You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that maybe those firends that you thought you were soclose to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met; and the people that you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are just as confused as you are. You look at your job...and it's not even close to what you thought you would be doing. Or maybe you're looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and you find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boudaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly the change is the enemy and you try to cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing you can do. Stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want tot get to know better. or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and you can't figure out why you are doing this because you know that you're not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook-ups are starting to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you can't seem to make a decision.

You worry about money, loans the future and making a life for yourself; and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

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