My Journal

This is where I put the rantings from everyday life. I now have it all organized like it was on my friend Jenny's page, hurray to me! Click here to go back to the main page.

June July August September October November December January February March April May Summer September Oct. & Nov. December January February 2 9 10 13 16 26 28 2003

Journal moved here. Apologies for long silences, the crappiness of this webpage, etc.

September 9th, 2004. Just checking in to keep my account alive. I really ought to do some major repair work soon. Hmm.

February 2nd. Really need to reorganize this stuff. Maybe in a month when I get back to the U.S. Also need to add pictures. Eventually.
Currently have a cold, and still a lot of work to do this week before classes end. No appetite, feeling listless, lightheaded, that sort of thing. Then on Sunday I go off to Shimane prefecture on the Japan sea where it is cold, unpopulated and there is no internet. Or there might be, but no broadband that I can hook up to and use any time I want, and no internet cafes that I could use. I am sad. And sick. I go now. Will post again in March.

January. Still in Japan. Might update at some point. Might change things a bit. Not likely though, but keep checking.

So yes, it's December. The 19th, in fact, almost Christmas. And no, I haven't updated or renovated or anything and really, have no plans to any time soon (and by that I mean not until Christmas break), since I have two other webpages to update now as well. So patience, little ones.

Monday, November 24th.
Host mom still in Rome. Still barely see host dad, but making a small attempt to talk to him when we are in the same room at the same time. Having fun. Updated the old x-mas list.
Mmmm, U2...

Thursday, November 20th. 28:08. There are worse ways to wake up than by alarm clock.
Just had a dream that the U.S. had been bombed by North Korea. It was by far the worst dream I have ever, ever had.
Thank each and every single higher power that my dreams have never been prophetic. I hope this is still true.

Wednesday, November 19th.
Wow, TWO updates in November! Too bad the page still says it's February... sad. Japan is still good, working on putting up a page for pictures and my craptacular journal. That will be its own new page, so that it can be accessed by people I don't want to see this (for nonsensical reasons), but when I do put it up there will be a link. For now, admire the suckiness of these pictures in their raw cell-phone form.

Monday, November 10th
On a sidenote, if you go to Yahoo Japan`s website, the girl in the red shirt promoting Yahoo BB goes to Waseda (where I study here).

Wednesday, October 29th

Good heavens and gracious me. Steve McMullen is engaged.

Wednesday, September 16th. I think.
16:23 Tokyo time. Having fun. People here very nice, and always something fun to do. Food is... interesting. Getting sick of Japanese sweets- too sugary. Wow. That sounded weird, coming from me. One more day of language classes, yay! Wish I was wired though. Have already written 20 pages in my journal, and it`s even a little patchy in places. Plenty of time to work on that soon though. For now though, have fun things to do. A bientot!

Monday, September 14th.
Need to tag this. Anyway... In Japan. Food is... interesting. Not as much raw fish as I thought there would be, but more total seafood than I was expecting. People are very nice though, esp. all the people on the program. Find out host families this weekend. Hope I can get real wiring soon.

Wednesday, September 3rd
13:50 Woaaah... I should have updated way more often this summer. Not that I had much to say- I worked my way through a half a dozen (old) computer games, slept until 2 or 3 each day and stayed up until 2 or 3 each night, and read a couple of books. I also got contacts in August, went to the State Fair once, got a haircut (shoulder length) and went shopping twice. Went to a Twins game after having had a picnic with Allen, Jenny and Yiling, where we smashed a watermelon open and ate the innards. That was a great day. And I took a visit up to LU for a few days, managed to see most of the people I wanted to, even if I only saw one or two of them for a few minutes. But mostly, that's all I did. It was a good summer.

5 days until I leave for Japan.

Sunday, July 13th
25:26 Hmm. At present, the oldest post on this page is from March 2nd. I think it's time to move things around, just kinda. I also plan to update my movie reviews/ratings, but unfortunately I have no drive to do anything but play computer solitaire. Oh well, at least it's Spider Solitaire. That has some redeeming value, right? All right, I admit it, even that kind has no worthwhile value whatsoever. Sigh. But tomorrow there's a new Strong Bad e-mail on Sunday, June 22nd
24:42 Just got back from The Italian Job with my little brother. It was a cool movie. The kind of movie that can make a car look cool that never should ever be anything but the butt of jokes. That's right, this movie makes the Mini look cool.

In other news, I saw my grades from LU. Decidedly mediocre, and I'm a little concerned about the Japan Study program. Sigh...

Wednesday, June 11th
20:17 Well, that's it. I am officially done at Lawrence for the year. Most of the people that I am close to I will likely never see again (which may indicate how truly close to them I am). C'est tres triste. But it is also nice to be done, and the summer (and perhaps a little break from learning, at least, if not studying) awaits. Then, to Tokyo in the fall. Exciting, ne? But of course I shall never fully abandon you, net-world. I miss Michelle and Stacy already, though.

