(Heal this heart... this soul)
Shell
I hate it here among the shadows
So much draining me of these sorrows
Drowning amongst to many lies
Dreaming of a life that is denied
I hate this path which is my fate
Why am I to be drowned in this hate
Tell me why I am to be alone
Denied the sun... denied to grow
Nothing hurts me more than this life
So much nothing... so much spite
Standing in a room with so many
Yet feel all this loneliness
Let me fade into this nothing I am
Turn your head and snicker at me
Ignore the fact you made me this
Turn around and let me be
Sinking in my depression kills me more
No longer the person you knew before
Gave up on this world and on life
An empty shell remains with spite
-26 May 03
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Lift Me Up
Take away my solitude
Drown all this attitude
I can see you could
I can see you would
Lift me up with your love
Lift me up with your love
Show me how to be strong
Against all of this wrong
Lift me up with your love
Un-necessary pain from my past
Was all I gained, all that last
Show me I have nothing to fear
That my choice with you is clear
Take away all this pain inside
Take away what made me die
I need to know love is good
Show me that I'm misunderstood
Lift me up with your love
-09 Jul 03
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Past
Prowling the shadows of burning desire
Scorching the flesh inside this fire
Glancing reflections staring at me
Seeing a shell of who I should be
Emptiness drowning my remains
Fearing that I'm always to blame
Hiding behind this smiling mask
Struggling to live because of my past
Afraid of what I could have been
Burning in Hell for all of my sins
Hatred for my mortal soul
Fear for a love I'll never know
Standing face to face
Yearning for your taste
I see a man without fear
Myself drowning in tears
Need for a love to help me grow
Hoping that you will show
Show me now before you go
Lift me up from my constant low
-9 Jul 03
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Possess
Close your eyes, try to see
Feel the shadows overtake me
Demons crawling through my soul
severity you'll never even know
Never felt so scared before
Beaten, torn and left so sore
Feel the demon possess you
Feelings inside are so new
Melting inside, starting to sink
Emotionally fading, mind cannot think
Falling within this gruesome conflict
Helpless among my internal verdict
-15 May 03
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