I could feel the sun shining brightly on my face, and slowly opened my eyes. I smiled, remembering what had happened last night. I looked up to see Josh still sleeping peacefully, his arm still around me. My hand was now placed over his chest, close to his heart. I could feel the beat of his heart against my hand. I didn't think I could ever feel so safe in someone's arms.
I nuzzled my face into the crook of his neck in an effort to wake him. I heard a small moan come from him. I pulled back when I felt him start to move. He didn't look like he was gonna wake up. I watched his face intensely. His eye opened a little, only to close again. I smiled.
He is too cute. I know what to do. I slowly rubbed my hand over his chest. WOW! He's got some muscles. I let my hand travel south... seeing if he would do something to stop me. He lay perfectly still. I heard a moan escape his lips so I pulled my hand away before I got close to his... you know what. I felt a little embarrassed. I looked up at him and found his eyes wide open, and a huge grin on his face. I felt my cheeks grow warm.
"Good mornin', Angel," Josh whispered.
"Morning," I said before I snuggled closer to him.
"How did you sleep?" he asked pulling me closer to him.
"It was the best night's sleep I've ever had..." I started. He brushed a bit of my hair from my face. I looked at him with a smile. "I never thought I could feel so safe..." I finished off in a whisper.
"Are you ticklish?" He asked out of nowhere.
"No," I lied slowly pulling away. He looked at me with a sly grin.
"You’re lying."
"Maybe," I said as I began to sit, up trying to escape, but I was too slow.
He grabbed me and pulled me back down and started to tickle me. I started to laugh hysterically. And he laughed right along with me.
"Please... stop... Josh," I said in a between giggles, but he didn't let up. I rolled over and straddled him, pinning his arms above his head. His laughter subsided. I stopped laughing, noticing how close we were. Our faces only inches away. I let go and started to move off him only to have him grab my hips and hold me still. He rolled us over so he was on top. My breathing quickened. I could feel his hot breath on my face. He is gonna kiss me... I know it. His hand came up and cupped my cheek, softly caressing it.
"So beautiful..." he whispered. He came down and softly kissed my cheek, before kissing my other cheek he looked at me, and that look... I could see the tenderness and lust in his eyes. I sighed.
"Kiss me, Josh..." I whispered placing my hand on the back of his neck. He looked at me with a smile. I closed my eyes just as his lips came crashing down onto mine. I dug my fingers into his hair and kissed him back with passion. The kisses grew more and more heated. I started to softly nibble on his bottom lip. The caresses... the kisses... Josh's kisses were driving me insane.
I held him tighter, wanting to feel him closer to me. He collasped his weight onto me. I moaned. God, I missed these kind of kisses. I wrapped my legs around his waist. I could feel the growing bulge pressing against me. What am I doing? I gotta stop. As Josh moved his lips from mine he started to kiss my neck. I was breathing hard. I couldn't help but moan when his tongue slowly licked my neck. I had to control my feelings.
"Josh..." I whispered, still breathless.
"Mmm."
"Please... stop," I said quietly. I could feel the tears build up in my eyes.
Josh stopped and moved his head up to face me.
"What's wrong?" he asked with concern. He cupped my cheek again as a tear escaped.
"I'm not gonna hurt you..." he whispered before he kissed away the tear. To hell with it. I grabbed the back of his neck and kissed him again. I pushed him up so we were in the sitting position. I pulled away and looked into his eyes. I smiled as I pushed his pajama top off his shoulders. I ran my hands down his arms. He slowly unbuttoned my top and slid it off me. Underneath I had on a singlet. I licked my lips.
"Mmm... I so wanna taste those lips of yours again," he said huskily while running his hands through my hair. I moved so I was sitting in his lap.
"What's stopping you?" I asked, getting comfortable.
He pulled me close to him. His lips swallowed mine time and time again. It felt so good being in his arms. I gripped his hair in my hands. His lips traveled slowly down my neck to my shoulder. He softly bit at my shoulder. He licked and he sucked his way back up to my lips. I could hear banging... but I really didn't care where it was coming from. I moved my lips to his neck. I heard a moan escape his lips. He held me tighter as I sucked on his neck. The knocking became louder as I moved back up and I again claimed his lips with my own.
"The door... who would be at the door?" I asked in between kisses. We pulled apart we were both breathing heavily.
"I don't know. And right now I really don't care," he replied as he held my hand in his. Our fingers entwined as he brought our hands up and kissed the back of mine. "I care about you Erin. You should know that," he started to explain. "I've never met anyone like you before. I want to get to know you... every single detail," he finished off.
"And I want to know everything about you," I said quietly. Someone cleared their throat. Oh, no. I looked over to see Justin and Joey looking at us from the door way. I hid my face into the crook of Josh's neck as I blushed.
