I havent posted in here for friggen forever... hehe
~RANDOM THOUGHTS OF JOEL AT 11:01 PM ||
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Friday, October 03, 2003
I wrote this poem for Sarah the other night. Usually I don't post such things in here , but this one really means a lot to me, and is one of my favorites, so I will.
It's that for which my heart takes flight. It's that I think of every night. It's only that which makes me cry. It's only that for which I'd die. It is that which crafts my dreams, and brings me to worlds unseen. It's that for which I've always wished, and that which now I'll always miss. It's that I'm again wishing for, and that I want more and more. Since now I no longer have just this, I can no longer live in bliss. It's that which stole all my love, from an empty heart just because, It's that which made my life shine, and could again if it were mine. It's you.
~RANDOM THOUGHTS OF JOEL AT 3:26 AM ||
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Sunday, September 28, 2003
This will all fall down like everything else that was This too shall pass and all of the words we said We can't take back
Now every fool in town would've left by now I can't replace all the wasted days The memory of your face -can't help thinkin'
Maybe if we ever coulda kept it all together Where would we be A thousand lost forevers And the promises you never were giving me Here's what I'm thinking
It won't be the first - heart that you break It won't be the last - beautiful girl The one that you wrecked - won't take you back If you were the last beautiful girl in the world
Tell me one more time How you're sorry about the way This all went down - you needed to find your space You needed to still be friends Needed me to Call you if I ever couldn't keep it all together you'd comfort me Tell me but forever And the promises I never should have believed in Here's what I'm thinking
It won't be the first - heart that you break It won't be the last - beautiful girl The one that you wrecked - won't take you back If you were the last beautiful girl in the world
It's over now - And I've gone without Cuz you're everybody else's girl It seems to me - you'll always be Everyone else's girl
This will all fall down Like everything in the world This too must end And everything else that was We can't take back
The Last Beautiful Girl by Matchbox 20
~RANDOM THOUGHTS OF JOEL AT 1:22 AM ||
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Why the hell is it that I cant seem to find any girls at all. Seriously, I go out, I try to meet girls, but it just isnt working. All I want is to go on a few dates for fun and such, just to start dating again and have a good time. I just can't seem to find anyone at all and its so frustrating. God this sucks!
~RANDOM THOUGHTS OF JOEL AT 1:13 AM ||
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Monday, September 22, 2003
"All those notes you wrote me, I kept them all. I've given a lot of thought how to write you back this fall. With every single letter, in every single word, there will be a hidden message 'bout a boy that loves a girl. Do you care if I dont know what to say? Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me? Will I shake this off, pretend its all okay, that theres someone out there who feels just like me, there is."
~RANDOM THOUGHTS OF JOEL AT 1:45 AM ||
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Thursday, September 18, 2003
I love it how my ex and her friends get such a kick out of fucking with me over AIM. Last I remembered I thought your friends werent supposed to toy with your emotions, maybe that means she isnt the friend I thought she was...
~RANDOM THOUGHTS OF JOEL AT 8:38 PM ||
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Monday, September 08, 2003
Hmmm, yeah, figured I should upate. As everyone already knows Im back at school now. Ive been having a good time while Ive been over committed :). Ive got more stuff to say, but no time to say it in so itll have to wait for a later post.
~RANDOM THOUGHTS OF JOEL AT 11:12 AM ||
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Saturday, August 16, 2003
Well, a lot has been going on. I just returned from New York. The trip was a blast it included activities such as hiking up mountains, horseback riding, and kayaking 12 miles down the Hudson river. Sarah seemed to have a good time. While I'm on that topic I might as well mention that we broke up. It wasn't messy or anything we both decided with us being so far apart it was for the best, but this of course doesn't mean we can't ever get back together if we decide thats what we want. We are still very close and going to be very good friends which is great. So for the time being, I am single, which may very well make this next year at school a lot more fun. Just for one final thought. I think I will be getting my ear pierced on monday. We will see though, I don't think that ive completely made up my mind yet...
~RANDOM THOUGHTS OF JOEL AT 8:35 PM ||
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Sunday, July 27, 2003
I got my camcorder last night. It's very spiffy. It records digital movies of course and can also take still digital pictures. However now I need a firewire PCI card for my computer so I can downlaod the movies off of my camcorder. I will also need the cord. That I'm afraid is going to cost even more money. However I can't just have a bunch of tapes sitting around so I will need to buy that stuff eventually. In other news I believe I will change my "french quote of the day," seeing that it has turned into the french quote of the summer. Thats all for now, yay for me, Im actually updating.
~RANDOM THOUGHTS OF JOEL AT 6:01 PM ||
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Saturday, July 26, 2003
Soooo, I guess blogger changed their layout. I liked the old one much better,this new one takes too much clicking to get anywhere. Anyway, as Becky pointed out, its been a log time since I have updated so I am updating now. Lets see, whats new... I have one week left at my horrible job in the toilet factory. With the money with that I believe I will be getting a digital camcorder to have some fun with at school next year. Also I will be going to New York on the 8th of August for a family vacation and Sarah is comming. It will for sure be a very eventful trip and I am excited. Anyway, thats it for now, Ill try to post a tad more often :).
~RANDOM THOUGHTS OF JOEL AT 5:37 PM ||
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Saturday, June 21, 2003
Time to update. Lots to write about, not too much I really wanna put up here though... Ive just got a lot of crap going on right now. A lot of stuff that is bugging me but it beyond my controll, you know that kind of thing. So yeah, thats whats up right now. Ill update again sometime... eventually. Or at least I think I will.
~RANDOM THOUGHTS OF JOEL AT 11:52 PM ||
