It has been so long since I've touched this page. I just deleted all the shit I had written. I don't even rmr what it said. If it was important or not. I don't care. I made this page when I was... god.. 14 or 15. I'm 21 now, a Mommy. So much has changed since I babbled incoherently about tedious little girl shit. I am so not that cheerful person anymore. Amazingly insightful, analytical, and introspective without a doubt.. but, cheerful.. maybe on a rare occasion. My life has changed so much just in the past few months. I am different now. Struggling to find out exactly who I am. School is pertinent. I am really feeling the forensic field. So, we'll see where it takes me. I have some of the most amazing friends in this world. Thank god for them. :::THE ODES::: Amy, what the HELL would I do without you! Constantly crazy gluing me back together when I fall to pieces. We have so much fun just doing nothing.. sitting around talking.. about everything and anything. The two most analytical people on this earth have found each other *haha* not to mention that we have the same god damn luck.. We both belong in a bubble! I love you! *sniff sniff* I'd be lost without you! David, the ideal man (you really are)! You have no idea how special you are to me. My best friend (let's not forget secret lover *hahaha*). I would die without you. Who'd have thought that the kid I scared in Junior Year History Class would grow up to be my best friend. It was the WildWood Midnight foot washings that did it. We formed a bond like no other. we are both so alike it's scary. you always know how to pick me up when I'm feeling down..and I will always be there for you.. even in the wee hours of the morning when sleep is pushed off by uncontrollable thoughts.. Don't change Dave. Who you are is what makes you so amazing. I love you.(((and we WILL rock the movie industry.. that I solemnly swear))) Nikki, Nixx, Cooliebutts, my lil sister... We are finally getting along! Amazing isn't it? Mommy is scared. *hahaha* Have you ever heard the sentence "what is going on" uttered as much in your WHOLE life as you have in the past month!? You're a cool kid. I had no idea you were so god damn funny! I'm sure there will be more times you hate me.. but that's normal...we're sister.. I just see you making the same mistakes I made.. and I want to help you. Don't turn into me. Don't let your life be run by childish emotions. One day you'll wake up, and you'll wish you could go back and do it again. Be strong. Sometimes starting from scratch isn't so bad... and.. I LOVE YOU!! Bwahahahaha... (((inuuuvooohh))) Lori and Anj, my two favorite mama friends! At least ONE good thing came out of our "dyke community".. US! You are both my salvation. We have the best times together. Whether it's in "our" favorite Hopatcong bar **Anj is the BROWN EYED GIRL** , Chillin in my house curing the munchies with tostitos and harassing GM'S, or Hangin out with crackheads at the tennis court... We RAWK! Our daughter's will grow up to be awesome just like us... and the best of friends! I love you mama's. "GET ON THE DONKEY!!!!!" hahahahaha ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ There is some funky ass shit on this page that I don't even rmr putting there.. but, for now. I have some things I need to do before I change this anymore. Eventually though. Be Patient HERE ARE SOME OF THE SAYINGS THAT I REALLY BELIEVE IN...: Don't put people on pedestals, eventually they're going to fall... All's fair in love and war until you say it isn't but you're wrong... Like a knife that cuts you, the wound heals, but the scar..that scar remains... Unhappiness isn't fatal..It just hurts..Hurting is okay if we learn something from it, and we will if we just let ourselves feel it.... Even though the rose is dead, its thorns still hurt... Hold on to love like you would hold sand, ... loosely and it will rest in your palm forever... tightly and eventually it will all seep out the cracks... We lose our innocense in many ways, the most painful being when those who are supposed to love us and care for us more than anything, really care for themselves and their own pleasures more. It's painful b/c it makes you realize how alone you really are... The worst kind of hate is that born out of love betrayed... It takes both Rain and Sunshine to make a Rainbow... If you want the rainbow you have to put u p w/ a lot of rain.. Don't be afraid to turn towards the darkness, for often what we think is sunlight is merely the reflection coming from our own glow... You don't have to hold on to the pain to hold on to the memory... Never is a promise, and I'll never need a lie... It is better to have love and lose then to never have loved at all... Believe none of what you hear and only half of what you see.. Tears may be dried up, but the heart...Never....... It always hurts the most in the beginning... eventually.. it get's better.. Don't take away someone's hope; It may be all they have... We are all prisoners here, of our own device... M.I.C......C ya real soon.....K.E.Y......Y.. B/c we like you.........M.O.U.S.E. *hehehe* Sign My Guestbook View My Guestbook Here are a few pages of interesting poetry.. Straight from the Heart poetry Page. More than Words page of poetry. A Heart's Poison Page.. Submit your page to 34 popular sites for free, using one form! I'VE LEARNED That you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. That no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back. That it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. That it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts. That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. That you can keep going long after you think you can't. That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place. That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. That money is a lousy way of keeping score. That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time. That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up. That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated. That you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it. That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop to grieve with you. That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help. 12 11 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 hahahahaha and you have NO idea what that was all about!! This used to be my favorite Chat. 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This used to be my favorite Chat. It literally changed my life Poem I wrote Angelfire - Easiest Free Home Pages My Daughter Her NEW updated page Page I made for a friend a LONG ass time ago. Cute poem. My Aol Page with Pics My sisters Favorite Place this one too BLINK182!!! AWW YEAH!!