"We will be out in the lounge room," Justin said, pulling Joey along with him.
"But... they..." Joey said pointing at Josh and I. Justin laughed and finally got Joey away from the door. I pulled away from Josh and got off the bed.
"Where are you going?" he asked moving to sit on the edge of the bed.
"I'm gonna go have a shower," I replied digging through my suitcase. I pulled out some clothes and looked over at Josh. He was looking down at his hands. He looked so utterly sexy... the tousled hair, lips red from our kisses. But other than sexy, he looked... sad. I began to walk away but Josh got up and stood right in front of me.
"Erin... please don't say that what just happened was wrong. I don't think I could bear that," he said the sadness evident in his voice. I let out a shaky sigh.
"I'm sorry," I whispered, walking past him. I got into the bathroom and closed the door. I quickly placed my clothes down and tore off my pajamas. I turned on the water making sure it was really hot and got in. I let the hot water beat down on me. God! I'm so confused. I brought my hands up to my face as I started to cry. I slid down the wall and continued to sob. After about 10 minutes I was washed and got out of the shower. I dried myself off and pulled my clothes on. Damn, I haven't worn these in a while. I was now wearing hip hugger jeans, with a baby blue tee that rested just above my belly button, and which had 'Angel' written across it on. I brushed my teeth and did my hair. I opened the bathroom door and slowly walked out. Josh wasn't in the bedroom so I went into the lounge room and to my surprise Camille, Karly and Tori where sitting on the couch watching TV.
"Erin! Hey. How are you?" Camille asked looking at me.
"I'm good," I replied, smiling. Tori motioned for me to sit next to her. I sat down and nervously played with my nails.
"So tell us... how was it?" Karly asked switching off the TV. I looked up at them with wide eyes. How do they know? They all smiled. I blushed.
"So, it's true... you and JC kissed," Tori said.
"Yeah... where is he? I gotta talk to him," I asked quietly, still blushing.
"He went to shower in Justin's and my room. He seemed a little sad," Karly answered.
"Plus they have rehearsals today. They have a show to do tomorrow night. They probably already left. So, today it's just gonna be us girls," Camille said getting excited.
"Time to shop!" Tori exclaimed, standing up.
"I don't have any money," I said quietly.
"JC..." Camille started to say but I cut her off.
"NO! I don't want his money. That's not what I'm here for," I explained.
"We know... he just wants to give you some. You know you have to get some girl things and stuff. Plus we're gonna have a small party tonight... we need supplies," Karly said before she took my hand.
"Let's go," Camille said. They picked up their handbags. I sighed. I didn't think they'd take no for an answer so I decided not to argue. We left the hotel room and made our way down to the lobby.
"What about breakfast?" I asked as we left the hotel. Tori checked her watch.
"It's eight thirty so we'll have breakfast at the mall," she said. Karly hailed a taxi and we got in.
As the girls talked I watched the scenery go by. I couldn't stop thinking about Josh. Those lips and how good they felt against mine.
"Erin, we're here," Camille announced, snapping me out of my daze.
Karly paid the driver and we got out. We entered the mall and went straight to the food court. I sat down at a table with Camille as Tori and Karly went off to get McDonalds.
"Here," Camille started to say as she went through her bag. She pulled out a wad of bills. "JC wanted you to have this," she finished, handing me the money. I was hesitant at first. I counted it.
"There is one thousand dollars here," I said, shocked. Camille nodded her head. Damn! I've never had this much money. I never really cared about money. I pocketed the money and sunk into the chair.
"I'm gonna go tell the girls what I want... do you want anything in particular?" she asked standing up.
"I'll just have a juice... a LARGE juice," I answered suddenly not feeling that hungry. She walked away.
I rubbed my tired eyes. I stopped when I felt someone slide in the chair next to mine. I looked to my left to see some strange guy sitting there. He wasn't really looking at me... just my breasts.
"What can I do for you?" I asked suddenly afraid.
"You can do A LOT for me... you can just come to play at my house," he answered. I sat there utterly shocked. He placed his hand on my arm.
"Get away from me, you creep," I said brushing his hand off my arm forcefully. The girls came back just in time.
"Beat it," Tori said, angrily. He ran off. Karly put the tray down with all the food on it. They sat down.
"You OK?" Camille asked.
"Yeah... I'm fine," I replied taking my juice and I took a few sips. We had breakfast in silence. For the rest of the day we went into several clothing shops. The girls almost brought one shop out. All I brought was a new notepad and some new pencils. Once the day was almost over Karly gave me a list of stuff they wanted for the party. She gave me the money and I went about buying the drinks and snack foods.