it all started valentine's day 2002. i thought i would finally fess up and finally tell him how i felt. i've liked him for maybe a year and a half on and off but he never even had a clue. so i made him a CD and wrote him a long card (yeah yeah corny). i was so scared, i waited til after our yg meeting was over to give it to him. he was getting into his car, when i walked over and handed it to him. then i just walked away?! haha!! but that's how it all started. i got home, and the phone rings, who is it? ITS RICKY! i was so nervous. but he was flattered. from there things grew and he started liking me too. but then i got scared. i started to push him away. why? just didnt want to be hurt again. i hurt him a lot throughout my salem soccer season and then throughout the summer its was on and off.

it wasn't until after i got back from my missions trip that i had to either stop it or pursue something with him. V got home from her missions trip so YG was gonna go to sturgis to have a little retreat there. i hung out with Ricky as much as i could and we talked until we had to go to sleep. i told him all about my missions trip. on the way home, he gave me a letter asking me what was going on with us. but i already decided that i wanted him in my life. so.. needless to say we started seeing more of eachother and growing more together.

i'll never forget the day we started officially going out. it was at bobby's and jaimee's wedding. we were dancing and i told him that i wanted to be with him. we were dancing to "made to love ya" by Gerard Levert when he asked me out. good times! that night we just were fixed on eachother, his cousins were coming up and making fun of us.. they were cute.

if i could change anything in our relationship, it would be so i didnt hurt him so much in the past. but even then, i dont know because he showed me a lot of things when i kept pushing him away. he never gave up on me, he always cared. what could a girl ask more for? nothing. i cant describe how good he makes me feel. when he's hugging me or kissing me, i just feel so secure. sounds corny i know. as of now, we are still going strong. not to say we haven't had our ups and downs but we work them out with God helping us also. its all about the triangle... if we are closer to God, we are closer to eachother. and that's a big thing we've been working on. that's about it. needless to say i love ricky de mesa with everything i can love him with.