Loud harsh screams escape into the darkness of the night,
Piercing pains shoot up her back and he holds her
tight,
Bleeding tears run down her sad face,
Her body frail and delicate as a piece of lace,
Eyes pale, distant, and weak,
Fear races in her mind then the pain begins to peak,
Drowning within the nightmare and darkness,
No matter how much she begs the pain is still relentless,
Ebony clouds fill his mind he thinks he is losing
her,
Heartbeat faint, steady, and whispers to him in a soft purr,
Eclipsed eyes,
Sheltered cries,
Sweet copper still fills the air spilling to the floor,
The nightmare gallops deep within her core.
Brutal Games
It's all a game to you,
A game you keep on playing,
It's all a painful show,
You watch me struggle,
Bring out your popcorn enjoy,
Ridicule and watch the blood flow,
Ribbons of crimson red,
Push me too far see me die,
Restrain me with your chains,
Watch my body crumble,
It's all a game sick game you play,
Creeping with stabbing laughs and it pains,
Sitting there with your red popcorn,
Beat me with your harsh words,
Kill me with your iron fists,
I reach inside to mend what's torn.
As I sit here I ponder why it is that you bother. I'm nothing just another face
in the crowd. Why do you bother I'm not special you didn't even take notice when
you walked right by me and looked right through me. So why do you bother now
when you haven't before? It's too late I'm already dead.
This poison that crawls through my veins,
But I’m the one holding the truth.
I’m fine; I’m fine you don’t have to worry about me,
Hate is your fate,
Mirrors of emotion that betray a happy day,
Beauty in death
One more cadaver and I'll be a serial killer,
Filth behavior yours and mine
I want to bathe in your filth,
I am dirt today but what you consider tomorrow?
I want to bathe in your filth,
I'm dirt today but what do you consider yourself as tomorrow?
I want to bathe in my filth,
Obey not
I'm your doll
cut and dry home.
When morning comes
The ebony will be gone in the morning with out a trace,
Red ribbons will stand with out a pace,
Everything settles to a calm breeze,
Pain, fear, and sadness subside with ease,
Brightened eyes will show no pains,
Sealing cuts and strawberry open veis,
You won't know anything I went through for everything will be gone,
It will all disappear in thin air when comes the dawn,
Eyes won't understand the disturbances I hold inside,
Minds won't know the sharp intense roller coaster ride,
Hands won't feel the shaking urges of dragging a blade,
When morning comes it will all fade.
Truth is Poison
Eats me up inside as the crimson stains,
It runs down the walls of my mind,
As these chains begin to tighten and bind,
The pain seeps under the surface and takes hold,
The corpses begin to mold,
The people that I’ve hurt,
Are all beneath the dirt,
The dirt of corruption and greed,
That they all have a need,
I’ve poisoned them with pain,
Most would say I’ve become mundane,
Feels fine
You think that I lie so you don’t have to see,
I may still be depressed or sad,
But that’s no reason to think I’m doing bad,
I’m better than I was last night,
I’m better when you hold me tight,
Ask me how the pain is and I’ll tell you “feels fine,”
Ask me how it feels in my head I tell you great as I draw another red line,
I’m fine stop asking I’m numb it’s gone,
My skin may be soft like the fur but I’m not as fragile as the fawn.
In graphed hate
Sorry it's too late,
Hate is in graphed in you veins,
So carry your gun,
Hate weighs a ton,
Rise up feel it boil inside,
Deny it but there isn't a place to hide,
Hate runs through you it's in graphed in your veins,
Unleash it and it will bring you to your knees with it's pains,
In graphed deep within pull out your gun,
There is no place to run,
Hate is your fate,
Sorry it's too late,
Hate is in graphed in you veins,
It will complicate you,
It will violate you,
Nothing but tasty darkness,
Surround yourself with alienation,
Hate is your fate,
Sorry it's too late,
In graphed deep within pull out your gun,
There is no place to run.
