i am self empowered
i am not what they told you
i am kindred to the devil
before i am brother with god
in reality i am neither
you will see me
for a second
before i am gone
one second
try and look as you might
you will never understand me
i am a hybrid
i am ancient and infantile
my numbers grow
my body was born
my mind was created
evolving forever in intensity
when will the fire stop
when only the fire is left
FORGOTTEN MIRRORS
staring at myself
for hours
watching my life
fade away
could i change myself
another day?
the same person
staring back
watching his life
become real
could i see my life
another place?
we are one
different still
watching this life
implode itself
could i understand
another face?
THE FLIGHT
well this is it
my blood boils
my heart toils in this
unadulterated loss
so far away for us now
nothing ever seemed so real
until it dissapeared
i soar like the eagle
glimpsing a different dimension
touching another reality
its been such along time now
since your suttleties
crept into my mouth
and opened all uncertainties
ive cried for the last time now
inside this world of fear
only you left for me now
explain to me i cant hear you now
where have you gone
and someday this will all seem so petty
once the skys have closed to me
FALSE SERENITY
eyes diverted from divine conclusion
a strangle hold on comprehension
forced to digest this harsh reality
the children haven't swallowed everything
their hands chopped off
hearing deafened by the screams
defecating on our mother
this wasn't meant to be
maybe if we had our ears now
and hadn't killed this tree
our father wants us gone now
beginning with our reality
so we march blindly to our stars
devoid of serenity
NOTED CORRECTION
drugs correct us
correct me
the three of us
we alter
together we
alter
together
we stare at the stars
together
we hold hands
alone
i cry for us
for we will never know who we are
drugs correct us
correct me
the walls breathe
do i breathe?
i stand alone
in the hall
will it swallow me?
could you swallow me?
together
we die
.........holding hands
SUNSCREAM
do you remember
in cold december
dreaming of touching the sun
on a hot summer day
when all the kids played
seeming to touch the sun
lying on your death bed
thinking what you never said
screaming to touch the sun
THE BLIND SHADOW
black clouds of smoke
billow from the ground
a dark crevice
out climbs a man
he stands before me
he is everything
he stinks of power
he reeks of neglect
i have awoken him
from deep within myself
he is my violence
he is my lust
nobody loves him
nobody understands
he is the child
whos name was forgotten
the fallen one
cast from the heavens
he is not as he apears
i will never forget him
PURPOSEFUL
this mind rots
with unbegotten glory
this child here
reeks of another story
another person would be better
another disconnected letter
but im far away
from the place i stay
body of a child
mind always wild
adored by his brethren
ignored by the children
if they could realize
he touches with his eyes
another internal war
what is it all for
NIEEM (N-EYE-EEEM)
i found pieces of you
laying under the sand
i wish i didnt see this
its been such a long time
i knew you once
i stink of your soul
i wish i couldnt feel this
i almost didnt remember
we were great
touching the stars
i wished i hadnt said this
so hard to feel this
everything has to end
playing in the sand
im glad i said this
impossible to forget
THE BEAST INSIDE
the knowledge flows from me
like cells from a wound
this thirst is the beast
in your eyes
the importance seeps from me
like tears from a willow
this emptyness is the beast
in my eyes
the truth secretes from me
like seed from your womb
fulfilled i am the beast
in most eyes at least
WISHING CLOCK
staring into this well
unknowing of my life
watching the hands of time
tick backwards in the mirror
such a shallow reflection
such a exquisit happenstance
that i should be here
in this vision of myself
guidence provided by angels
disrupted by shimmers
of ethereal light
perhaps i should listen
for it has much to say
about this existence
of pettiness and unfounded glory
revelling in these hands
of time
MINE GLORY
so this is it
my mind cospires against me
works to turn my blood to oil
something inside of it
from this fire inside
my thoughts are drenched
with this will to live
in this splendid requim
i have come far
in this subtle jouney
into my innocence
the longing the desire
to touch something else
to feel this false realty
to breathe knowledge
like a demi-god
in my uncorruptleable
desire to live
MY DESTRUCTION (mind fuck)
she stared at me
or just a passing gaze
i slipped into a dark trance
filled with dreams of lies
she could be so right though
in her quest for synchronization
however if she wasnt for a second
i would awaken and destroy her
so her perfection mounted
a wall of souls
sins of dicipline
a mind made of liquid stone
i stepped in time with her
unable to conquer her light
i fell into my shadow
searching for my equinox of truth
how could she have grown so quickly
it had only been 3 days
since she had escaped from my lover
if only my mastery would prevail
against this nubile vengience
alas my blood runs thick in her heart
stronger than my own
my allegiance gained with her deathblow
she will teach another
ELIPSICAL DREAM
it is natural to cry in the darkness
but crying in the light lets you see yourself
as you are
when you really believe
dont underestimate
how wrong you are
harder to touch truth
than anything at all
wonder why you are
born to screech to a hault
to touch nothing
everything is what you are