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2ND THOUGHTS
I Hold Your Throat Within My Naked Hand I Can Never Hope To Have You Hear My Word I Lose Control At The Sight Of Blood I Visit You Through Six Feet Of Soil Bitch! I'm Mad As Hell, Mad As Hell Why Can't You Understand The Words Shut Up? Why, In Gods Name Did You Think You Ruled The World? I Am The Punch Line Jokes Can Be Cruel Hi Honey I'm Home I've Lost My Soul, YOu Swallowed My Heart Whole, Choke!

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Mind Hemorrhage Fuckin' Folding Chairs In The Hallway Crucified, Paralyzed, You Laugh, I Cry Calculating My Miscalculations What Is The Sign For I'm Choking To Death? Somethings Caught In My Throat Could It Be Something I've Said? Sighted Blind, Brail Is Fine, Two Black Eyes Are You A Bad Ass Or Just A Fuckin' Asshole? There's Too Much, Not Enough God And Dog Well I've Seen A Dog I'll Take My Chances And Sleep Like A Log, Hard In The Ground, dig? God, Dog, God, Dog Agnostic, Insomniac, Dyslexic I'm Wide Awake And I'm Wondering If There Is A Dog

Before I Die
Set me free let me be who and what I am why cant you see? You never seem to understand this pain i feel is as real as your ignorance question fate as i await deliverance like a fantastic fork in bloody meat don't give me love i wanna drowned in your deep divide tumbleweed sew the seed in this ghost town you never know what you'll see when the sun goes down i saw her last in a dream she seems to astound heard of her first third verse (216) hands bound taken from me in my mind empty without it inside starving i am the deprived just want it once ... desires strong resistance is weak it's hard to win when you've got so many mouths to feed i could die for all of my sins no not for that for all that i have never had this life's a fight for fulfillment inside a war of my own hindsight look back with resentment taken as i find myself all alone taken from me

BIG BROTHER
open up your mind and let some thought inside open up your mind as they all survey 4 out of 5 and they all survey 4 out of 5 and they all survey open up your mind and let some thought inside open up your mind as they all survey and in this time of free thought it'd be a shame to let it rot open up your mind as they all survey when you're all alone you'll never want to know open up your mind as they all survey 4 out of 5 and they all survey you gotta let some thought inside as they all survey caught between the parallels of life and death and compromoses fill the hours with new vices voices screaming time is numb single file come and follow choosing futures from brochures changing channels no opinion losing track which way is up use your head for what it's there for though not one in the same receptive minds cooperate do not dissect the human race make one united higher plain and in this time of free thought it'd be a shame to let it rot open up your mind and let some thought inside use your head for what it's there for

Born of Desire
Wait I feel so helpless in this haze better days are laid to rest. Life's a test world of stress. Who is blessed? Can I get a little heart? You know the deal our weakness is we feel torn apart. Still we've got to keep it real. Born of desire conspired denial be your own messiah saviour, everything. I am the liar jester to the sire I burn with you fire walk with me. Pleasing dreams are few and far between the good and badly needed breaks in life just so you don't hate yourself if you believe in some kind of masterwork this was all meant for something i am truly sorry although I'm really laughing inside because i know this all comes out to nothing go on believe life's some kind of masterwork this was all meant for something I'm sorry, laughing inside for nothing sorry, laughing inside, for nothing

BWOMP
We're piling it too high talk not saying anything what we leave behind what we can't afford to keep there's no sympathetic posturing there's no more true humanity the old ways aren't working anymore seperate the users from the whores creepy crawl twist the 4-5 cap to get wrapped tight slap the wax on the wheels to feel alright find the flow freak the funk like you're in heat wrap the leaf strike the blunt now you're in deep we've got to get together got to get with the game plan to defeat the dealer that dealt this hand i don't understand why the kids are killing kids when the only ones that benefit are the bigwhiggs mankind unkind always a fine line we've all got to die and this time it's my time hindsight blind fight i hate it when i'm right he destroys the world while we sleep at night twist the 4-5 cap and understand that if it was up to me i'd free charles manson throw it all away let's seperate the users from the whores what do we have to hope for why do we even try laughed at religion long ago i doubt i'll be an angel when i die drop it from the top don't let the motherfucker stop cops want the props tripping like a bunch of pork chops don't they know we're loco going coocoo for coco puffs so rough so tough sho'nuff make it funky enough don't let the rhythm stop drop the fronts at once you know we're falling behind playing catch up like huntz while you're jocking the trends we're stepping straight from within you know we're coming correct and you're slipping again