Monday, June 2nd
20:12 OUCH. OW. Ow. I think I am still in pain. Probably shock too. I just got an e-mail from my Japanese professor saying my work was so bad she couldn't even read it anymore. She also said that I'm either lazy or suck at Japanese. Either way, she regrets nominating me for the Waseda program, and is going to write a cautionary letter to Waseda saying that I'm one of the worst students in the program at LU and not representative of her teaching. I don't know if she's worried about losing face/endangering other students' chances, or if I really am that terrible. The sad thing is, I thought the draft I submitted to her was ok... This really sucks. So now I have one, maybe two days to get it checked over by as many people as I can, and then get to resubmit it and hopefully it will be ok. This is awfully depressing. Sigh.

Friday, May 30th
It's official, I am now 20. That was a big jump, and mentally I feel rather old. Ack. But as for physically, I don't feel a day over... well 19. I feel as though I ought to be a little more mature, though. Not that I will, of course, it's just that now I feel like I ought.

In other news, I found my sister Kate's LiveJournal, including links to the embarassing slasher fic that she never wanted me to read until she was far far away from me where I couldn't laugh at her. So she convinced me to start my own, just so she could get into flame wars with me. I have. It's at www.livejounal.com/~goldelf. Enjoy.

Wednesday, May 28th
12:37 I got my first-ever wedding invitation!!! It feels kinda weird, but then, I've only known the couple in question as an (engaged) couple so it also isn't unexpected, but it still seems strange that two people my age are getting married.

On a side note, I turn 20 tomorrow.

Thursday, May 1st
23:47 Today was... wow. So class and stuff was nothing much, although Sandi did come to lunch with us so now she's eligible for a bid, yay Sandi. Also sold flowers for May Day, and Theta made a decent amount for our charity. Woohoo. But the big thing happened this evening...

So we had sort of been planning this for about a month, and really I mean planning to DO this, because there was no planning involved. Although that's somewhat what this is supposed to be about. Lack of planning, communication, coordination, completion... but it's fun. So anyway, we got our victims and had the Marshal lead them to... well, somewhere. It sort of just happened. And then (s)he left, which was very kind of them, and I gave a little speech and then the founder/president gave a little speech about how it came to be, and then we (the currents) declared it to be the best induction ever, because it was so unplanned. I hope next year's goes as well as this one did. Then we had cake.

Thursday, April 24th
26:13 Soooo sleepy. Went to class and took a Kanji quiz, then took a chapter test in Japanese, then went straight to music theory (and took a quiz), then had a few minutes to run to my room and grab some lunch, then took my econ midterm. Packed and waited an hour for my sister, then had dinner and left, spending 6 hours in the car. Tomorrow I get to spend another 4-5 in said car. Funfun. So I'm just a little tired. Nightnight, net-world.

Sunday, April 13th
13:25 "You canna' change the laws of physics"
I can. It is part of what I do, or (if one can make the distinction) who I am. It is fun, but not as much fun as you would think.taken from http://www.livejournal.com/users/crackle (Crackle's LiveJournal)

Saturday, April 12th
22:55 You gotta know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em....
Just got done playing in the Plantz Hall poker tournament. 8th of 12- not too bad.

Friday, April 11th
22:55 Vendredi soir, et je ne fais rien. Le sigh.

Thursday, April 10th
19:00 Am sad. Again. And again, it was my own fault. Sigh. Have (once again) said things I shouldn't have. I think I just have no idea how to behave in society. At all. Perhaps I should distance myself from all of humanity. At least then one of us would be happy (humanity, I mean, not me. I would still be sad.)

Tuesday, April 8th
WOW 24:39 Ben Folds gave a concert at LU tonight. Wow. It was a blast. The cover band was amusing, and then Ben came on and... wow. The music was decent at the start, just music and all, but nice. The same great stuff that's on his albums, but, well... the same. Then he started talking about his experiences with music school and how since he was dyslexic he couldn't necessarily READ the music, but he could play it better than anyone else there. Then he played bits from his first recital when he was nine, only jazzed up, and played some songs he's working on and then the rest and it was just... wow. It was really fun from that point on. Wow.

Monday, April 7th
22:38 What sucks about being upset but not distraught is that it's not enough to cry about, but it's enough to severely distress you. What sucks about being upset over things that should never have happened in the first place is that it's one's own fault that they're distressed, which makes it suck even more. Still not enough to cry about, though.

Friday, March 28th
23:11 Man, that Julia... what a bitch.

