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I Feel So
by Vanessa S. Quest

Jonny Quest, an 11-year-old boy with golden blond hair usually full of bounce
and life, sits alone sorrowful and contemplating along the cliffs as a black
Mercedes-Benz pulls up the driveway. The sky is surprisingly bright for the
March day, the sky full of birds, singing their songbird tunes. Jonny, the
contrast to the scene, his black shirt and faded black jeans, along with a
soft black overcoat for the supposed rain forecast left a very morbid vision.

Inside the car, sat a girl with a red ponytail, in a cream colored sun dress,
Jessie Bannon, a 12 year old with large green eyes put her hands against the
glass as she encroached her new home, eyes growing ever larger.

...Sometimes
I wish I was brave…

She looked back at the stranger in red in front of her, her father.

I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain

He drove silently to the security grid, punching in the access code. "We're
home Jessie."

I wish I was young

Jonny turned his head and waited for the monster to veer its head from the
car, the beast that would consume Race, and steal him from Jonny.

I wish I would try

The girl took her small leather bag and left her two larger ones for her
father, exiting the car. "Welcome to your new home, Jessie."

"Thanks daddy." She looked down the yard, towards the cliff and straight at
Jonny.

I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again…

Jonny slid up from his seated position at the cliff's edge and walked inside
after making eye contact with the beast.

I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

He walked into his bedroom, closing the door with a muffled slam. '…Why
doesn't Race like me anymore…?' Jonny asked, dropping on the bed and crying
into his pillow.

…Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are…

"Jess, your room's the last one down the hall, on the left."

I wish I had power
I wish I could leave

The door began to open to Jonny's bedroom, Jonny's eyes shot open as the door
squeaked.

Jessie stood facing him; she entered and closed the door behind her. "Th-this
isn't your room, it's on the other side of the hall, before my room."

I wish I could change the world
For you and me

"I know it's not. I'm Jessie Bannon, let's be friends."

Cause I feel so mad

"The name's Jonny… Jonny Quest, your dad was assigned to protect me when I
was eight."

I feel so angry

"Yeah, my mom told me, a few months ago before she went to a dig in the
hostile territories, just in case."

I feel so callous

"So you're staying for a while?"

So lost, confused again

"Until my mom gets back from the danger-zone in Nicaragua, and then dad wants
split custody."

I feel so cheap

"Well, I'll take you to your room then I guess…"

So used, unfaithful

"Are there any cars I can hotwire here?"

Let's start over
Let's start over

"Only if you can run even faster than my dad, and can take Hadji and me with
you."

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

(song by Boxcar Racer)