~*Life After Death*~

Prologue I was driving down the street quickly, like every other normal person when they’re late for a meeting. I knew I was going to get yelled at by Kevin but I really didn’t give a care, I’m used to it by now. Was that a stop sign back there? Oh well. I saw a car swerve in front of me. I stopped the car quickly but it didn’t stop like I wanted it to. My car hit the car that swerved infront of me. I heard a loud bang and felt blood dripping down the side of my face. Everything started to spin. In a matter of seconds my whole world went black. When I woke up I was looking down at a body, many doctors were working to save that person’s life. I walked out of the room where I was and into the hall. I walked past a waiting room and saw my family and the guys. What were they doing here? I walked into the room and sat down next to Brian. “Hey Bri what you doing here?” I asked, but he didn’t answer me, he didn’t even look at me. I looked at everyone in the room, they all had tears running down there faces. I saw a doctor walk into the room. “Are you all friends and family of Mr. Carter?” He asked. “Yes” Everyone said in barley a whisper. “I’m sorry to say this but Mr. Carter died on impact, we couldn’t get his heart to beat again.” The doctor said. I looked up at the doctor. Was that my body the doctors were working onin that room? I looked at everyone else; they had tears cascading down their faces. I saw my dad hug my mom and hold her. I looked at Aaron, Angel, Leslie and BJ. Who would give them advice when they needed it now that I was gone?This just couldn’t be true. If I were dead I would be up in heaven right? I looked at the guys, they all were crying, even AJ even though he tried to hide it behind his sunglasses. At that moment I felt a cold feeling go over my body,the tips of my fingers were blue, I looked down at my clothes and everything I was wearing was black. I saw Kevin get up and walk into the hall. I got up and followed him. I saw him walk into the room where my body was. I walked in and stood next to him. He looked at my lifeless body and took my cold hand in his,tears still flowing down his cheeks. “Nick, I know that your gone now and I know you probably cant hear me, but I’m gonna say it anyways” He stopped as he wiped his eyes and cleared his throat. “I’m sorry for being such a jerk and yelling at you cause you were always late, if I didn’t you would still be here and we wouldn’t have to go through this. You made this group whole and if it seemed like I hated you I really didn’t you were the little brother I neverhad and I’m sorry”. I felt a presence coming and I looked at the door. Brian appeared in the doorway. “Kev” I heard him say. “Yeah?” Kevin asked as he let go of my hand and wiped his eyes again quickly before turning towards Brian. “You ready to go?” Brian asked.I could tell Brian was tired and been crying for hours. “Yeah I’m ready” Kevin said as he looked at my body one last time and headed towards Brian. I saw my family, AJ, and Howie waiting at the door for them. I followed them out of the hospital. I saw them all get into there cars and drive out of the hospital parking lot. Chapter 1 I stood in the parking lot, watching the cars fade away into the night. I decided to go back to my house, cause I know everyone will be there. I walked slowly from the parking lot. I looked up at the sky as I walked down the street. My eyes searching for the brightest star, just to make the time pass. Out of the corner of my eye, I recognized the car that was driving down the street, in the lane right next to the side walk. Brian was looking out the window, his face pale, like he was looking straight at me.The car stopped and I walked up to it. I kneeled down and looked into Brian's blue dull eyes. So much I wanted for Brian to see me, he wouldn’t, all I am to him now is his best friend that died. I closed my eyes just hoping and praying he would see me, picturing the look on his face in my head. “Nick?” I heard someone say. I opened my eyes to see a look on Brian’s face, which said I thought you were dead. “You…you can see me?” I asked as tears filled my eyes. Brian was about to say something, but didn’t get a chance to as the car pulled away, throwing me back onto the ground. “No! Go back I saw Nick!” I heard Brian yell as the car sped down the street. “Brian it was just your imagination, we all miss him but in your heart you know he’s gone” AJ said as Brian’s eyes filled with tears. Things ran through my mind like they never have before. I was so confused; if I was dead how could Brian see me? I got up off