Wednesday, March 26th
Happy Birthday, Vicki and Whitney! 20:21 So I figure, ten days later, I should update. No longer sick (it was after all 10 days ago). Took finals, none of which went all that well except for anthro. That took half an hour. Now on spring break. Is fun.

Sunday, March 16th
16:16 Being sick sucks. But minty gum seems to be helping a little. Can't sleep, though. Formal was really fun. More fun than I bet prom would have been. Wish I could fall asleep. Think I'll go home for spring break. Have to clear it with Grace first though. Really don't think Dad will have a problem with it. Wonder if I'll ever get married. WSS. All for now.

Thursday, March 13th
9:57 Optabo? Funny how something so seemingly insignificant can cause so many potential problems. I was asked one little question, and it kept me up for an hour last night thinking about all the ramifications of both the question and possible replies. And it doesn't even seem like that daunting of a question- "Where were you six months ago?"- and yet it has made me reconsider almost EVERYTHING, and mostly in good ways. But at the same time, it's dangerous...

In other news, I had soo much fun last night! I had a sleepover at my friend Alison's room, my first sleepover at LU. I've had other opportunities before, but everyone ended up leaving those slumber parties before any slumbering took place. This time it was just myself and Alison, not really at a slumber party, just... a sleepover. But we did watch a movie, and had cookies. So it was a fun, not-for-the-sole-purpose-of-sleep over. And in the morning she and I went to breakfast and I had chocolate chip pancakes. Yay!

Monday, March 10th
22:16 So I watched four and a half episodes of Queer As Folk today. It's bizarrely addicting, even when I can't make myself watch a good ten minutes of the show. But these are like 45 minute long episods, so I've gotten NOOOO work done so far. We had pizza at the house (Julia and I), and then I cleaned a few dishes to avoid getting sucked in to another episode so I could get to Luke's recital by 8. Which brings me to the main purpose of my entry.

Luke Fisher had his senior guitar recital tonight. It was amazing. It started with him playing classical guitar, which he did extremely well. It sounds (and looks) so complicated, and yet is so beautiful... but still, I admire anyone who has the motor skills to pull that off. There was a short intermission, and then he came back and played an electric guitar piece with piano, using an electric bow. It was almost ethereal in its beauty, and so simple and elegant... I don't know that I've heard anything that beautiful since I heard a recording of Horowitz. Then he did a piece based on an Indian Raga with alto sax, that was incredible and amazing in a totally different way. He ended with a jazz combo number, so I got to hear four different styles of music in one recital. It was like a full concert, really. It was, as Ann would say, "really great". (In fact, I saw her afterwards and she did describe it as "Really great. Really, really great.")

24:25 Je n'ais pas une petite soeur. (Mais j'ais toujours Martha, et je l'aime.) Mais, il est de moi, egale. Tout est bon avec le monde, toujours. Ca, c'est bon.

Sunday, March 9th
Apparently until tonight I hadn't yet told one of my best friends from high school, who I have known since 5th grade, that I joined a sorority LAST SPRING. I've seen her at least twice since then, and spoken to her many many many times. And yet, somehow I just assumed that I had told her, or assumed that she knew or something... I don't know. But somehow I didn't, and I feel really bad. But speaking of sororities...

So last night was Theta formal. I went with Luke Beckman, and had a lot of fun. But I also had several really embarassing moments, and I don't know why I wasn't more upset by it all. Maybe because I was around so many Thetas, and nothing phases me as long as they're involved. I love my sisters.

Anyway, embarassing things. I was wearing this dress, which as you can see is slit up to mid-thigh. On both sides. So whenever I sat down, one male or the other got an eyeful of thigh. I opted to give the boy on my other side that glimpse every time, instead of Luke. Probably just because I feel a little nervous around Luke and want to seem nice and sensible and don't care how I act around this other boy. So that was embarassing moment #1. Embarassing thing #2 was that if I lifted my arms too fast or too far, the little tiny snaps would strain, and halfway through the night one of them pulled off, so that my dress was partially open. Fortunately it was not in an awful way, but when I went to the bathroom to pin it anyway, I had to take my dress half off, at which point I noticed embarassing thing #3. My dress bleeds. My sides from my armpits to my waist were GREEN. Oh dear. Since no one could see it I figured I would shower later and it would be no big deal. (It wasn't- it washed right off.) Later in the night, embarassment #4 occured. I was bending over to adjust my shoe, and the slit rode up and back, enough so that two of my sisters got an eyeful of my ass, my lovely round, unconcealed by underwear ass. Oh dear... So that was my excitement of the night. Well, it was all exciting and fun, and it was really nice and I had a great time. But there were just a few embarassing moments. Sigh.

Sunday, March 2nd
17:15 So I haven't updated in a while. Thought I should. Doing Theta stuff is always fun. I love how I seem to be the only person completely okay with everything. It's so nice to be innocent.

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