CHANCRE SORE
self absorbed chancre sore love you like a matador life is just a metaphor nothing's fair love is war nothing more love you like a matador nothing more

Conflict-The Argument Goes On
Just because you're a saved how does that make me lost? Eyes wide hands tied capsized in flouride 4 out of 5 recommend a gun what if you were wrong the argument goes on and on a fistful of dollars ring around the collar and father never knew he had a son wait for the final setting sun rise for the everlasting one the oldest form of possession what a waste to spend life on why no war's ever really won the true devil, religion do not confuse this with condemning having faith, hatred and god fuel the future master race escape your prisons open up your minds believe there's something besides your way behind the disguise behind you disguise

EGO TRIP
With A Guilt Ridden Frown Hidden Smiling Deep Down Laughing At The Crowd Nauseating Sound As The Blind Lead The Blind On A Crusade For Sight Corralled In The Corner This Leash Is Too Tight I Can't Keep Up This Act Please Expand The Role Choking On Dialogue You've All Heard Before With A Guilt Ridden Frown Hidden Smiling Deep Down Dying Inside Paint A Smile On This Clown Tainted Face Jaded By Disgrace Regurgitate Your Faith Fornicate Your Mind All That Hides Inside Roll Around, Defecate, Compensate The Mess, You Made No Escaping, From The End Ego Trip-Punishment Falling Down You Can't Get Up Nothing Left To Land On

ELEVATION
How Am I Supposed To Think? Can I Feel? My Hands Are Numb, My Feet Oh No My Dick Is Dumb And The Rain Came Down Plucked My Sight Elevation, Elevation, Elevation How Am I Supposed To Think Now? What's In My Head Now? Like A Cheap Parlor Trick Slight Of Hand And The Blood Covers A Soul, Any Day Now What Do I Feel When I Awake? Where Am I From When I Am Lost? I Feel So Low, I Said My Hands Are Numb, My Feet Oh No, Elevation I Said My Hands Are Numb, My Feet Oh No, Elevation And Every Time I Get Up They're Pulling Me Down, Can't Get My Feet Up Off The Ground, I Said My Hands Are Numb, My Feet Oh No. How Am I Supposed To Think, now?

Exploiting Your Weakness
The mind is a sponge absorbing your secrets the body's at one exploiting your weakness a brand new kind of left behind open up and close your mind catastrophe, evaporation growing far across the shining masses back to your birthplace scenarios worst case now rounding first base far from home moral is crumbling these dice are tumbling words I'm mumbling stumbling on my own holocaust in my head body warping on nonsense from the fountain feed down on your knees for the best new line of promises words I'm mumbling stumbling on my own perfect slowly comes unglued a brand new kind of left behind drowning in the shallow sunburnt beneath the gallows stumbling on my own holocaust in my head life ... living isn't for everyone death ... darker existence after this hell a brand new kind of left behind kind of left behind

FEAR HELD DEAR
listen listen to me listen to me listen you left your mark like a hand print in wet cement to make sure these regrets i wont forget you tried to divide dissect me of my pride but i refuse to fold into your arms media's ventriloquist anglo saxon evangelist i find it so ridiculous the fears that we hold dear listen listen please won't you listen anybody won't you listen to the things that we hold dear

FLATTENED
an early incarnation of a bad day i got up on the wrong side again the first hours crawl emotional starvation we throw the words away don't want to swallow my pride again the worst waste of all i think i've found my way in i found my way out for every time that you live your life to please there's always that trace of doubt an early incarnation an early incarnation of a bad day of a bad day i got up on the wrong side again i got up on the wrong side again the worst waste of all the first hours crawl if i could only erase this failure in my head one day if i could just face up to this put the past to rest live your life to please live your life to please live your life to please there's always that trace of doubt an early incarnation of a bad day i got up on the wrong side again the first hours crawl the first hours crawl

IDLE WORSHIP
i've got a great choice of career staring endlessly into the mirror i've got a blank look on my face never to ever disappear disappear this is my chance at the mirror this is my chance at the mirror i find i see myself in your eyes feel your regret taste your despise i am immune still insecure i've been things that never ever were this is my chance at the mirror wanting what's behind inside the outside there's no time to hide curiosity's outcry to have and to hold to bend and to mold determine a price prepare to be sold all is commodity deformities oddities exploit the prodigy to amuse us all

