Ever

I feel so utterly alone
no one seems to want to pick up their phone
the tears start to fall
I crawl up into a ball
my mind in a daze
lost inside a maze
things will never be how they used to be
I will never again be the true me
so much pain lays in my heart
and you say this is a new start
why may I ask?
Are you putting me on some kind of task
To find the burry treasure
inside will there be something I will pleasure
It just seems like things will never mend
But when will this all end
will it ever
in my eyes it may never