the ground, not feeling any pain from the fall. I walked to my house, all the lights were on and two cars were in the driveway. I put my hand on the doorknob, but I just went through it. I walked through the door and felt the warmth go through me as I pass through. The cold returned as I was fully in my house. I looked to the table where I heard crying. It was Aaron who was crying and BJ was trying to calm him down as best as she could. I walked over to Aaron and put my hand on his shoulder. I felt him shiver under the feel of my cold hand. A tear slid down my cheek as I took my hand off his shoulder and looked at the both of them; both sitting there now tears sliding down both their faces. I couldn’t stand to see them in pain anymore. I turned away and walked up the stairs. I walked towards my room and heard talking. I recognized the voices as AJ’s and Kevin’s. “I’m worried about Brian” Kevin said as I walked to the door of my room. They both were cleaning out the stuff from my room. “Why?” AJ asked as he picked up one of my shirts and placed it into a good-will bag. “You heard him in the car, he said he saw Nick, Maybe he’s going crazy”. Kevin said as he sat down on my bed. “Kev, Brian’s not going crazy, he’s just taking this really hard, and you know how Nick and his friendship was.” AJ said as he finished cleaning out my dresser. “Yeah, I guess your right, Let’s go downstairs and help them clean down there” Kevin said as he got up and grabbed the bag he was holding. AJ gripped his bag tighter as Kevin and him made there way downstairs. I can’t believe they thought Brian was going crazy. I felt so tired, wishing I could go to sleep; I sat down on the bed but fell right through it. I stood up and sighed as I walked out of my room and downstairs, where everyone else was. Chapter 2 I walked down the stairs and heard the guys talking. “Were gonna end BSB?” AJ asked, as I looked at all them in surprise. “Were not gonna break BSB up, were just gonna take a little vacation to get our minds straight” Kevin said as he looked over at Brian. “What?” Brian asked as Kevin looked over at him. “Nothing” Kevin said as he looked away. Brian looked over towards the stairs and his jaw dropped. He saw a palereflection of nick like he had before. “ Bri, what’s wrong?” Howie askedlooking at him. “ It’s…. it’s nick” Brian said as myeyes grew wide. But how could it be? I’m dead right? Why could Brian see me anyways? “ Where’s nick?” AJ asked as helooked where Brian was looking but didn’t see anything. “ Bri, are you ok?” Kevin asked as Isaw the color drain from Brian’s face. I saw Brian clutch onto his heart inpain and fell over on the ground. Kevin jumped out of his seat and ran over towhere Brian was on the ground. Kevin kneeled down as he checked for a pulse,but didn’t get one. “ Some one call an ambulance”!Kevin yelled as I walked over to where Brian’s body was. I kneeled down on theopposite side Kevin was on. I looked down at Brian, so worried for him that Icould cry, but the tears didn’t come. I saw AJ run into the room as Kevin’seyes started to flood with tears. “ I already lost Nick, I cant looseyou Brian” Kevin said as a tear fell down his cheek and onto Brian’s hand. Iheard the siren of the ambulance, it was only about a block away. Flash backscame to me from Brian’s heart surgery two years ago, hopefully he wouldn’t haveto go through that, it was just too painful for all of us. I came back toreality when the paramedic put Brian into the ambulance. I climbed in quicklybefore the doors were shut. I wanted to be by Brian’s side just so he knew Iwas there for him. I saw Kevin get into the ambulance with the paramedic andthey ambulance sped down the street towards the hospital. In the ambulance, the paramedicbrought Brian back to life. I saw his eyes flutter open and he looked at me. Myeyes filled with tears, just to see Brian like that was just painful. “ Nick” I heard say as he lookedinto my eyes. I saw Kevin look at Brian. “ Brian, your gonna be alright” Isaid as his eyes closed again. I put my hand out to touch his but brought itback to my side knowing it would go right through his. The ambulance pulled upin front of the hospital and the paramedic opened the doors. I got out firstthen Kevin and then the paramedic took Brian out and started to wheel him intothe hospital. He was still breathing, but his face was pale and cold. “ Brian I’m here for you” Iwhispered as they wheeled him into a room and closed the door. I sighed as Istarted to walk around in the hospital halls searching for answers to myquestions. Chapter 3 As I walked down the halls, noanswers