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Disclaimer: I have
no claim on anything of Disney’s, Jerry Bruckheimer’s, or Gore
Verbinski’s. I very, very, VERY
tragically have no claim whatsoever on Orlando Bloom. I can only claim my own mind, such as it is,
any characters I create, and my Will Turner muse, who is working overtime,
giving me Pirates fic ideas. I am a
state employee who once again this year, like other state employees, did not
get a raise, even though the cost of living keeps spiraling upwards. In other words, please don’t sue, I have no
money. October 2003. Author’s Notes: One of
my muses, either one of the elven harem, Norrington, Jack Sparrow, my Will
Turner muse, or somebody new who hasn’t introduced themselves properly yet, hit
me with this one this morning at work. I
hope everyone will enjoy this little one-shot.
As always, when using power tools, please remember to wear safety
glasses, and for the love of Pete, don’t be pettin’ the cursed monkey! He still bites!! PS: Special
thanks to Gamine. As ever, you’re there
when I need a friendly ear, a careful eye, and an all-around good giggle. Thank you ever so much, my friend. TO SEE YOU AGAIN BY KAHVA I
can see you. At last, I can see you
again. I
never thought I would see this day.
Never in a thousand years. I
didn’t dare to hope for it. I
never knew pain could be so sweet… I’ll
treasure this precious pain, the mere sight of you, for the rest of my life,
for however long the Almighty sees fit to let me stay here on this Earth. Ye
gods, but you’re beautiful. You’re just
as beautiful as the last day I saw you, if not more so. Handsome, gorgeous, beautiful… You are such a lovely balm for these tired
eyes. I don’t have the words to fully
express how I feel, seeing you like this today.
It is not because of my education, or a lack of it. It
is because words are simply not enough.
Oh, my dear one… Do
you know that I would have made a pact with the Devil himself, and with the
Almighty at the same time, if I thought it would have changed a single
thing? If I thought it would have
brought our lives together any sooner? If
I thought it would change the past? If
I thought it would spare us both all the pain? Nay,
I would not spare myself any of the pain…
Not if my suffering meant that you would never have had to have borne a
single second of strife. I love you that
much. I
always have. I always will. Though it may tear my heart in two, I’ll love
you this much and more, forever. Love… It is why I do not try to spare myself any
pain now, nor will I ever. This is your
wedding day, and I shall not interfere.
If my pain is the price to be paid to insure your happiness and peace,
then so be it. I’ll pay the price now,
tomorrow, next week, month, year – I’ll gladly suffer this ache for all
eternity, I swear it. Just
so long as you are happy, and loved. It
is the ransom I joyfully pay this day, and will do so without reservation
forever… Because
today, I can see you again. It
is enough. To see you again today is
enough. Because taking your love to be
yours for all time is enough for you.
Because that is all you have
ever wanted. It
is enough for me for that simple reason, no matter how much it tears my heart
apart to see you in another’s arms, to see their lips caress your soft
skin… My hand remembers what it was like
to touch you... I can still feel your
hand in mine, I can hear your laughter skipping merrily along in the wind,
chasing the breeze in a cheery little race, not caring who won or lost. I
can remember your smile. Brilliant as
the sun, warm as a summer’s day, gentle as a spring breeze… You will never know that you have been my
light in the darkest of nights, when all that didn’t seem lost, truly was lost. When
I was lost… You
will never know, because I will not interfere in your life. I have caused you too much pain as it
is. I will not ransom your happiness
just to soothe the deep wound to my soul.
Oh, my dear one… I want to hold
you so much, it hurts! God, but it
hurts, like a sword driven through my heart!
I can feel you in my arms, I remember what it was like to hold you, hug
you, comfort you, to make you happy – I want to do it so much again! But
I can’t. Not if you are to be happy. This
is my sacrifice. You
are both coming out of the church now.
Husband and wife… such a handsome pair you are. The love you share flows freely, and even
from this short distance I keep, I feel as though I am right there at the mouth
of your river, and I long to drown myself in your joy. I
covet the love you two will share. Fair
and lovely woman, bound to noble and handsome young man not by rings, money or
title, but by one of the purest forms of love and devotion known to man. I
will not tear such a priceless gift asunder by my presence. I must leave – I
can’t. Something
holds me fast, I can’t move! Oh sweet
lord, it is your eyes. Those eyes… You
have seen me. This is not how it was
meant to be! My
heart is shattering; you are calling out to me… please don’t, I don’t know if I
can withstand what words you may speak to me!
My heart is hurting enough, please do not make it bleed anymore! I have no more blood to give! I beg you, please! What
is this? I am bound, just as before,
helpless to free myself. Not again! Please, Lord, if you have any mercy, do not
do this… Tears? Oh my dear one, are you weeping for me? Do I dare to hope that you could still love
me, even now? The one prayer, the one
hope I saved for myself, but dared not breathe – has it been answered? I longed to see you again, this one last
time, but that is all I asked for from the Almighty, have I been granted a
second chance to be what I never thought I would ever get the chance to be? Have
I fallen into your arms, or you into mine?
Sweet heavens, have you said… Do
you… Oh
sweet Lord… After all this time, you
still love me. You still want me in your
life. Thank you Jesus… Thank you Lord for sparing me from a damned
life, and giving me this one last chance at a new beginning. Thank you for gifting me with love. I don’t deserve it, but thank you. Thank
you, my dear, sweet William. I love you
too. I thought never to be able to say
those words to you ever again, but I say them now, and I’ll say them every day
until I draw my last breath. I
love you, Will… and I’ll never leave you, or your new family alone, never
again. The
sea shall never tear this father away from his child ever again. Never
again.
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