A Collection of Poetry

SPECIAL

TINY

A beautiful summer's flower
Perfect in the world's eye
For everything the world rejoices
I can't help but sob and cry

While the world just fidgits on appearance
I look deep down inside
The world's a nonstop party
But I still stop and sigh

The world does not care
If you lie or cheat or steal
It's all part of it's system
Live a life full of zeal

The chant of the world
Live life just for the moment
Just forget the big picture
Then in the end life is spent

Nothing accomplished
Nothing gained
Just a lifelong party
All spent in vain

The thing that made me cry
The small thing I saw
The one thing that broke my heart
Was a single tiny flaw

One loose thread
Is all I need shown
I will not put my heart at risk
For it will turn into a hole

I compromise and I trust
Everytime i try to find perfection
But alas it ends the same
Always in deception

OPTOMISTIC

Untitled
What Is Love?
Is it but a feeling of the flesh?
A feeling of the moment?
What does it mean more or less?

Is it something looked upon as good?
Is it looked upon as only causing trouble?
Does it's meaning vary from place to place?
Or is it really unknown, waiting to be discovered?

Now what I ask may confuse you
Maybe Love differs from you and me
You might Love more or less
What if we all have been decieved

I guess what I ask no one knows
But in my Heart I truly believe
The True meaning of Love
Is the Love shared between you and me

"Torn"

Standing by a fork in the road
I really don't know which way to go
It's a big decision that will change my life
I want to make sure I'm right

No directions no stickers no signs
I have to make the decision this time
It's not a decision I want to make quick
Once wrong it can never be fixed

"Gifts"

I look and see it all
This I like to think is my call
It's my way to express
My feelings I repress
It makes me feel I am my all

"Night's Find"

Walking in the mid summers night
I stopped, for something was not quite right
bending over I seemed to found
something small just lying on the ground
What I found may seem a joke
but what I found was my hope
The hope that a better day may come
At least a better day to some
There lying on the ground you see
was something set just for me
set there by someone unknown
set there all alone just so
What I found I cannot tell
I believe it wouldn't work quiet as well
The only thing I say is I hope you find
Your hope lying on the ground sometime

"Lies"

A lie you might think is best
It'll just get you in a mess
Ones who tell lies
shouldn't even try
For a person who lies
is no best friend of mine

"Untitled"

In times of sorrow and despair
theres always a wisp of hope in the air
A journey made without haste
surely could not be put to waste
for most you see
there's a better place to be
above and beyond our roaming eyes
past our beatiful night skies
A place that was meant for us
A place ever so right and just
So it doesn't matter where you've gone or been
just where your journey will end
A wonderful place you will live
where you'll never feel sorrow again

"Untitled"

Sitting alone in my memories
friends and family are all around
sadly opening my closed eyes
their nowhere to be found
Lost to a world of insincerety
I miss them ever so dear
They'll never be the way they used to be
The way they showed me they cared
Their intangled in a wordly struggle
It's not something they can see
They've lost their feelings their care
They don't know who they will be
So again I close my eyes
To my world where they always shine
hoping for the day
When once again they will be mine

"If Only"

Caught in a struggle
I don't know if I can win
I'm trying my hardest
She holds so much within

What I wouldn't do
If I could make her see
All the pain and hardships
I've struggled through

I would give the world, my heart, my soul
If only she would promise to me
If only she would not give up hope
She would soon come to know

There's so much more for her
A pre-destined plan
I love her so much
I wish I could make her understand

But until that day comes
I will hold my patience
Not knowing if what I say
will make a difference

I wish I could just take her away
I would calm her every thought and fear
I would make her life the best I could
Maybe the chance will come maybe someday

Day by day I come to love her more
I can see the eternal fire begin to grow
Even if she cannot see it I can see it flare
For her eyes, her soul is what I adore

There's so much more for you
A pre-destined plan
I love you so much
I wish I could just make you understand

"Perspectives"

One's life is all about Perspective
It's all in how you look at your objective
One may struggle forever and a day
Only to give up in the end and cave
But another solves the riddle just like that
Without ever even looking back
The best thing that can be done
Is to try not to become highstrung
To stand back and look at it all
For then I guarantee they will not fall
For the answer can always be seen
It's just all in the way it's percieved

"Deprivation"

Sleep ... ... It's falling over in class
Sleep ... ... Too much and it will never last
Sleep ... ... Too less is never it's best
Sleep ... ... It's wasting time at it's finest
Sleep ... ... Dreams may come, rarely do
Sleep ... ... It's the only time I get to share with you
Sleep ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Sleep ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Sleep ... ... Time to wake up, start anew
Sleep ... ... When to sleep again, I wish I knew
Sleep ... ... I'll put it off until I'm about to fall over dead
Sleep ... ... As I'll slowly drag myself to bed
Sleep ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Sleep ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Sleep ... ... For now, going back to sleepy land I choose
Sleep ... ... It's the only place you'll let me be with you

"What else to do?"

