Abandon Self and Gain Trust

We can't abandon ourselves to God unless we're willing to become vulnerable. This is not something negative; rather it leads to a greater trust in God and a more loving submission to His Will, which gives God the freedom to trust us more.

'Willing to become vulnerable'.....this is where the rubber hits the road. We're creatures that have independancy built into us, and NOW we're asked to release that grip and let God 's will be done . It appears that two things rise immediately....fear and unbelief. Trust is a simplified asking, but the most difficult missions to accomplish. I have found , as I'm going through a place of needing to completely trust . As a human, I know as I am known.....have been known to be as a human can think. Now the will of God that is written in heaven and given in the Word tells me things of God that oppose human knowledge. This one thing is an example...'trust.' WELL, a test comes up in front of me so I'll see IF I WILL TRUST or not. I KNOW the answer inside of me (spirit and thoughts) BUT I HOLD BACK because I really don't 'trust' and THAT is really unbelief attached with 'fear.' I can worry by thinking... 'suppose it doesn't come through and I fall flat', or 'suppose I was thinking this on my own, and it's not really from God' ...well on and on the questions seem to rise . These are human traits that grip us. Eleminate one thought....If there isn't an agreement in the Word, then be sure to test the spirits to see they BE of GOD! We don't have to look under a rock to see devils, look AT THE ROCK to see if it's Christ!

The opportunity that I am going through right now, is causing me to HAVE TO step out of my secure boat, and walk ON the water, and it does not appear to be ICE .... HE is out there, and says, 'Come,' BUT the cares of this world rage around my feet. The winds of other doctrines(any word or thought) other than HIS WORD ALONE come blowing at my thoughts. Do I LOOK AT all of THEM, and then begin sink? Right now, I am REMEMBERING ( He said,'DO THIS in REMEMBRANCE...') He said in the WORD, WHILE Peter KEPT his eyes focused on Jesus, he walked on the water, AGAINST ALL NATURAL RULE. BUT when he turned his focus, he began to sink. Believe me when I say this, this situation is against all NATURAL RULE! A wonderful friend said to me,"DO you BELIEVE that God HAS ALREADY made provision for this situation?" My answer is,"SURE He HAS, BUT, I'm waiting for it to come." I wanted THE MANIFESTATION FIRST,.'let me see and feel', BEFORE I STEP OUT.... and Lord,.. ahhh...make that water BE SOLID like ice! Then the friend says, BUT THE LORD wants you to TRUST HIM. There is a huge place between trusting about, or trusting IN. This was an IN THE MIDDLE of the circumstance with nothing but TRUST in REMEMBERING HIS WORD that was planted IN my heart . This is to HOLD me.

I praise God for good Christian friends! THIS friend actually took my spiritual hand and called me to step out, while reminding me of their own previous circumstances. I had already witnessed God's power in their lives. My friend EDIFIED me.....BUILT me UP in THE Faith! Encouraging me to step out into an unatural circumstance. Realize this, God had already prepared me in my heart that I was going to face some NATURAL things and then I would SEE the SPIRITUAL MANIFEST victory into the natural rehlm . I was hearing the voice of the Holy Spirit reminding me of this. TWO times within this past week, I've HAD to walk on water, though I have felt like a baby crawling on hands and knees in fear.

I could know hear the Spirit of God say,'GET UP you lame and WALK!' God always send His Word an delivers us out of OURSELVES , or the grips of evil, and offers mercy. As a result of all this, The PROVISION for this circumstance manifested! IT would NOT, until I grabbed hold of the hand of TRUST (Jesus), BUT I HAD to LET Go of the other HAND I was holding, which was my OWN SELF dependancy. This was a very difficult trial for one who can trust in the Lord for all SPIRITUAL BLESSINGS, but who's been waiting for the NATURAL ONES to appear, but almost giving up on the fact that they will. Oh Lord HOW LONG?, has been my question before Him. Years ago, I read in the Word......IF my heart became right before God, and I'd OBEY HIS COMMANDS (this entails the voice of the Holy Spirit as He brings up WORD) THEN I would be blessed fully. I have spent years focusing in on the learning to obey His Word and Commands. I have been through many difficult tests, and have been DETERMINED to PASS them! BUT THIS ONE TOO, LORD? I heard a message once on the "fire of the Lord" by Joy Dawson.....it impacted my life. I'll never forget her saying.....God sends the firey trials to SEE IF you will TRUST HIM. She, herself, had found out that she couldn't go any further on , UNTIL she PASSED the test. IF she didn't, then the next test was even MORE difficult, and so on. She then learned to 'take this first test, thank you,' because each one thereafter became much more difficult. Good thought for paremts to teach children,,,,,obedience the FIRST time around or face a more difficult one instead...your choice! I had never thought this of my loving heavenly Father! BUT HE IS a GOOD (Merciful) parent. Merciful enough to cause me to walk instead of crawling. What have I seen out of all this? THIS word 'ABANDON' self, is VERY Difficult for the human soul, YET VERY PROFITABLE..( remembering the faithful servant that gained 'profit on his talents' ...also remembering the one who was unfaithful who didn't INCREASE, but because of FEAR, buried it, thinking that GOD WOULD REAP where HE sowed not., and GOD WILL DO IT ALL! NOT SO! We're in this as companions, friends. A covenant is an AGREEMENT between 2 or more. We agree to have Jesus Christ as LORD and Saviour of our life, but we agree to follow His HOLY PLAN, thus agreeing with the contract. A good friend will not let the other do all the pulling, and is the same as a yolk of oxen. Pulling together is the issue, and not being unequally yolked...one pulling as the other lets him. A yolk is not one pushing, either. Only the husbandman can goad the ox. (Husband and wives) can take this thought too. We're both in the SAME yoke, pulling together! If not, what kind of furrow would the field be? No wonder we reap what we sow!

Well, folks, I've been having to practice many things I have learned, but NOW comes the concert! (cdn)