TEARS OF THE INTERNET
Listen carefully, Can you hear it?
It is a soft sound, so muted it is barely noticeable.
At times it even seems to fade away
in the distance-- far, far away.
Until you think it was never there....
But then you hear again,
whisper soft and gentle.
It sometimes takes a while
to figure out just what it is.
To even admit that you hear it.
Bring your ear closer to the computer.
Just a Little closer,still Now you hear it
Now you know it is there.
And you know what it is.
Finally you recognize it.
There simply is no denying the realization.
It is the Sound of people Crying.
The Internet is generally thought of as
a place where people gather for fun,
for information, sometimes just to talk.
Yes, it certainly is that.
People spend hours just getting lost
in its seductive maze
There are wonderous sights to see,
mountains of information to be had
and to be found,
But it is also a place of heartbreak,
a refuge for those souls who daily pour
their hearts out over the keyboard
and onto the screen
There is a lot of human tragedy
to be found among the laughter the jokes,
the shopping, and the games.
One might have to search a bit,
but it is there. Unfortunately, it is there.
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I know it is there because I have found it.
Kindred souls like myself,
who daily must wake up each morning,
and find out that the dream is not real after all.
What Dream? The dream that our pains
have magically disappeared in the night;
that our bodies produced a miracle while we slept.
A miracle that would astound the medical community
and give us back the lives we have lost.
The Idea that maybe we can enjoy one day,
one hour, one minute without the burning,
the gnawing, the stabbing.
Just one day without having to concentrate
on health issues.......
Whre does the pain come from?
Various sources; some unknown.
From shattered bones, from torn nerves,
from deep within our worn and tired bodies.
The pain also comes from our minds;
from knowing that all we have endured-
the tests, the operations, the medications
that alter our minds and our wills-
have come to naught. hearing again and again
the Doctors saying that there nothing more they can do:
that maybe if we traveled 500 miles to see
doctor so and so that perhaps he has the answer.
And deep within, we know that he doesn't.
We know that no one can help us find peace.
No One but Ourselves....
That is what has brought us
together in the first place.
This common bond of pain that we share.
The heartbreaking stories
which tear at the soul, of lives shattered,
marriages destroyed, hopes dashed, pain endured.
We live our ups and downs on the message boards,
chat rooms, mailing lists
of that wonderful invention known as the Internet.
A haven, a place we can go to console each other,
celebrate our victories and
help each other endure our defeats.
A place to find understanding in a world
which does not understand us at all.
How did we find each other?
For each, it is a different story.
Most find their way by accident,
by stumbling across a message posted
in desperation on a part of the Internet
that other people never even know exists.
Suddenly, there is recognition.
Suddenly, there is hope.
Someone understands; someone knows,
And not just one person. MANY....
We hug each other, we cry, we laugh.
We share our deepest thoughts with
people who may live athousand miles away
and whom we may never, ever meet
Faceless strangers who go by strange, cyperspace names.
But it doesn't matter.
Our minds and hearts connect, and that is enough.
Lives have been saved on the Internet.
Those in the depths of despair
have written their sorry message
across the screen tears running down
their faces as the words take form
and carry the cry of desperation across cyberspace.
And someone always answers.
Always.
We are there for each other,
and always will be.
We may not have the answers;
we don't even know what the questions are.
But for a short time,
we can ease one type of pain;
the pain of thinking that
someone is all alone.
So as others play cyber games,
cyber flirt, even go cyber shopping
in cyber malls, we are here
holding each others hands
and trying to make it through
another pain filled,
Disease stricken unending day.
Think of us here, sometimes,
if you will And if you ever feel
the need to join our ranks,
don't be afraid.
We will be here to welcome you.
We are the Tears on the Internet!!!
~~Author:Sherry Messick~~
This is what my Lupie World has on it's
pages.....
- A Personal
Message From Me To
You
- I hope you read this and
enjoy. It
is about why I have done this website
about lupus, our campaign to raise
awareness to lupus and info on if you
would like to join us in raiseing
awareness.
- My Personal
Story
- It was not easy to write but it
was something that I needed to do so I could
start my personal healing process. I hope
you enjoy reading it.
- Poems
Written By Some Great Lupie
Friends
- Here you will find an
index of some great poems pages and
inspiriational pages.
- My Friends
Web Pages And Personal Stories
- I think
everyone should
have a web page! When I wrote my first
web page about my life with lupus
something almost magical happened. I honestly
felt that I had a 1000 lbs. lifted off my
shoulders. It wasn't easy to write and I
cried an ocean of tears but once it was on
the net I felt like I had let my secret out
and I could allow the healing process to
begin.
You will also be able to read personal
stories about people just like you and I. I
am going to compile these stories into a new
storybook so I can send out to the TV Talk
Shows, Newspapers and anyone else that I
have been writing letters to. Please write
your story down and mail it to me, strength
comes in numbers and we need as many stories
as we can to bring awareness. This is my
latest letter
that's out.
- Lupus
Forums
- Here is where you will
find myself and many of my friends
posting messages to each other about all
aspects of Lupus. Posting a simple word
of kindness can mean the world to
someone who is down. We Lupies share a
wealth of information and pass
this information on to our different
Dr.'s.
