Online Diary
March 3rd, 2002
5:00 a.m.
Today has been a strange day indeed. Waking up at the late hour of 6 p.m. it was still raining and gloomy outside. I spent most of the time I was up today trying to fix my stupid Sims game. I added about 2000 new objects and made the game take about 6 mins to actually load and start up. After getting that all fixed I once again tried to find something to do in this town, but nevertheless failed. It seems that my days here have been kind of flying by. Since December I've been trying to forget what happened. Now it's already March and been about 3 months since everything changed. I've decided to try and go ahead with my original plans and try to make it to Florida. I don't know where I'm going to go yet. I've just started looking at schools down there and I've still got some time before the Fall. You know thinking back in our lives and remembering the turning points, the ones we chose to make and the ones that came unexpected, It's strange to think what if I knew what was going to happen, how would that change what was. It also makes me wonder what's in store for the future. What decisions will I make that will change my life for the better or for the worse. Moving to Florida is a big decision in my life, although it's something I've dreamed of doing as long as I can remember. It's a long way away and holds pretty much a whole new life for me. New friends, new college, new home. Looking back at all the changes I knew back then I wanted to go, but I had been considering changing my mind staying back longer and waiting for a better opportunity to arise. I didn't know what was going to happen then nor did I expect it. But from the experiences it's made me realize that moving is one of my big dreams. When I was little I always wanted to move away and get a fresh start, a total clean slate. I wouldn't have to live with all the bad years growing up. No one would stereotype me before they would even get to know me. I thought moving to Terre Haute would do the trick. A brand new school, new friends to make, and new scenery. Once I got my chance I held back and hung on to the past. I didn't get my fresh start, instead I probalby lived the lonliest year of my life. Now after everything that has happened that and everything and everybody has changed. I've been given the chance once again to start over. Sitting out this semester has probably been one of the best things for me. If I had stayed up at ISU I would still be living in the past, fumbling the present. I wasn't even in the right state of mind last semester, I blew most of my classes. I don't know for sure what put me in this mood. I watched Pearl Harbor finally tonight. Seeing what happened 40 years ago, wondering what would of happened if we had knew before hand. I guess started me thinking on how fast things can change and go from peaceful to hell. Ha, ha maybe I just need to get myself out of this room and into some sunlight. which I didn't even get to see any today because I slept through it. I think i'm suffering partially from a winter depression following up the last depression I went through doesn't help much either. Thinking about the future, I'm going to be 20 this year. I wonder what the next 10 years will bring and where I'll be at when i'm 30. These next 10 yrs are going to be important in setting up the rest of my future. My job career, my home, and hopefully some other things will probably all be decided here in the next 10yrs. Hahah thinking back at what people thought 2010 was going to be like just kind of makes me laugh. Thinking about my future I wonder what will happen, but I hope for the best, and all things usually work out for the better. But for tonight I need to cash out, the sun will be coming up soon and the night is about over. So tonight I'll go to sleep a little hopeful, but yet still a little lonely from the past gone, and look toward the future, tomorrow.
March 18th, 2003
10:57 p.m.
Wow I can't believe time has flown by this fast. It's been just over a year now since my previous entry which up until tonight I had not read since that night i wrote it. A lot, a hell of a lot has happened since then. First and foremost, I'm here, I'm living now in Orlando, Florida. My dreams have come and after all those years of waiting it's finally come true. I've been down here for about 2 weeks now in my apartment. I am absolutely in heaven down here. It's the middle of the night right now and it's 71*. What could be better than this. I've been at my new job Bennigan's now for about a week. They've started me out as a cook. Which is fine with me. It's like Garfield's was except ten times better. All the things I ever complained about that we needed to fix or needed to do, they already have it done. A/C over the line, it's the best thing ever. I've got about a month now till my roomate is supposed to move in, hopefully all will go well with that deal. I'm hoping by summertime to get me a bike. a Kawasaki Ninja ZX-9R to be exact. I can't wait, just gotta save up a deposit to put down on it and it's mine. Yania is still doing fine, although poor Ralph passed on about 2 months ago. It was so sad to lose him, and Yania is lonley now a lot but i think she likes running around the new apt, and i know she's adjusting fine. Hmm nothing much else new to report on, but now that i have fast internet, finally got a cable modem, I'll be able to update my website all the time. Until next time, Peace out!
March 23rd, 2003
11:45 p.m.