I know now you'll never fully understand
The things I've felt and hoped
It's ok, I understand the way you are
After all I'm only just one man

I see the things I did were wrong
It took me so long to see
The more I tried the farther I pushed you away
I can't choose to have what I long

Emotions strong and trust held high
Indecisiveness was teh killer in me
The stress down on me day after day
I never ever wanted to say goodbye

I write now not to confuse or be mean
I never wanted you to feel pain
Please don't allow this to confuse you more
I only want my feelings to be seen

I understand the things you choose
Not why, but because of the person you are
How can I expect things out of you
Things I myself cannot do

I'll admit there is a chance I still don't see
All of the things you really think
I've tried the best I can to understand
I've been more than my old self could be

A long time back on paper I wrote three
I would let go if they ocurred
Two have come to pass and I still can't let go
It's much too hard for me

If there is no hope then let me go
But if there is then I will stay
If there is no hope don't let me think there is
But if there is don't let it hid and me never know

I can't really say why I care as I do
I really don't understand myself
Never before have I dealt with one as such
I can't explain the love I feel for you

I still hold on to the little things
One's insignificant to others
They say "a fool" and to give up and let go
But I cannot feel the same

I sit and think every day what I could say I fear too much of pushing you farther
It makes it harder and harder everyday

All this time I've been learning to cope
It's hard with the negativity I hear
After everything that has happened to make it worse
I still have not yet given up hope

"The Real Delinquent"

We read in papers and we hear on the air,
of stealing and killing and crime everywhere.
We sigh and we say as we notice the trend,
this young generation, where will it all end.
But can we be sure that its our fault alone,
that maybe most of it is really there own.
Too much money to spend, too much idle time,
too many movies of passion and crime.
To many books not fit to be read,
and to much evil in what we have said.
Too many children encouraged to roam,
by to many parents, who won't stay at home.
Kids don't make the movies, they don't write the books,
they don't paint the evil pictures nor the gangster or crooks
Kids don't make the drugs that idle the brain,
it's all done by older folks greedy for gain.
Thus in many cases, it must be confessed,
this label juvenile delinquency fit old folks best.

PESSIMISTIC

"The Pain"

The pain I feel, No one knows
The pain I feel, I do not show
The pain I feel, It's hard to explain
The pain I feel, It just won't go away
The pain you see, Is not the same
The pain you see, Is different for me
The pain you see, You'll never see true
The pain you see, You can't undo
The pain I feel, You couldn't believe
The pain I feel, I would like to leave

"My Feelings"

Things I feel I can't express
They seem to get lost
I lose them in the mess
I try so hard to see
My eyes are blurry and fuzzy
It's not easy for me
My fellings I repress
I'm losing my hold
The things I say are not to jest
I struggle to hold and stall
I just know I wish
To be free from it all

"A Solemn Plea"

Not knowing what's going on, What I've brought on myself is shame
Not able to make a difference, there is no greater pain

Things that were thought, things that were seen
I thought with a closed mind, my eyes blind as could be

Some things are better left unknown, not to be told
Some things can't be done by you, you alone cannot straighten a curvy road

A harder thing to do, much harder than the above
Is to change what you believe, to admit it's wrong you've done

What will happen and turn out, I guess I cannot know
I'll no longer think it's in my hands, only time can show

I want to be there, but only you can say
I just hope it's not too late, I fear I've thrown it all away

"Problem"

Fucked if I do, Fucked if I don't
No one understands what I've been through
They make their problems seem worse
It's only human nature through and through

To make it a point to make yourself suffer
Isn't living life, but dreading it
Always having to see the worst
Isn't getting ahead one bit

A glass half full, a glass half empty
of course one would say half full
Why can't the see the same in themselves
Why can't they see their vigor slowly filling

They say humans are the only to choose to love
Are we truly better than an animal I ask
Animals always have an instinct of self-respect
Humans choose not to love themselves and their doomed to finish last

"My Own Worst Enemy"

I'm sorry for all that I have done
I did not mean to hurt or upset
I never meant to use, I didn't realize what I was doing
all I've ever wanted was to be loved by one

But I've found that's too much to ask
All I wanted was to finish first
I only wanted somone to mean something
I now know I'm destined to finish no better than last

I guess I only look after myself
I only wanted to care for others
I was wrong for the way I've treated you all
I see now deep inside I need help

I now can see all I've ever wanted to be
My dreams, my hopes, my needs, and wants
From my early childhood to my now so called life
They truly were never really meant to be experienced by me

"Course of Nature"

A walk on a sunny summer afternoon
It's all the little things I learned to see
All of the beauty most don't notice
I see it's getting late, I must soon leave

I stop and look once again all around
The luscious roses, the flowing trees
The soft earth, the fiery sun, full of nature
I stop silent fearing to make a sound

With one last glance quickly about
I try to take in every bit I can
my spirit bursting with virility
As if it would all rush out in one loud shout

I turn and begin my journey once again
I never can stay for very long
For if I did things would soon change
Things will happen that even I can't mend

The luscious roses so unique
They are as fragile as can be
They wilt so easily
They are only the best at their short peak

The flowing trees waving in the breeze
So peaceful and calm
They become dead and lifeless
With the turn of the seasons as everyone sees

The soft earth alive under foot
From it gorws all kinds of beauties
It always grows cold and hard
It possesses no life of any sort

The fiery sun ablaze in glory
Radiating over all so majestic
One day will burn out and fade
I will now come to the point of my story

All of beautiful natur
The beauty I thought I had seen
all of it fades, decays, and dies
Just shortly after they mature

Our love I thought we had acquired
I tried so hard to keep it beautiful
But you let nature take it's course
And now the love I once had for you, has expired


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