came to me, Was I being taught a lesson or was god doing this to me forno reason. I found myself in the same hall as before, the hall where they wereworking on Brian. I walked up to the door, looking through the window trying tosee what was happening. I was so worried for him. I saw Kevin walk up to thedoor and I looked at him. I wish there was some way I could convince KevinBrian was really seeing me. I pulled away from the door just as Kevin had as hesat down in one of the hard, uncomfortable hospital chairs. He put his head inhis hands as I could hear him start to cry. Muffled things coming from hismouth that I couldn’t understand. I saw AJ and Howie sit down next to him andtry to calm him down, but the tears just flowed down his cheeks like there wasno tomorrow. I wondered if it was because of me or because Brian almost died infront of his eyes. Flashbacks of Brian lying on the floor turning blue came tomy head. I shook my head I didn’t want to remember that. I turned around andwalked into the room where they were working on Brian. I walked up next toBrian and closed my eyes as I put my hand on his, wanting him to know I wasthere for him, to my surprise my hand didn’t go through his. I saw the doctorwalk out into the hall. I followed him wanting to know how he was doing. “ Are you all with Mr. Littrel?” Thedoctor asked. “ Yes” Howie said as he looked up atthe doctor. “ How is he doing?” Kevin asked. “ Right now, Mr. Litrell is in a coma, he’s not in it toodeep but it’s still hard to say how long it will be before he is out.” Thedoctor said. “ What made his heart stop?” AJasked as his eyes filled up with tears. “ His heart was very weak and itgave out on him,” The doctor said as someone wheeled Brian out of the room andinto the elevator. “ When can we see him?” Kevinasked. “ In a few minutes I’ll let youknow as soon as the nurses get him set up in his room” The doctor said as hewalked away. They sat there for a few minutes until a nurse came to get them. “ You may go to see him in ICU hisroom number is 201” The nurse said as the guys stood up. “ Thank you” Howie said as they allgot onto the elevator. I walked on right before the doors closed, I reallydidn’t want to see Brian but I had to stick by his side and let him know I amthere for him. Chapter 4 We all made our way to Brian’shospital room. I saw all the guys stop at the door of Brian’s room. “ We have to be strong for Brianguys” Howie said as they walked into Brian’s room. I stayed outside, trying tohold my tears back. Part me wanted to go in so I could be by his side but theother part didn’t want to see Brian the way he is. I leaned up against thewall, only finding myself on the ground the next minute. I got up and foundmyself in Brian’s room. I took a deep breath and slowly made my way towardsBrian’s bed, closing my eyes; afraid to see the way he looked. I opened themseconds later. Brian was pale, he had IV’s coming from his arms and had a heartmonitor attached to him. I looked over to my right and saw the guys crying,trying to hold there tears back but were unsuccessful. I looked back to Brian,it looked like he was in a painful sleep, trying to awake from it but can’tescape. I felt cold fresh tears sliding down my cheeks. Why did he have to gothrough this pain? I wiped my cheeks. I saw a nurse come into the room and tellthe guys that visiting time was over. They got up and said there goodbyes toBrian and left. I walked closer to his bed, wishing I could sit but knowing Iwould fall through. I looked around the room as I heard someone say my name. Ilooked around and saw Brian staring at me. “ I thought you were dead,” Briansaid as he sat up in bed. “ I am,” I said as I saw tearsforming in Brian’s eyes. “ Then how can I see you?” Brianasked as the tears slid down his cheeks. “ I don’t know Brian, I guess itslike some sort of bond thing or something,” I said as Brian looked up at me. “ Why did you rush to that meetingthe night you died?” Brian asked as I concentrated on sitting in the chairnearest to his bed. “ I wanted to show you guys I couldbe responsible and for one day in my life I didn’t want to hear Kevin yellingat me,” I said as I successfully sat in the chair, Happy I could finally sitdown. “ You know he didn’t mean it Nick”Brian said as the tears stop flowing down his cheeks. “ I know he didn’t, I heard himtalking to me after I died” I said as I heard Brian yawn. “ Why are you stuck on earth?” Brianasked as he yawned again. “ I don’t know but I think youshould get some rest.” I said as I stood up. “ Your gonna come back right?” Brianasked me. “ Of course I will, now