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Look at these men who gave their lives to this wonderful country. I admire their sacrifice, but I am disgusted by the fact their lives where taken because of one man, George Bush. His supposed knowledge, of weapons of mass destruction in Iraq proved fraudulent. And now his war against world wide terrorism has made an entire world turn their backs on us...
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I havent updated this shit in a while, we're here at Alex's house, Natie, alex, ce, emelie, andrew, and me....................... TTYl....
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Saturday 12/25/04 5:13am -eddy
Hehe I know I haven't updated in a long time, for a month. Today is Christmass!!!! yay... NOT... It seems like its no fun anymore, I remember being younger and looking forwards to Christmass all year long, but this year it was like "yeah... another year gone by... I wish I was getting younger not older....., and could some one kick my ass to start working out agai...." Yeah thats how it was this year... But hey maybe next year itll be different ::::Hoping it is:::: Well till next time....
ohhh wait I forgot mention what it was that i got for Christmass, I got a couple of things, a new carbon fiber housing for my fone, two coats from Aeropostale, black dress pants from Express(they're a pain in the ass), A pink dress shirt from Express(love it!!!), a set of weights(maybe ill get up off my ass and go use them), and a 59 El Camino collectible model car(I wish I had a real one), and I got the joy of spending time with my family, and my parents friends ( yay... NOT..), and I also eate alot of food( cause it seems likes thats all I do) Ohhhh.... And I got kinda drunk last night.....
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Wednessday 12/01/04 12:58am -eddy
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Well its almost one in the morning, and I can't go to sleep. That is not the worst part, its that I have to go to work at 5, thats in 4 hours...
Well I finaly did it, today I talked to fatima, it was ok at first but, like i suspected it went all bad at the end. I guess it was something that I said that she misunderstood. LOL heres wt it ended up like: (22:58:33) AngelOfUrHeart11: anything else u have to say?
(22:58:55) CkOoLbUrN: no, and to be honest I didnt have to say anything
(22:59:05) AngelOfUrHeart11: ok then u shudnt have
(22:59:14) CkOoLbUrN: not the point
(22:59:29) AngelOfUrHeart11: so wt is?
(22:59:46) CkOoLbUrN: the fact that i said it
(23:01:23) AngelOfUrHeart11: for no reason whatsoever because in no way did this make u a better bigger person
(23:02:46) CkOoLbUrN: I feel it did.
(23:04:00) AngelOfUrHeart11: well i feel i jus lost an hour of sleep next time u wanna "seem like a bigger man" act like one by sayin wt u truly wanna say instead of makin it all nice and pretty
(23:06:44) CkOoLbUrN: yeah well
(23:06:59) CkOoLbUrN: i think i said all i need to say
(23:07:12) CkOoLbUrN: it dont face me either way
(23:07:30) CkOoLbUrN: Like I afford mentioned
(23:07:55) CkOoLbUrN: its up to you wheter you talk to me or not
(23:08:07) CkOoLbUrN: I just need to make some points clear
(23:08:24) AngelOfUrHeart11: ok then goodnite
(23:08:33) CkOoLbUrN: and as you may have noticed i became some what of a bitch
(23:09:08) AngelOfUrHeart11: yea its pretty sad but o well
(23:09:12) CkOoLbUrN: which i believe have also, since the beggining
(23:09:23) CkOoLbUrN: or should i say the end
(23:09:27) CkOoLbUrN: or w.e
(23:09:38) AngelOfUrHeart11: ok bye
(23:09:50) CkOoLbUrN: k. good bye
(23:09:55) AngelOfUrHeart11 logged out.
All I meant to say was that I didn't have to say anything but I still did cause I felt bad. What really go me going was the fact that she said that she wasted her time listening to me. How many of you would seriously get pissed off if someone told you that? But hey W/E, Its her decision. Ive been doing fine and will continue to do so. It just makes me sad to know that out of all the relationships that I've had. The one that meant the most to me was the one that was most destroyed at the end. But hey Fa, if you read this, Good Luck. I mean that. And damn I wish I could stop feeling bad about this...