Well Let's see I need to catch you all up on a bit of history that went down. I awoke on Thursday morning the 18th around 7 or so. I had to be at work by 8, so I did my morning routine. As I was checking my email, I glanced out the window like I normally do. To find what appeared to look like my window was rolled down. Knowing that I didn't leave my window down, I grabbed my pants and ran downstairs. Arriving at my door I found a scene of horror to me. My door was partly ajar and my window was lying off to the side where it had been ripped out. first thing i noticed was that my subs had been tore up the cones had been cut out on them. My two amps were no longer where they had been between my seats, and my cd player was missing from the dash. Freaking out I pulled out my phone and called 911 as I started talking to the lady on the other end I surveyed the area and saw a cop car about a 100 ft away so I started walking towards him. As I got to where he was I figured out they already had called the cops to the area, so talking to the 911 lady was pointless. After telling the cop my stuff had been jacked, I looked over and saw my amps and cd player in a pile off to the side. After hearing the story from the cop I found out that 3 guys or so decided to break into my car around 5 in the morning. The neighbors upon getting ready to depart for work saw what was going on and phoned the police. I'm still not for sure what exactly happened after that point, but from what I heard the police showed up while they were still there. I know one of them tried to run a cop over and the cops started shooting at them. I know the guys stealing my stuff had guns but I don't know for sure if they were shooting back. However, as they were all fleeing the scene they managed to drop everything they had taken. I had to call into work that day, I told them I would try to make it in as soon as I could, but that wasn't going to happen. I spent the next 4 hours or so waiting on the CSI people to arrive in order to fingerprint everything on my car. They had to take my prints to mark out my own fingerprints that they probably would find. After they left, I noticed a bit more of the full extent of what happened. After my window was busted out most likely it set off my alarm. They popped my hood I know and cut the wires on my battery. Since i have a battery backup siren that automatically would of set it off. They next probably tried to pull the wires from my alarm, which they bent up trying. Finally they ended up just ripping out my siren completely, and I never have found it yet. I know they came prepared and it was a specific target on my car. They had a cordless drill, wire cutters, and various other things. I'm just glad I have neighbors I can rely on. The next thing I had to do was rehook everything back up in my car so it would be drivable again. I had to get a new window installed which cost me $200 to do. I'll have to get a new siren for my alarm and resituate stuff dealing with the alarm system. All in all rough estimates add up that they did well over $4000 worth of damage. I'm still waiting to find out if they have captured the guys or any more news on the subject. If they do catch the guys I very much intend on prosecuting to the full extent that I can. So for now I'm taking out the box in my car and putting the upholstered seats I did back in. I'm glad I kept those now and didn't get rid of them. Haha now other than that I've been having a great time down here. I've already made a lot of new friends from my restaurant that I work at "Bennigan's". Oh and for odd coincedences, I found out yesterday that my sister who just recently moved to Nashville, TN their whole apt. complex got hit and their car got busted into and their cd player and cd's got stolen. The whole situation there is just stupid because their cd player wasn't worth that much. The thieves probably made off with about $70 worth of goods, but they caused over $200 because of the broken window and the fact they tore up their dash. It's a crazy world out there. I just can't believe that there are assholes out their that have no respect for other people's property, Now I know i'm not a perfect angel either, but I never stole from an individual, I have stolen from companies, but that's a different issue. To steal something from someone that put a whole lot of time and effort into putting something together and worked hard to achieve what they have is inhuman. People like that are the scum of the Earth and deserve whatever troubles and hardships befall them because of their actions. Quote of the day, "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you."
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March 27th, 2003
1:22p.m.
Hello all. Yesterday was the perfect day down here. My day started off by waking up at 9:30 and heading to the beach with some friends. Although we didn't actually leave town and get to Cocoa Beach until about 12 I think, we still had a great time. It was just a lazy afternoon listening to the surf. After we left the beach we all headed back to Orlando, and basically for the next few hours we all went home and chilled. At 9 I left and met up over at my friend Lindsey's house where every one else was meeting up to head to Howl at the Moon, which is an awesome piano bar. We all went there for Tessie, and Tiffany's B-day's that were both on the same day, yesterday. Now first off I'm still not sure how I managed to sneak through the door as 21 since I just used my regular I.d., but oh well it's not like I drink anyway. And even though they couldn't play my request of "Take me home tonight" I still had a great time. I ended up not getting home till about 3:30a.m. and just passed out when I got home. Well that's the basic's to last night's story, so I'll stop writing for now. Later.
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