I go in the opposited direction at the beginning of the woods,just to piss him off. Who would have known,for once I actually did the right thing concerning my brother,or maybe it was just another screw-up of mine that made me find him. Well,I can't say that I expected to find him covered in his own blood,but the only thing I thought about that moment was to find a way to keep him alive.So off course I called for Gangrel,if I had been smart I probably would've just let him die,he was unconsience(?) and wasn't feeling any pain,I'm mean his life up 'till then had barely ever been happy,he had lived twenty-six years and stleast twenty-one of them he must have felt unwanted,and by the Gods how lonely he must have felt,and I do love my brother,more than he'll ever know,maybe that was why I couldn't let him die,and that's why I let Gangrel turn him into a vampire.
When we have put him into the house,he sleep for most of the day,me and Gangrel can't sleep,we're both worried about him,so we stay awake talking,for the first time in three years we manage to get through a conversation without starting an argument.While we're talking,I suddenly hear Christian trying to call out with his mind,within seconds I'm beside him at the bed,he looks at Gangrel,gasp,befor turning his head downwards to look at himself,seeing his torn cloths,makes confused,I try to tell him to take it easy,not to worry,but he won't even look at me.I feel myself getting scared,what if turning him had made him crazy,Gangrel had told me that sometimes fledgelings turned crazy for no reasons,this made me want to tear Gangrel's throat out,and at the same time I can't really blame him if anything went wrong,Icould easily have stopped him. I leave the house so I can get some control over my anger.I always had a problem with my anger,but becomming a vampire didn't help,ecsept in the way that it got worse.
Part FourOn My Own
I wander around the streets in our town,trying to cool down, eventhough it doesn't work I head back to the house.I know me and Gangrel are going to start a fight when I get back.I figure that we might aswell do it right away,instead of holding it in.It's a shame really,I mean,when me Gangrel was talking earlier,somehow I didn't feel like,I don't know,killing him.And that's a first,since the day I met,the only thing I've wanted to do with him was to strangle him.But I know it won't last,it peace between us,and I can't stand beeing around him anymore,but I can't take him away from Christian,so the one that has to go is me.
As I walk inside the house,I suddenly feel very tired,tired of the fighting,Christian has fallen asleep when I return,Gangrel ask me I went,I tell him it's none of his buisness(?) and that I'm leaving,he actually looks sad,maybe he'll miss the fights,I don't tell him how tired I am,and how I can't go on like this anymore,but I think he knows it. Maybe he's just as tired and sick of it as I am.But I can't tell him,I can't show him my weakness,he ask me,'What about Christian?','He doesn't want me here anyway.' I don't know where my answer came from,what made me say that,but Gangrel looks shocked by it.What,he hasn't noticed how Christian doesn't even acknowledge me,or maybe he just thought I hadn't noticed,I didn't befor now,like it suddenly became clear to me. Off course the argument can't end yet,and off course I have to start yelling,at the moment I didn't consider it could wake Christian,but it did.I don't think Gangrel noticed it either,I don't know how much of the argument Christian heard,all I really remember is that I told Gangrel to go to hell,befor I took one last look at Christian.For a moment I almost reconsidered(?) leaving,but then I thought about how the last three years had been and walked out of the only place and the only people that really mattered to me.
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