get somerest” I said. “ Goodnight” Brian said as I saw himclose his eyes. “ Goodnight Bri” I said as I walkedout of his room. I walked down the hall looking for something to do untilmorning came. I walked through the door that led to a church. I knelt down inone of the pews; I put my hands together and started to pray. I was surprised Iwas actually praying cause it’s not everyday you would see me in a church,praying. First I prayed for Brian, then I asked god why he was doing this to mebut unfortunately, I didn’t get no answer like I expected. Chapter 5 I started to walk towards Brian’sroom when I saw a bright light. Filled of curiosity, I walked towards thelight. I must have gotten a little to close to it cause it started to pull mein, I fought my hardest but the hold was too tight. As it pulled me up Istarted to see figures at the very top, they came more into detail as I gotcloser. I felt the hold of the light on me loosen and I fell down onto a softpuffy cloud. I got up and wiped the cloud dust from my pants off. I lookedaround and I figure came walking up to me. “ Hello Nickolas” The figure saidlooking at his clipboard making sure he had the name right. “ Where am I?” I asked as thefigure took my measurements. “ Well you’re in heaven Nickolas,where did you think you’d be?” The figure asked me as he wrote down my measurements. “ How come I’m in heaven now if Iwasn’t in heaven when I first died?” I asked as the figure looked at me. “ What do you mean when you firstdied; you just died a few minutes ago Nickolas” The figure said as he took myfoot and looked at the bottom of my shoe. “ It was only a few minutes, itseemed like days to me” I said as the man continued to look for my shoe sizebut couldn’t find one. “ Your still on mortal time that’swhy” the figure said, “ Now please come with me”. “ Where are you taking me?” Iasked before following. “ I’m going to take you to getyour wings” The figure said, “ Now please come with me we have no time towaist”. “ But I cant become an angel Ineed to help Brian” I said as I walked towards where I came in from. “ You cant help Brian, your notsuppose to” The figure said. “ So you’re telling me to leave myfriend alone to suffer? And they call you an angel of god” I said as I walkedinto the bright light, I felt the hold grabbed onto me and again and heardwhispers telling me to close my eyes and concentrate on my destination. Iclosed my eyes and thought of Brian. I felt the hold loosen as it let me go andfell onto something soft. I opened my eyes to see I was in Brian’s room sittingin a chair. I saw Kevin, Howie and AJ crying and talking. I saw a doctor walkinto the room. “ I’m sorry but there’s no hope forBrian to come out of the coma; do you want us to take him off the respirator?”The doctor asked as I looked at the guys confused. What did the doctor mean bythat? Brian was talking to me just a few hours ago. “ Yes” Kevin said as the doctornodded his head. “ Well take him off tomorrow at 4pm so every one will have a chance to say goodbye” The doctor said as he walkedout of the room. “ Visiting hours are over” I hearda nurse say from the door. I saw the guys get up and walk out of Brian’s room.I walked up to Brian’s bed and looked at him. “ Brian, You have to wake up or thedoctors are gonna take you off the respirator”, I said as tears came to myeyes, “ You don’t want to be stuck on earth like I am, It’s horrible and I knowyou can wake up Brian, think of what you’ll be able to see and hear and feel, Iknow if you think about what you have you’ll wake up and show those doctorsyour gonna get better” I said as I felt hott tears fall down my face. I pulledthe chair up next to Brian’s bed and sat down, hoping Brian would wake upbefore they pulled the plug. Chapter 6 I looked for the clock for thehundredth time since I was in the room. It was 2 pm and there was no sign ofBrian waking up. I heard the door creak open and saw the AJ walk into the room.They must have been here to say what they think will be there last goodbye toBrian but I know it wouldn’t be. Brian is gonna pull out of it. I saw AJ walkup to his bed and held Brian’s freezing hand in his. I saw tears slid down AJ’scheeks. “Rok”, Aj started to say as hecleared his throat, “ I know you can pull throw this, Do it for me and theguys; we cant take another death after Nick’s. Please Bro, we need you, I loveyou man” Aj said as he wiped his cheeks and I saw Kevin walk into the room.Time passed by as they all said there goodbyes and I saw it was now 3:45. C’monBrian wake up. I just stared at him one by one people came into the room; itmust have been filled