INDIFFERENT
Distraught In Deprived Thought Within A Golden Rave I Make It A Point Of Being Pointless Brainwash It All Away Distressed And I Detest Vain In A Shade Of Gray Telegraphing All Of My Punches Couldn't Fight My Way Out Of A Cardboard Box And In My Own Small Way I Make An Indifferent, Difference I Realize, I Fantasize, I Apologize Crawling Under A Rock I Hold Up A White Flag I Could Of Been, I Should Of Been I'm Just A Has Been I Hold A White Flag Responsibility, Rationale, Religion I Hold My Head Down In Disgust Distressed And I Detest Distraught In Deprived Thought

Inevitable
There's always a downside impossible together not ever happy apart i cut myself to the bone, again cut it too close to the heart quicksand might look like it's safe there's always a downside i fool myself again, again i fool myself the fairytale is like life you're in the ground by the end you're crucified by your friends hanging high all these aches and pains attempting to abstain away from all their games success is self contained proving I'm to blame it's time i bear this shame i feel whole this way so throw it all away as i lie awake with every breath you take every promise you break as i call your name i fool myself again again i fool myself it's coming to a close that's just the way it goes like when the red wine flows i know I'm not alone we're drowning drunk and stoned embracing the unknown no time left to atone a chain is only as strong athis has gone on too long where'd it all go wrong you've got your life in your hands you'll come back just like pretend surprise hold on to what you can remember, remember make sense of what you can decipher, decipher concentrate on accomplishing miracles and just be happy with what you get everything has a downside to it that's just the way it goes like when the red wine flows i know I'm not alone we're drowning drunk and stoned there is a god I've never known the fairytale is like life this is the way the story goes it's coming to a close you're crucified by your friends this is the way the story goes it's coming to a close

NEVER LET IT GO
No i'll never let it go caressing the downfall outstretched arms on your knees crawl filthy and feeling low dancing in the undertow the cut that always bleeds but never shows everyone crawls to someone some run to the puppeteer and volunteer to become one but who pulls the strings that you are attached to who pours the gas that you are the match to strive for perfection and strike with precision soon it blows up in your face and the smoke blurs your vision but now you're fading fast maybe your time has passed bound and gagged as your dragged to the typecast jumping back and forth and forth and back once more oblivious to what it is i'm looking for goodbye but i cannot forget that i'll never let it go

SIMPLETON
Beat Like A Dog, Pissing All Over Shit ON The Rug, Lie Down And Roll Over, Shove My Nose In The Floor Make Me Think About Waht I Have Done Pledge Your Dependencies, Soon Jealousies, Tendencies Turn Secrets We Share, Into Weapons Of Warfare, Bleed Like The Creep That I Have Become Face Down In Shit And I Want You To Beat Me Senseless What Have I Done, It's Just Begun Face Down In Shit And I Want You To Beat Me Senseless

Solitaire/Unraveling
Locked away in a cage my rage has got the best of me time finds a way each day of leaving less of me behind I find this fight must be won inside the mind so uptight and confined often blinded by the light taking it's toll on my system like some played out existence time ticks away these last few moments is there anything we've left unsaid? I'm on a quest for atonement I've got to find a piece of mind and a place to rest biding my time until I'm strong enough to fight back hope, i hope against hope for some resistance been taking it out on my system rest-there's a calm before the storm and the western front is quiet I've got rembrandt as my right hand and solo as my pilot condemned man condemned convicted man convicted could not save my life cutting strand by strand passing it off like some kind of king you don't know peace 'til you've had suffering I've suffered all of your so called resolve but you haven't tasted pain have you ever been inside of the new masterpiece? Rembrandt as my right hand and solo as my pilot have you ever been inside the new masterpiece condemned man condemned convicted man convicted could not save my life cutting strand by strand strand by strand by strand by strand condemned