Ohh, and I meant wt I said... I dont talk just because I can... The point is that I got everything off my chest and now hold no bias against you.
"Even though I act like shit don't face..... Inside it drives me crazy"
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Thursday 11/26/04 1:32am -eddy
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Well here I am again, late at night sitting infront of my computers. Hehe I love them!!! Anyways, I really don't know wt to say today just that I just I am very upset cause I lost the notebook where I keep all my poems, and they meant alot to me(guess I'm flipping my house inside out tomorrow).
I Have only one question. How can a person go from loving someone to being almost completely sure of hating them?
I have two theories to answer this question.
1. You dislike your old love because you seriously developed something against them.
OR
2. You feel hate towards that person, because you still love them, and since you can't show that love, the brain can find no other way to cope with this feeling and it turns it into jelousy, which is misinterpreted as hate.
HELP!!!!! I'M CONFUSED!!!! LOL, ::GIGGLES IN SHYNESS:::
MAN, I WISH I KNEW THE WITCH THEORY WAS THE RIGHT ONE...
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Tuesday 11/23/04 11:34pm -eddy
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It has been a while since I wrote in this thing. Nothing much has happened really. I don't know if any of you remember the last logs but, I think I have come a long since that whole hating the world phase I was going through... Well I think I'm going to get myself to bed cause I am almost falling asleep as I type this ::lol::.
Hopefully I wont be late to Mr. Manto's class tomorrow, hes a cool teacher, and it makes me feel bad when I'm late to his class. And I'm late every single time... ::lol::.
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Tuesday 11/23/04 11:34pm -eddy
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I got a life... lol Im so patetic, lol... I got back with Jenny, hope things work out this time, she know ill prob cheat on her ass, and I know the same of her, but its all cool. Its like a working disfunctional relationship...
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Friday 11/9/04 10:27pm -eddy
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I am feeling so fucking full of hate righ now, I have no idea what the fuck it is but its like I want everybody to fucking die. I for some reason feel disgusted with a girl whos name I don't wanna mention... I am so fucking hating on her ass so much righ now its not even funny. I wanna juss shoot myself, but then if it actually came down ot it I would probably just fucking chicken out. If there is some one out there who hates me and wants to get rid of me PLS PLS come and fucking shoot me!!!!!!!!
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Friday 11/9/04 6:35pm -eddy
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I'm thinking of joining the school wrestling team. I think this is a good idea cause I can ger in shape and also learn something new, I'm loving the whole getting in shape idea cause quite frankly I have not worked out in the longest time, I think it has been like 5 months by now. Surprisinly I have kept in shape and right now I weigh 178 pounds. And a couple of months ago I weighted in at 210... I hope I can get into the 160 weight division, that is if I decide to join the team...
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Friday 11/7/04 10:47pm -eddy
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I haven't updated this shitie ass page in a while, well this is partly cause I got a life now. LOL well now my life consists mostly of smoking, some drinking, smoking weed, and popping pills... But if I look at it in the brigt side I'm doing better in sckool now adays,.. So I guess I'm good...
I got a concusion last monday so I was out of sckool for the rest of the week, and I was like "out off place" for a couple of days... and HMMMM.... ohh, I got my license ::finaly:: lol, and now I can drive to where ever I want... OHHH this reminds me I never finish writing my story about my summmer... Ill get to it some day...
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Thursdat 10/21/04 11:20pm -eddy
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What can I do with my life? I fell empty at this point in my life, but I also feel contempt. Its like nothing faces me, and there is no motivator for me to do anything at all. Some days I wake up and say (or atleast think) that I am going to work to change the way I have been acting... But the bottom line is I will simply not do anything productive at all...
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Wed 10/20/04 -eddy
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I have not updated in a while, Its like I don't have time to do anyhting, but I got all the time in the world cause I do nothing all day long... I need to get back into the whole doing something shit. Man, I haven't even transfered back to Cliffside Park yet...
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Thursday 10/14/04 -eddy
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I wonder what happened to me... its like I don't care about anything anymore, like i dont have the will to do anything. Its like "who cares." I should..........
