*~*~*~

oh...& on thursday i saw nach's cousin up at the club. we talked 4 a while & he told me he had a crush on me, but that by the time he was gonna do something nach had already beat him 2 it. :( aww..i had a little crush on him too. anyway, we kinda made out a little ;) & he took me home after the club, but since we wanted 2 keep talking & hanging out we went back 2 his place. i ended up passing out there & even though nothing happened i feel super bad. i cant believe i did that.
PERO NO APRENDO.. the next day when he dropped me of (around 4:00) we made plans to meet the next night at "che."

*~*~*~

AAAHHH!!!! i had the worst weekend ever!!!

ok...i only work mon-wed so i party from wednesday on. here's what happened..

wed - after the club my sister got pulled over cause she 4got 2 turn her lights on. good thing she had only had 1-2 drinks. but it gave us a little scare anyway. then i got home & hung out w/ my roommate & some people 4 a while. i stayed up all night talking 2 some guy that was over there. Rudy..i think. :$

thurs- i was hung over & had had no sleep. :( on my way 2 my parents' (in mesquite..about 45min-1hr away)my car overheats. i was in traffic & barely made it to the shoulder in time. a cop pulled over & came up 2 my car & i thought i was gonna get a ticket cause u cant park on some shoulders, but he was nice & told me 2 try 2 start my car & get off the hwy 2 be safer. then i had 2 wait over 2 hours in the heat 4 my dad 2 come get me & try 2 fix the car. :(
***& i called nach 2 see if he could go up there & wait w/ me till my dad came cause i was scared 2 be by myself out there. well, he was mad that i hadnt called him the night be4 (even though i have no obligation 2 him) so..he said NO..that he was busy.
he's such a good friend!!! a$$hole!!!

fri - my friends & i went 2 "che", but 1 of them was under 21 so we had 2 go 2 "stress room." :( i was supposed 2 meet someone there that night. :(
we get 2 "stress" & everything is cool, but when we come out we see that the cars we came in were towed. we got picked up & spent about 3 hours trying 2 get them out.

sat - i went 2 "blue" w/ 4 of my sorority sisters & while they were in the bathroom...some stupid bouncer starts 2 beat the sh*t out of 2 guys (punching, kicking, etc). one was trying 2 block him, but the other was unconscious & bleeding all over the floor. no one did anything..so..i had 2 get between the bouncer & 1 of the guys & i told him i had him & that he would leave. he almost tried 2 hit me & told me 2get out of the F*in way, but F*** THAT!!! he was just being an a$$ cause he could be. the guys' friends never did anything, but they finally got him off the floor & carried him out. shit was crazy!!! after that i just had 2 get f***ed up. :$
& then on the way home 1 of the guys that i'm dating (the guy i was w/ at the club) hits a curb & messes up his tires & rims. so we had 2 call my sis' bro & have him help us change out tires. f*in drama everywhere!!!

my ex (joel) woke me up & asked me if i would marry him this weekend. i was laying there next 2 nach at the moment..so..that was crazie!!! i love joel...he's crazy like that. :) things would be so much easier if i was still in love w/ him. he's such an awesome guy. romantic, caring, thoughtful, etc... :(

*~*~*~

OMG...what is my f*in problem?!?! i did it again. i cant stay away. i wish things would have worked out w/ us, but he has 2 grow the f*** up. i cant stand that he drinks too much...& especially that he does drugs. i think that sh*t is disgusting!!! & w/ his friends...i'm sure he'll never stop. :$
F*** it tho...i'll get over it!

*~*~*~

DAMN!!! i f***ed up!!! this past weekend i spent the night at nacho's. i cant seem 2 stay away from him. i still love his f*in a$$. SH*T!!!
i made it clear that i have no intention of getting back w/ him, buti think he still has some hope.

*~*~*~

i still talk 2 nacho..we're trying 2 be friends...lets see how this worx out. :$

*~*~*~

AUGUST 2005 - i've decided...no more relationships!!! boys r fun 4 a little while, but i'm really not trying 2 give my all 2 anyone else. that sh*t just sux!!!