The Final Act
Wide eyed sleepers death in motion daylight creepers wearing all night pain bleeding moments spilling over non-existing as they crawl out into a world that calls them real sign the contract it's the final act matter of fact better take a step back relax the show must go on no one so on and so on as if under mass hypnosis the wide eyed sleepers fall into mass graves they'll feel safer in the dirt their own opinions won't be heard if asked could you decide what any man is worth could you decide? The steal it with a handshake seal it with a smile it feels like an earthquake treats you like a child defeats you with your mistakes leaves you in denial deceives you in the first place lied to all the while they can't see anymore how their wide eyes have made them blind in spite of themselves

The New Cult King
In that dream i recall pieces of prisons I'm escaping in the next big religion i do the cross thing the cross thing which ever way the wind blows your mind in time I'm nine our lives unwind we find the wine red or white like the days fade away a cloud of smoke blurred eyes you're always brighter in the daytime you fight it after midnight it just seems to me it's such a joke every new walk thru life just inherits Christ you should have to prove something first something first prove something you're a godfiend in that dream i recall pieces of prisons I'm escaping from a black hole i crawl, i crawl beneath my halo emanating the only proof you need is that you know and today's way's divine right brainwashed overnight you shouldn't have to lose something first something first lose something you're a godfiend the new cult king yeah doing the cross thing the cross thing can't you see why I'm still ... can't you see why I'm still wondering if there is a dog can't you see wondering can't you see why I'm still wondering search for signs to light the path show me the way savior send a glimpse to glance and renew my faith emerald meets the oceans blue in a shade of grey the general knows not what to do as tears run down her face nails through hands and feet on this cedar grave atone for sin can this be can this be my soul be saved all alone i think too much need to believe in something real don't need this crutch because it just deceives can't you see ... why I'm still search for love or was to restore disorder challenge me once more to hold my head above water drowning quick flooding in soaked through my lungs judgment day the verdicts in it seems the jury is hung

THE WRIST
Acting tragically in an inept manner trying to act like something really mattered when i open my eyes it's all gone overthrown by your children god willing shut you down it's like the closer i get i start to regret what i've done a sick piece of shit with the balls to admit when he's wrong react defiantly i am someone someone might even fool myself before i'm done when i open my eyes it's all gone overthrown by your children god willing shut you down making believe there's someplace i belong greedo died by the hand of solo amass a fortress of steel unsure if i can instill my will is caving in black til there's no bringing it back again led astray by their mock sincerity false charity condemned chewing insult inheriting unwarranted birthright crown a scapegoat new king of shit ignorance is followed by ignorance repitition diminishing senses defenseless crippled libido greedo died by the hand of solo when i open my eyes it's all gone making believe there's sompelace i belong when i open my eyes it's all gone might even fool myself before i'm done

THESE FILTHY HANDS
Haphazardly tumbling hard fall right down laugh out loud all in the scheme of things we're all looking up growing tall it's like pulling one hair you are what you are to me with wet fingers in my eyes you're a star petroleum jelly you're something i'll never be and watch the rain dance you're something i'm frightened of i've got to get clean the rain will cleanse me and i've got to wash these filthy hands because it's all just a futile plan that'd mean i'd have to believe again it's like a career to breathe an existence i can't concieve emotionless as a slug in my imagined oblivion it's as much fun as poking at a nerve you would swear that i could walk and talk noone wants to fail but noone wants to work but i doubt you will ever vocabulary test is graded on a curve ever prove enough smartest kid is stupid word is never heard i doubt you'll ever prove it i've got to get clean the rain will cleanse me and i've got to wash these filthy hands all these thoughts and feelings are for naught unappealing so you expect them to dull and fade still they remain caught waiting for the rain time devours life with my soul as the defendant don't catch me if i fall i may have jumped you never know you don't know me at all

TOO MUCH NOTHING
I'm Always Excusing Myself But Now it's Getting Hard To Tell the Reason Why I Even Care Increasingly I'm Unaware Instead Of Bettering Myself I'm Crawlin' Deeper In My Shell The Whole Point That I Am Alive Seems To Escape Me At This Time I Think Too Much Nothing Too Much I've Never Known How To Behave I've Never Strayed Far From The Grave I Need To Get Up Off The Ground To Force Myself To Make A Sound

Xeroxed
Fall from grace false messiah laid to waste amidst desire never found the fuel that feeds the fire of your passion carbon copy Xeroxed soul redundant thought assassin regurgitate all you hear and claim it as your own step on those from which you stole your path to the throne sink your teeth in decadence manipulate the crown drink the wine and toast us all for we will take you down