I dream of old age... It's true. I dream of somehow when I am nearing middle age to somehow be successful in something I love to do. The kind of older lady I dream of being is an independant and wise crone. I want a stone house.. perhaps a 'cottage', but roomy. With a large yard and beautiful garden and patio. With lots of fruit trees in the yard for my grandchildren to climb and eat food the way it was meant to be.... organic. I hope to play the piano by then and sing with my grandkids. I want to write novels. I imagine myself as an old woman locking herself away and writing the really great thought provoking novels readers can truelly enjoy. Creating characters based on my own life... making them unforgettable. In my novels will be all my explanations of my failures... the choices I had before me and the ones I took... So far regrettably. Maybe some young person will see themself in one of my books and it will give them some understanding of things. Hopefully I will be able to give them the possibility of prevailing over some of lifes unpleasant things.