[[would you?]]
i feel ill
i want to puke
terminally ill maybe
would you kill me if i asked you to?
am i too cowardly to do it myself?
but then again why would i?
that would be cowardly of me
i feel ill
and i wait for it
just so that i can realize
even though i already do
is there anything i can do?
no.. no there isnt
and i know i set a time limit
but i keep giving in
and it keeps pulling me further
when i more or less forget
i am looking for jesus
but i cant find him anywhere
my hands arent wood right now
i wish they were
escape to the pensive reality
where blurs are scares
and scares are blurs
the tree turns into a shopper
and the what would be leaves
glow in my mind
and maybe i should quit
you know i never learn
i try to stay away from it
but i dont want it to leave
it becomes almost an obsession
without obessing