*~*~*~

i met a really cute boy....OMG...i really like this one...he's f*in hot!!! we made out a little... :) ..oh..yeah!!! :)

*~*~*~

ok...so...i've been meeting these guys lately..i dont know about any of them being keepers, but it's fun just playing the field right now. :)

*~*~*~

OMG...that's what i get 4 dating a guy like nacho. WTF was i thinking!?! all he & his friends care about is money, drinking, & drugs. they dont know sh*t about anything else. STUPID ASS-HOLES!!! Men r all the same...they all suck a$$!!! i wish i was born a freakin lesbian. at least with a girl i'd know a little more what i was getting myself into. B@ST@RDS!!! :P

*~*~*~

Freakin A!!! this is definitely harder than what i thought it would be.i've never dated a guy like nacho. he is the exact opposite of what my "type" has been & i dont know how i'm going to do this. i've always dated preppie, abercrombie & GAP wearing, "white boys." nacho, on the other hand, is an anti-GAP kind of guy. he's all about jerseys & starched jeans...yeah...the "thug" look. egghhh!!! I HATE IT!!!

AUGUST 2004...

we seem to be doing ok so far. i'm not real sure how things r gonna work out cause were just so different. we r seriously on 2 different sides of the spectrum...it's crazy!!!
i'm going on vacation soon. its gonna be a little wierd not talking to nacho cause we either see each other or at least talk every day. aww...i'm gonna miss him. :(
*****mushy sh*t...i know...

JULY...

"nacho" & i are 2gether now. he talked 2 minnie..then i talked 2 minnie...& now eveything is alright--i hope.

OMG...on minnie's birthday we went out 2 dmx to celebrate. her brother & i got a little too drunk & ended up makin out on tha dance floor...it was crazy! she caught us, started b*thchin us out, then left me at the club. aint that a b*tch!?! anyway, i left w/ him & figured she would never want 2 talk 2 me again.
the next day she called me up and asked if i was still gonna go w/ her 2 the club that night 2 celebrate again. i was confused, but i got my dad 2 drop me off at her house annyway.

JUNE...

i've been talking to my roommate's brother ("nacho") a whole lot more than we used to. we used to barely say hi & now it's different. i dunno what's up..

MAY...

my friend minnie & i moved into an apt in denton. its pretty cool!

APRIL...

i finally crossed!!! pledging sucked!!! ..but it did make me realize a lot of things. i dont think joel & i can make this work. i want a real relationship & this whole long distance thing just isnt working 4 me. as much as i love joel i know what i have to do..

MARCH...

joel got sent back to iraq. i havent really been aable to talk 2 him since i started pledging...now i definitely wont be able to at all.

FEBRUARY...

i started pledging C.U.S. OMG...this is honestly the hardest thing i've ever done....ever! mommy!?! :(

JANUARY...

got back from italy late cause i missed my flight & left 2 days later. classes had already started so as soon as i got back i hauled as back to campus. it was already the 3rd day of classes when i got to denton so i was in a hurry & really distracted. :( ...so i got a ticket. aint that a b*tch... DECEMBER...

i'm planning on spending new year's w/ joel in italy. i hope things work out!!!

i had to drop two classes this semester. i was sick for about 2 weeks & i couldnt go to class so i had tons of absences. i spent sum of that time w/ joel (mostly at his mom's house) so it wasnt too bad, but being sick still sux.

NOVEMBER...

joel left on tha 19th... :( i miss my babe!!!

nov. 8th joel n i got all dressed up & decided 2 recreate our 1st date. it was beautiful...& he looked really handsome! he was wearing a nice 3 piece suit...ohh yeah....mmmm... lol

joel n i have seen each other everyday since he's been back...it's been lots of fun!!! i'm still not sure where our relationship is going, but i'm sure we'll figure it out & we'll be ok.

joel got back on the 1st. i was supposed 2 pick him up from the airport, but tha girls n i took a last minuite trip 2 college station & i couldnt. i felt super bad, but there was nothing i could do...i couldnt dissapoint mah girls.