with 10 people. I saw the doctor come in and saw Jackiecry in Harold arms. It was now 3:55, This just couldn’t be happening, I know Iwished for Brian to be with me in this hell whole of a situation I was in but Ididn’t really mean cause I know Brian would be happier on earth then stuck herewith me. “ 1 minute” The doctor said lookingat his watch. I saw no reaction from Brian. “ 30 seconds” The doctor saidcounting the time on his watch. “ Please god if you’re listeningdon’t take Brian away from the people who love him” I said as I closed my eyesand felt tears fall down my cheeks. “ 10 seconds” “ 5 seconds” I heard the doctor saythen I heard a gasp from AJ’s mouth. I opened my eyes quickly to see Brian’seyes open slowly. “ This has to be a miracle” Thedoctor said as he looked at Brian who tried to talk. “ Bri, Don’t talk you have a tube inyour mouth” Kevin said as Brian looked directly at me. I smiled and saw a smallweak smile spread across his lips. The doctors ran tests on him and indicatedeverything was fine with him. They took the tube out of his mouth and said hecould leave the hospital in a week. I was happy; I knew he would pull out ofit. I walked out of the room and felt a presence behind me. I turned around tosee Kevin, Howie and AJ following me. “ Nick?” I heard Howie say. “ You could see me?” I asked surprisedthey could see when I thought Brian was the only one who could. “ See, I told you Rok wasn’t crazy”AJ said. “ How come we could see you?” Kevinasked. “ I don’t know” I said as I saw thebright light up to heaven in front of me. “ Guys I need to go now, godscalling me” I said as I walked into the light. “ Bye Nick we’ll miss you” all theguys said as I felt the hold get tighter around me. A few minutes later I wasnow back in heaven. I saw The figure walk up to me. “ Hello again Nickolas” He said ashe handed me my wings. “ Hi” I said as I took the wings, “why was I stuck on earth?” I asked to the figure, hoping he knew the answer. “ You were put to the test offriendship Nickolas, You were left on earth to help Brian and when we calledfor you, you could have been greedy and stayed in heaven, but you decided tostick by Brian’s side and help and that’s a true friend”. The figure said as wecame to the door and stopped. “ Now you may go and join the otherangels in peace Nickolas” The figure said as the doors opened and I felt mywings lift me off the cloud and into the air. I closed my eyes as I felt thecool air against my skin. This is what I was put on earth for and I made it; Ilanded on a soft cloud and fell asleep tired from the stage of Life afterdeath. Epilogue I sat up on the barriers, lookingdown on the last concert of the BSB’s career and also there welcome backconcert. I could tell it was worldwide concert on T.V. cause there were cameraseverywhere. I saw the guys come out on stage and sit down on stools. I saw themlook at each other and saw tears in there eyes. The crowd went quiet and Ilistened carefully to the words my friends were about to say. “ We would just like to say Thankyou to the fans for all the support over the years, thanking for all the cardsfrom when I was sick and thank you so much for waiting so long for thisconcertour”. Brian said. “ This year has been very hard for us, with Nick dying and withBrian’s health problem and when we would feel down, there was always you guysto think of and to thank for so many years of happiness” Kevin said as helooked at all the guys. “ Also, since this will be the lastconcert we will have, we would like to sing a song we started to sing before wehad a record deal” AJ said. “ We would like the people in thestadium to put up some kind of light or glow stick and help us sing this songfor Nick, for us, and for one more happy moment of our careers” Howie said asthe music for end of the road came on. “ All though we come to the end ofthe road” The guys started to sing as tears stung the back of my eyes. I felt apain in my heart as I watched them sing, I wish I could get up on that stageand sing with them but no one would see me. I started to sing softly with theguys as I saw tears fall down all there cheeks. I saw all the lights in thestadium and noticed tears on all the fans faces. They were the greatest fansever and I felt so bad this had to happen. I heard my name being called and Ilooked up, I saw the face of god calling me, saying “ Nick it’s time to comehome”. I looked at the guys once more, knowing I would see them again inheaven. “ Bye guys, I love you” I said as Iturned around and walked through the gates of heaven.

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