- Everything
You Ever Wanted To Know About
Lupus
- Ok that is a little tongue
in cheek however if you can't find the
answer to your question on these links
then you haven't read them thoroughly,
As that Cajun cook from Louisiana
says......I GUARANTEE IT!!!!!!!!
LOL.......
- Living
With A Chronic Illness
- I have
found thougths and ideas about living
with any chronic disease. It is a
challenge to try to
live healthy and productive when you are
facing illness.
- Related
Diseases Links
- We all know that
Lupus LOVES company so here are some
links for you to research when your Dr.
tells you that you have something else!
- Joint
Protection
- Prolonged use of
Prednisone
can make our joints and bones brittle so
here
are some tips to remember to help
protect
them.
- Bladder
Problems
- This is some valuable
information to discuss with your Dr.
- Hospital And
Physician
Information
- You have the RIGHT to
ask
questions and get answers from your
hospital
and physicians. This is a guide of some
questions and information you should
know.
- Understanding
Side
Effects of Medications
- Here are
some
questions to ask and information to be
aware
of before you start a new medication
- Medication
Information and Links
- Want to
research
your medication? These are some links to
do
that and some information about commonly
used
meds. in the treatment of Lupus.
- Chemo
Drugs
- Chemo Drugs that are used
in the
treatment of Lupus.
- Postmenopausal
Information
- I was recently told
by my
OBGYN that I have started Menopause. I
find
it amazing how many women with Lupus
have had
hysterectomy's at a very young age!
- Exercise
- Even when you are bedridden or
have
severe Arthrtis you can still benefit
from
exercise.
- Helpful Hints
For
Living With Lupus And FM
- Paraffin
Baths, Cold Fingers and Toes
- Aromatherapy,
Scents, Baths And
Massages
- This is a page to print
out
and keep!!!! It will make you feel
soooo
good :). You may wish to include your
spouse
wink,wink LOL.....
- Letters I
Have Written
- Here are a few of
the letters that I have written. Some
of them have been published. My body may
be broken but my mind isn't and writing
letters is one thing that I can do to
Promote and Support Lupus Awareness.
- Latest
Lupus News
- These are the latest press
releases from the Lupus Foundation Of
America.
- Misc. News
Releases
- A Potpourri Of Different
Lupus Related News Articles
- Spiritual And
Emotional Healing
- Daily food for your
mind, heart and soul.
- Books, T-shirts And
Buttons
-
- Memorial
Pages
- Special Pages For Our Special
Lupie Angels
- Awards I Have Given
For Acts Of
Kindness To Lupies
- This page is
dedicated to anyone who does an act of
kindness by helping someone who has Lupus. We
are in this fight together and I just want to
acknowledge those who have done something
special.
- Awareness
Rings And Awards I have Been Given
-
- Free Stuff By
Mail
- I don't have any idea who
compiled this list but my hat's off to
them!!
- Inspirational Pages
- I get all these wonderful inspirational websites sent to me and it never fails if I go to look for one I can't find it. So I thought I would keep a page of the best ones to share. They are wonderful to read especially if you are feeling a little down.
- Cool
Websites
- Just some neat websites that
I have come across on the web!
- Rattle Those Funny
Bones!!!
- They say laughter is the best
medicine so I'll try and dish up a healthy
dose for you.
If you learn one thing in my almost 2,000 pages on my webpage, I hope it is that this may be a rough rode at times for you but you CAN make it because YOU ARE A HERO.....
There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach inside your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast you fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
THAT A HERO LIES IN YOU
It's a long road
When you face thise world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast you fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
THAT A HERO LIES IN YOU
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be a tomorrow
In Time
You'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast you fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
THAT A HERO LIES IN YOU
Hero by Mariah Carey is also the background music that is being played on this page.
THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO
VISIT MY HOMEPAGE. SADLY I HAVE HAD TO REMOVE MY GUESTBOOK BECAUSE CHELSEA KEEPS REPEATEDLY ANONYMOUSLY FLAMING ME WTH LIES DUE TO JEALOUSY ON HER PART.
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BRAVENET GUESTBOOK RECORDS THE ISP TRACKING NUMBER ON EVERY POST AND DISPITE MINE AND THEIR EFFORTS TO REPORT HER TO HER PROVIDER FOR ABUSE AND FLAMING, FIDNET DID NOT DO ANYTHING TO STOP HER. I HAVE SPENT ALMOST 4 YEARS AND HUNDREDS OF HOURS BUILDING THIS WEBSITE TO HELP MY FELLOW LUPUS SUFFERERS LEARN ABOUT OUR DISEASE, ESPECIALLY NEWLY DX'D PEOPLE, TO ALLOW THE HATEFUL LIES TO CONTINUE TO BE POSTED IN MY GUESTBOOK.
I AM NO LONGER ONLINE AND AVAILABLE TO HELP ANYONE ANYMORE BECAUSE OF THE STRESS I ENDURED BY ALL OF THIS. I HEARTFULLY APOLOGIZE TO MY MANY, MANY FRIENDS WHO I MISS DEEPLY AND I KNOW MOST OF YOU UNDERSTAND AND KNOW THE TRUTH. I HOLD MY HEAD HIGH BECAUSE I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG.
This Candle Burns Bright For Our Sweet
Lupie Angels...........
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