Eyes like mirrors
Blue-green sparkles shine in the sun’s ray,
Red teardrops crystals decorate thin shards of lashes,
Reflections of light make quick passing dashes,
Eclipsing black portals show what’s deep in the core,
Torture peers through as the agony proceeds to pour,
Chorus
Eyes of mirrors,
Refection of a corpse shining through,
Break the glass,
See massive shards scar the skin,
Masks worn for illusion,
Center optic reveals suffering,
No contentment for eyes of misery,
Beauty torn apart,
Mirrors of emotion cracked life of bad reflection,
Trapped behind the glossy glass only shows affliction,
Pluck thin shards teardrop crimson falls,
Refracting telescopes of torment truly appalls,
Irises endeavor to conceal the unspoken death inside,
Mirror image glazed with demise that can’t hide,
Chorus
Eyes of mirrors,
Refection of a corpse shining through,
Break the glass,
See massive shards scar the skin,
Masks worn for illusion,
Center optic reveals suffering,
No contentment for eyes of misery,
Beauty torn apart.
Slap the Kellogg Bar code on my wrist,
All fragile like corn flakes,
Their skin so pale,
Eyes like mirrors-glazed over,
Beautiful struggle-how easy life slips away,
Doused in bleach,
Painted up to perfection,
Dressed in bondage of death,
My collection of porcelain china dolls,
More to make locked in their cages,
The post killer will go postal when he sees what I've captured,
Tomorrow he will be postmortem,
But not until you become a butterfly,
Wrap you in your cocoon,
Metamorphose my little Kafka,
Pin you on the wall,
More beautiful than a doll,
Spread your wings let them shimmer,
Death leaches out of you and your eyes grow still and dimmer,
Beautiful change-how easy life dies.
Mirror image within,
Imitation of personality,
Color of perspective,
Love bound strong,
Held within a shell,
Taste of victory,
Destroyed again,
Touch of warmth,
Sealed within you,
advancement blocked,
things that make up my mind,
a picture perfect video tape of memory.
Only if I could grasp the complexities
and the secret of my own mind to find the
key that would unlock my wall that holds me
back from genius
Crush your heart and drink of your blood,
To taste of your sweet bitter sin,
What you would hate to admit.
Mirror image refection staring back at you,
Sin ha ha, Love ah ha moan,
What is inside you, inside me.
Truth to be the poison,
Monster, bet you want to kill me,
Something you don't understand,
Controversy everywhere, nowhere to hide,
Five silver bullets and the gun of your choice.
Ha fork in the road,
Something disgraceful lies in your way because it lies in mine.
Pride, Gluttony, Greed, Lust, Envy, Wrath, Sin something we love.
Pieces of the flesh, weighed, measured, found rotting.
I'm distasteful yes; I'm disgraceful yes; I've been found wanted;
Evilution the disgusting spawn of me.
Hypocrite no, yes, yes, no there is no beginning and there is no end.
Crush your heart and drink of your blood,
To taste of your sweet bitter sin,
What you would hate to admit is true.
Ugly, can't stand to see my own face starting back at you.
Sin ha ha, Love ah ha moan,
You’re a monster bet you want to kill me,
Pieces of flesh found rotting,
I stare back at my corpse in the mirror.
Crush my heart and drink of my blood,
To taste of my sweet bitter sin,
What I would hate to admit is true.
Here to enthrall
I've cut the strings
You can no longer control
Detached I was never attached
Say bye, bye, bye
I'm no longer a maggot
Grew my own attitude
Spit in disgust
Judgment day is here
But you're dismissed
Mind thy mother and thy father
Mind me
Say bye, bye, bye
I'm no longer a marionette
I've got no strings to weigh me down
Try to reel me in
Your hook no longer works
If there were a grain of sand stuck in your eye you'd see the world
Mind thy mother and thy father
Well it's time to mind me
these are songs and poems i wrote of my pain.
back to beauty marks.
cut and dry message board.