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Tuesday 10/12/04 -eddy
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Sometimes I wonder if life is worth living... What I'm trying to say is that no matter what we do, we are still going to die. It is irrevelant to death if you are rich, poor, gay, straigh, strong weak, smart, stupid, and so on. We are going to die!!! So what is the point in living? What is the point of life? giving everything you got so one day it just does not matter anymore...
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Friday 10/08/04-Eddy
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Lazy people are the luckiest people on earth. I was failing physics class due to absences, and I didnt really care, bu if my parents found out I swear they probably would hang me (and the light a fire under me). But now I nothing to worry about cause I was called down to guidance and the lady is "I just want to know if you are going to pass physics." So I'm like "I don't think so, I already failed the marking period, and I dont really like the teacher....." so she is like "what are we going to do?" So I asked her if I could switch out of that class into another one, and she said ok.... Now im not failing any classes, lol im good.......=)
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Thursday 10/07/04-Eddy
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Well its 9:23am and im sitting in the computer room, instead of being in physics class(which I failed already) im soo tired I think Imma go home again.........
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Wed 10/06/04-Eddy
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Today I left school early, just cause I wanted to; I was feeling to lazy to stay in school. And on top of that I was late to begin with, lol. I am so fucking up my senior year its not even funny, I ha got to find a way to fix all the shit I'm in right now. And man do I need to start working out again, I'm gonna endup fatter than I was before. I just need to find some dicipline, and commitment (it has to catch on sooner or later....)
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FRIDAY 10/01/04-Eddy
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A couple of days ago I found out, much to my dissappointment, that the girls that was supposedly pregnant is not. That really sucked cause well I wanted the child.....
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Tuesday 9/28/04-Eddy
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Today I supposedly get the lease to my apartment in Cliffside Park, but I still don't know if I should move there or not... I don't think I'll be moving thoug, I am pretty contempt here at Ridgefield, but I allways wanned to graduate from Cliffside Park.... Idk I'll see a week from........
Im still working on this dumb site... If you have any I deas on what I should put on it let me know (click on the e-mail thingy above.)
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Monday 9/27/04-Eddy
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Guess what!!! On the trip to guatemala, I was kinda "fooling around" and Everything was cool.... But just a cluple of days I found out that Im gonna be a DADDY!!! hehehe.... I got a girl pregnant! How cool is that lol, I'm actually happy. But, yes there is a but, the kid might not be mine. Either way this is cool, lol .
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Tuesday 9/21/04-Eddy
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today I changed the adress of my wedpage ::Again::... Hopefully this time I wont lose the password ::sigh::... Well I think I will start fixing up the page soon, Ohh and man do I have the greatest story to tell... My trip to Guatemala, WoW that place is AWSOME.
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Thursday 9/9/04-Eddy
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today I changed the adress of my wedpage now I go to let every one know wt the new adress is... ohh and this is just to fool around........... :) Andrew Abreu is gay
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Sunday 6/6/04-Eddy
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Today was not dat great, i went to a confirmation party, and my girl was there. i was so happy to see her but at the same time i felt so bad...
Its dat I know I like her, and I know dat she likes me, but there is something wrong with me. Well not exactly wrong but im confused and scared, Ive been with her for more than a year and i gave her a promise ring on our aniversary. I think it was the best thing i ever did, but im not sure right now. I dont know if I got used to having her with me all the time, or if I dont feel the same way about her, or if I changed and this only a phase...
I know i there is something in me that is attached to her, and it is not lust... Cause if this was the case, I would have had called it off already, but i dont want to let go, cause I feel I still love her.
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Saturday 6/5/04-Eddy
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Well this is the basic layout of the page... the pics are temprary, although i must say they are quite nice, hehehe.....
today was kinda ok, i didnt do much, nothing at all, hehe. I basically just sat around all day watching TV, I mean its like once in a while you just have to let your responsabilities behind and take a break...
I went out to the movies at 7:00 ill b bak like like at 12..... life sux.....
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